First off I am recovered, mostly. I’ve been hanging out here and there, even finished art. There are ups and downs here…but you have to expect such things I suppose.
...who thought this would be SOOOOOOO damn hard!?!?!?!? I've written this chapter 5 times...and thrown it away, the only part that as survived is the Caribou part...which really is not long at all.
GAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
P.S. 1513 Km in a car non stop...not fun. I respect the Gemini astronauts a lot more now.
3474100 I work a 17-20 hour day now every other day. I start at noon, do prep and other stuff through the day, implement at night often going through 7 am...sleep then get up a noon for the 'meeting'. I may not have to work that night again, but after such a long span...it's just rough. Top it off with the NOC work allowed me to write in off time, this job I don't I'm constantly busy making scripts and code.
Then Rattletrap (my IRL Waifu) is suffering from some messed up fibro stuff...so I have to do a bunch of the stuff like get the kids to school and cook, dishes...etc. The oldest has started to help pick up some of the work...but there is a bunch to do.
Let alone the bloody lawsuit dragging my @$$ into it as a witness to possible labor violations.
I haven't really art-ed since A.J. (RD doesn't really count IMHO...I just added the blood to a skin I already had finished 7 weeks ago). Now a-days I spend 20 min on DA every other day for fun and then blitz out and work....
I haven't really been sleeping, which makes the next day harder, slower...like you're walking through tar. I haven't flown in flight sim for ...gad 6 weeks! Writing is hard cuz of the fatigue and time and then there's the job. I SO want to chuck it...but I've got 6 counting on me...and it makes for a weird mental state. Pony is one of the few things I can do 'on the fly' that is fun (I haven't even watched the new Flash yet). It's times like this I wish I had not sold my Japanese bow...I could use some zen archery right now I think.
3474140 Then you know how...lethargic it can make your mind. That's kinda what's happening to me....and I found out the course of my life would have been VERY different: my mother admitted to me a month ago that she deliberately sabotaged things for me in my early college years~! FFFFFF
Dude, talk to me. :-(
3474100 I work a 17-20 hour day now every other day.
I start at noon, do prep and other stuff through the day, implement at night often going through 7 am...sleep then get up a noon for the 'meeting'. I may not have to work that night again, but after such a long span...it's just rough. Top it off with the NOC work allowed me to write in off time, this job I don't I'm constantly busy making scripts and code.
Then Rattletrap (my IRL Waifu) is suffering from some messed up fibro stuff...so I have to do a bunch of the stuff like get the kids to school and cook, dishes...etc. The oldest has started to help pick up some of the work...but there is a bunch to do.
Let alone the bloody lawsuit dragging my @$$ into it as a witness to possible labor violations.
I haven't really art-ed since A.J. (RD doesn't really count IMHO...I just added the blood to a skin I already had finished 7 weeks ago). Now a-days I spend 20 min on DA every other day for fun and then blitz out and work....
F***ING H*** am I tired!
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Feel cornered? Trapped? Like finishing your hobby project is going to be impossible?
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It's more than that.
I haven't really been sleeping, which makes the next day harder, slower...like you're walking through tar. I haven't flown in flight sim for ...gad 6 weeks! Writing is hard cuz of the fatigue and time and then there's the job. I SO want to chuck it...but I've got 6 counting on me...and it makes for a weird mental state. Pony is one of the few things I can do 'on the fly' that is fun (I haven't even watched the new Flash yet). It's times like this I wish I had not sold my Japanese bow...I could use some zen archery right now I think.
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I haven't been sleeping either. At all.
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Then you know how...lethargic it can make your mind. That's kinda what's happening to me....and I found out the course of my life would have been VERY different: my mother admitted to me a month ago that she deliberately sabotaged things for me in my early college years~! FFFFFF