Nov
6th
2015
I'm done trying... · 7:35am Nov 6th, 2015
I used to feel like I had purpose in my life. Like all of this lead to something...
I was wrong as hell...
All that I've been doing so far is pushing the people that I love and care for away, and destroying the relationships that I have.
My life isn't important anymore, and Elusive would agree with that as well. So would Patriot, and Rumble...
The only thing that I have ever been is destructive. Making everyone else pay the price when it was supposed to be my punishment.
The very day that I was born was a mistake, and I'm gonna fix it...
~StarSide445
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See, it's interesting, because you're not going to kill yourself. I know you're not, Elusive knows you're not, Patriot knows it too, and I'm sure Rumble knows it also.
They don't care about me, and neither do you.
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I doubt they don't. I know that I care in a particular sort of way, and that you will not kill yourself.
Hey hey.... *hugs you tight* don't say that.
Life is hard, I know that. And, it might seem that it doesn't have a purpose, there is one. It's just hard to find.
I still care about you. And, to me, you haven't done anything wrong.
In my eyes, you're a sweet, random, funny and a great friend.
If you need a talk, I'm here for you.
3524468 Tavi, you wouldn't even give a shit if I died of an illness, let alone by my own hand.
3524469 Derec....it's been forever...
NOnononono What's wrong Emmie??
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I would give several, actually.
3524475 I'm hated now, Sean.
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Calm down Sean, for heaven's sake. Emmie will not kill herself, be assured of that.
3524473 I know. And i dislike that very much. But I'm here now.
3524475 I do not think your life is worthless. We just didn't work as well as I had imagined and hoped for, I guess.
Get better soon...
Woah woah woah woah star. Slow down there. Life Always has meaning. Seriously! What's with this? First it was Icy now it's you!? You seemed so nice...
3524482 I don't give an ass if you say she won't! I have to make damn positive! I love her too much!!!
3524484 No, you'd rather see me burn in hell...
Don't miss the show.
3524480 You are not hated whatsoever. Even if everyone on fimfic didn't like you, I'd comfort you through all the crap. I'd do as much as I possibly could to keep you happy...
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No one here should care about me. I've done nothing to earn it.
I'm possibly the worst human on this site right now....you can ALL do better than me..
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No, what she needs is secure counselling.
3524499 Why shouldn't I care about you Emmie? I love you!! So much, and seeing you like this is so heavy on me....
3524500 Or support?
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Don't be absurd. Think, does it matter in the slightest what we think of you? None of us know you in person. We know next to nothing about you, Emmie. To even suggest that our views on you, all of which, up to this point on my end of the pier, have all been positive ones, have even the slightest leeway for you is... well, so absurd it's very nearly amusing.
In short, what does it matter what people here think of you? Think, I have so many users that dislike me for various reasons, but do I let that get to me in the slightest? No.
3524489 I DO NOT. I wish the absolute best for you both. I REALLY do. I just wish I could have this happiness for real
3524505 Yeah, sure.
That's why you wouldn't even give my last offer a chance.
Now you get what you always wanted...
3524505 You get to watch me burn in hell.
...on my birthday...
Star, I am always here for you, and you have never been destructive to me. You;re a good girl who has bad things happen to her. If things have gone wrong, that is life. I should know, as life keeps trying to kill me, as it seems to unfortunately be doing to you. Please, don't let it. Continue to seek help like this. Go to anti-depression bronies, as there are so many there who can help too.
You would not have so many here talking to you if all you did was inflict pain.
3524508 What do you think I always wanted. And I only declined because I knew it would happen again if I did stay with you and him
3524499 pff. Stop this. You're a great friend! You've supported me, helped me.... you do earn this.
3524516 No it wouldn't.
But my word doesn't matter anymore, apparently. So YAY!! Happy fun times as I slice my throat or shoot myself!!!
3524518 Do you want to know something Derec?...
3524521 You know I can do the same thing too, now, don't you? Because now I have absolutely no reason to hope for a new dawn for myself
3524523 yeah. Go ahead and tell me. :)
S-Star? Y-y-you t-there????
3524527 THEN STAY WITH US!!
You think that I haven't seen where I went wrong? You think that I haven't learned?
My past taught me to learn.
3524521 Please don't say things like that...
3524530 You were the first friend I ever made on this site...
....thank you....
3524536 .... you're welcome. *hugs you tight* and I'll always be here for you.
3524527 I know what my mistakes were and I wanted to fix them...
...but you won't let me...
So I'm done people. Sorry.
3524538 You wanted to? I don't remember anything about any mistakes you made with me... I'm sorry I'm having trouble remembering
3524543 Pleas no star....Think about all the people who'll be heartbroken by this. Sean is literally crying!
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I never made time for you. I never talked to you for more than half an hour. And I'm sorry.
I'm sorry that I'll never be good enough.
SO FUCK MY LIFE!!
3524549 You were plenty goo enough. But I have my own flaws, too—and they amplify the effects of your own substantially
3524550 Me too, Emilie... We're not 'us' anymore, but we can still be friends. Don't forget that...
3524550 Sorry for wasting your time, Marcus. But I'm not worth it.
I never was.
You know about my past....carry it on so that no one else makes the mistake of using me as an example.
Oh, and you could have told me yourself, instead of waiting for me to find out.
3524559 And I'm doing the world a favor.
3524562 Please don't go....don't I still matter at all?