Im still Alive · 6:51pm May 4th, 2016
As the title says, im still alive and kicking, just been...beside myself a lot. haven't done a lot of writing lately for the simple fact is...well I don't know. I've just returned from the hospital and was talking to my doctor, seems I've been depressed lately even though I didn't feel it or know of it, lack of energy, and just other things I used to do, not doing as much, or not at all.
Stress has also been a major factor as well. luckly I am staying with family because I quit my job because of time, and also stress of the work place.
I like to thank anyone who reads this that is wondering what happened to me or where am I on this site. and I know a lot of people are no doubt wondering when the next chapter will come out...truthfully i'm not sure. i'm not trying to force myself, but I do write at times.
in fact in light of this, here is a small preview of what is to come.
"The hell do you want, rapist?" I said with such clear venom in my voice, to which I can remember. "Come here to offer more threats, to try and make me say sorry for saying everything that was right about you?" He looked away from me, as if the words I used, harmed him, good, because that's all he was. a whiny little brat, that thinks just because he has all this money and title he could do whatever he wished. "Well out with it!"
"I'm...sorry..." when he said those words, to say I was without words...well that wasn't true ether.
"Sorry...sorry that's all you can say?!" I like to think it was the drinks I had early that made me do more yelling then anything. "Is that all you can really say? is that you are sorry, for what huh? that you raped a mare, because you can't get anyone to willing bend over for you? that you denied your own son, a product of what you did with Angel, or the fact as well; that everyone should just take care of shit, clean up after everything you do?!" I saw him flinch away, as he was looking down. "You said I should, we should speak, stallion to stallion...well I can't. you are not a stallion, you are nothing but a coward, and I don't speak to cowards!"
I was half expecting him to call the guards, to order them to throw me in jail, hell it was what he tried to do last time. And at this point, I really didn't care if he did or not; I would simply use that as ammo for when the next time we met. however, I watched as he looked away once more, this time looking outside the large windows before sighing softly. "I am all those things you called me, hu...Brandon," once more leaving me struck with confusion. who was this stallion standing before me...he couldn't be Blue Blood. "For as long as I can remember...I have used my power as Prince to do whatever I wish, and my Aunt...she allowed me to. I was never punished for my actions, and I believe that this caused me to keep going on the way I was."
"Believed?" I questioned him.
"Alright...I thought it did," he corrected as I only looked at him all the more as I made my way over toward the bed.
"Just tell me what you want...I've no time to deal with you...I have stuff of my own to deal with."
Back before the whole, Luna blasting me into a wall thing, she told me a rather...interesting story. Of course she and her sister had lovers in the past, and even married a few times, why they never kept the term of Queen, when married, they kept the titles of Princesses so that neither could have full control. Even though back then, Celestia did have a bit more ground when it came to what would be best for the kingdom; from what she told me. It had to do with her last husband, Celestia's I should say. This was before the time when Luna was sent to the moon after she became Nightmare Moon. Luna wouldn't give me a name, who this stallion was; but her sister loved him very much, he was the captain of the guards, and it seemed such a cliché thing; but they married and such. This husband had family of course brothers, sisters who scattered around after Equestria started to expand, to take land and make a new life.
She and this stallion didn't have children, Luna explained that yes, Alicorn were powerful, but they were not immortal, and nether were their parts of having foals. Both their times had passed to have children. What did this have to do with Blue Blood...well, it seemed Blue Blood looked much like her long lost husband.
It wasn't a good excuse, from what I heard from and even what Luna explained to me. But when Celestia went about different cities and found him in the street...alone, shivering and hungry, she took him in, and adopted him and well...spoiled him, horribly so. Luna thought that she couldn't bare to punish him, and hoped that one day he would become much like his ancestor of old, but from what I saw before, what he said about Silver...seemed that did not work out.
I didn't care about the reason, he should've been taught by her that just because you are powerful, that doesn't give you the right to walk over anyone, abused your power over others and such.
I still meant what I said about him, and even more, he was a coward, he sighed away Silver as if he didn't care, to which he didn't; heartless bastard.
"I wish...to meet Silver, for real this time."
I hope you enjoy this small part, and I hope to see you all once again.
it sounds to me like you just need time to gather your life up and to tell the truth you needed to ditch that job a long time ago.
it is time to look for a new job but keep going to your doctor that is going to be the best for now.
and remember you can always give me a shout and we can talk.
stay strong :)
I hope you can de-stress and move on to a better work place.
i'm wishing you the best so... have a nice day!