75 followers and something else. · 10:15pm Jun 14th, 2016
I finally got 75 followers. I am happy about that. Why? My favorite number is 75 and I finally happy that after a year and a half I finally have that many.
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I hate to be so negative, but after this long I only have 75 followers, and I feel pathetic compared to users like LightningSword and HarmsWay, who have been on this site on more or less the sometime as me and I have nothing compared to the amount they have. Theirs is 10 times as much as mine. 27 followers of mine have less followers then me. That just doesn't sit right with me.
I am really grateful for my followers, don't ever think I am not, but after what happened with my kitten and this from DeviantArt, I really need to vent. I have a lot of other things I would really like to say, and some groups I would like to be an admin for but one thing at a time, but I am afraid that people would hate me for that. I am sorry if this is annoying, but I needed to say this.
Back to the other thing, I want to ask my followers a question and please answer.
What do you think of me? I really need to know.
I think you are a good writer and even though I don't know you personally I think you are a nice person and if you ever need someone to talk to you can always talk to me I will even give you my phone number if you want to talk, text, or whatever.
4022657 Thanks. That means a lot
4022668 it's nothing I'm never busy so we can talk as much as you like
*hugs* That's wonderful, and you already know what I think of you.
4022690 Thanks. It means a lot.
If you have fun writing what you like, then that is all that matters, my friend. Don't be concerned with the amount of followers. We are all here for the same reason. We enjoy the same show so much that we want to express our own adventures that aren't in the series. Some will get more likes and views than others. But does that take anything away from the enjoyment of getting the ideas in our mind to the keyboard?
As for my opinion, I think that you are a good person and an excellent writer. The moment that I first came to your profile and saw that promotion for LightningSword's Angry Review Recovery group, I knew right away that you are a good person. Don't let anyone make you think otherwise.
4022710 Thanks, and what you said does matter, but it really feels like I wouldn't be missed at times.
Look at the comment on my profile right before you left a thanks for giving your story a fave. It is from over four weeks ago. I could go months at times with out getting a comment. I have gone weeks at times with out getting a P.M. or a notification, and it hurts. It really does. I feel useless compared to so many users here, even you.
In a year you'll probably have over 1,000 followers, if not 2,000, and I'll barely be at 100, maybe 150. I appreciate that I have followers that care instead of just having a lot, but when I see that getting 100 is so easy, it makes me think that I am doing something that is so simple wrong. I hate to mention or say it like this, but I basically asked you to follow me. I appreciate the follow, I really do, but I had to ask you instead of you deciding to follow me on your own. I would see you follow some of my friends and those I consider my equal, but I had to ask for it. It was eating at me before, and it is eating at me now.
I had to beg Jay The Brony to follow me, and I am thankful everyday he does, but I had to ask him. I have 7 accounts following me that are banned, and that is just an empty follower so I don't really count it at 75. It would be 68, and then I have many accounts are following me because I had to beg for shout-outs. So I only have like 20-40, if that at all, because they weren't asked about it.
Again, I really do thank you for the follow and that you think so nicely of me, but I eat myself up everyday because I see that people can do anything and they are doing better then me. No one is making me think otherwise, it is my own insecurity doing it to me. When people can get 40 followers a day, and I get maybe one every week, it makes me think "What am I doing wrong?"
4022710 Sorry if it seems like a lot I just told, but it is how I feel. This is what I think every day, and I can't stop it.
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I understand exactly how you feel. I remember feeling that way a few months after I first joined. But after reading a story that I really enjoyed, I just started writing story after story in a series that is still going on today. And no, I'm not talking about "Erotica Girls". I might even say that the skills I learned from this first series, and inspiration from LightningSword, are the reasons that the series that everyone knows me for even exists.
It's like the saying from "Field of Dreams". If you build it, they will come.
4022692 You're welcome.
4022797 I know, and I try and I try and I try, but when I get motivated, I end up failing.
It was a miracle I finished the Sunset story I wrot, and I still can't believe I finished it, but I am tired of coming up short. I am tired of everyone else of getting 1-2 followers a day, and I get nothing. One year ago I had only 4-5 followers, and I had been one this site for at least half a year. I was nowhere and I feel I still am. I see all these people. The thing that gets at me the most is I know I am worth a lot more followers, but I can't do it alone.
You and LightningSword have both said the same thing in that I need to work harder. I am working as hard as I can. I cannot physically work any harder. I will lose with little sanity I have left if I do.
I need help with this.
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Well, perhaps I can help you out then. You still have that idea for a second person Aria one shot? If so, I can help you when I have free time from work.
4022920 Well, thanks for the offer, and I will ask you later, but I just want more followers. I would be happy if I woke up tomorrow with 100, but I doubt anyone could help me get 25 in an instant.
I've just had it. I work my ass off so I can pass my classes and everyone else on this site can do what comes naturally and they get what they deserve. Followers, friends, a story in the feature box, happiness.
I am just so frustrated, it feels like I could stop caring any minute, and I would be done with this site, and that would be it. I would still come, but I would have my stories removed. No stories means no reason to have followers. No followers means no stress, but I want followers. I like writing stories, and I want people to see how wonderful I am without looking pathetic like I do now.
I am just not doing this alone ever again, because as of right now I am not going to work harder on this site. I am on DeviantArt with my friends there, Facebook with those I know physically, tumblr, derpibooru, newgrounds, fanfiction.net, fictionpress, chrunchyroll, youtube, the wikis, tfwiki, tokunation, Equestria Daily, and many others along with the fact that I have classes in the fall, I am too over worked. Others are able to work around this. I CAN'T!! I just can't.
I can't and I will not do this alone anymore. I refuse to do this alone
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Man... come on.
I'll quote myself from another post.
The best kind of follower you can earn is one that actually has any interest in you. While this situation isn't exactly the same as what happened in the link above, the premise is pretty much the same. You want followers. But what for? You have 93 followers right now. Four different people other than you and I have commented here - one of whom seems to be your friend - on a post that concerns, among other things, your life situation and whatnot. So few people caring is pretty shallow (although I might not be giving this post enough headroom to let more people comment, but I doubt many more will), and it isn't really gonna get better just because you ask for more.
Pardon, I just like raining down the truth on people.
4024397 Yeah. I was in a foul mood yesterday, and I even said I would kick my self if I could. I know that quality followers over quantity. I get and admit where I was wrong, and at this point I will try my hardest to be happy with what I have. Thank you for what you said.
4024414 No problem, I'm glad you're able to take opinions like this.
4024419 I will always accept an opinion. If I have to admit it is the wrong place for it, I will, but I respect it. Everyone has one, and I know what it is like to be bashed for having a different one.
4024420 Good on you, buddy.
I went around and read your post on DeviantArt.
We're in pretty similar boats.
You're a very honest person. If you're actually as dedicated to your close ones as your words make you seem to be, then I hope someone one day treats you well enough.
4024777 It will and I feel it has.