Staving Off Loneliness and Trying New Things · 5:21am Sep 7th, 2015
Welp, looks like its time for a serious post, and yet another round of babbling in the place of actual story updates. 
Your friendly sociopathic neighborhood editor and storyteller Word Worthy is in one of those moods again.
So, I discovered much to my surprise over a week ago, that in my downtown - the backwater east end of the Quad Cities meeting the Mississippi - there actually exists an adorable little Buddhist temple in an old brick storefront. Now, were you someone who knew me personally away from the internet, you'd most likely know how much of a loner I've been over the years to my own detriment. I've lost a lot of would-be lifelong friends over the years either from me being an asshole, my family moving across to the other side of the metro area, some other factor, or just never having made much of an impression to begin with, and the fear of getting too close to people even now is a very real fear, the fear of "inevitable' loss.
Take romance, for example. I let my problems get so bad, that when I finally did attempt to start such a thing with a person, it blew up in my face royally. But, like all things, it was a valuable learning experience.
Well after the events of the past four years, that lone wolf mentality is finally beginning to crumble away piece by piece, although it might not entirely go away fully for almost a decade or more. I suppose if one really wanted to know the true reason why I love writing so much but still procrastinate month after month on my projects, its because I lack true, lasting stability in my life away from the alluring glow of the screens. I don't have people physically around that are willing to not only vaguely point me in the right direction, but also instead push me there to see it through to the end, catch me if I fall. It's bred a form of cynicism in me despite my true beliefs to the contrary in regards to man in general as a race.
Away from the net, I don't have a Mane Six to my Twilight Sparkle. No Jay to my Silent Bob. No Master Chief to my Cortana. Not even a Sam to my Frodo Baggins.
This week hopefully, I'll be introducing myself to the good folks up at the temple and attend whatever Buddhist services they hold, if possible. I attended one Buddhist service down in Texas during the dark days of Basic Training and it may have actually helped save my life. That, combined with MLP, its fandom, and by extent, my writing and all the people it's lead me to meet, are the reasons I haven't just got up and walked right out of my house to wander about until my skinny arse drops.
With that in mind, at temple I'll finally get a chance to get involved with the community, learn new traditions, meet new faces, make connections, all that good stuff.
So in a nutshell, I'm trying new things, starting with my spiritual side. Not just to better myself and the world around me, but also to prevent personal oblivion.
To anyone who actually takes the time to read my dreck, thank you for understanding. I love 
you all about as much as any person can love folks they've never even met in person.
Well it's good to try new things. I believe this might be a good start for you. I had no idea this was how you were feeling, I could've tried to brighten things up, or at the very least try instead of babbling on about a story I seem to force on you. Well know that you have good friends, myself among them, and I'm happy that you're thinking positively about what you want to do.
It's great to see that you're trying to change your life for the better. We all hit bumps along the path of life, and sometimes we fall into a hole. However, there are always going to be ways to pull yourself out, and there will always be someone to help you do it. Float on, Word Worthy!
"Change is possible through action, but only if that person is willing to change. If he/she is willling, they can be better then they ever were before."
United States Marine Corps-
Good on you, man! Hope to see more beautiful works from you in the future!
3375269 Thanks man
Good for you, dude. Glad you're trying to pull yourself together.
Fly on, Little Wing.
By Luna's glorious moon, I used to go to college in the QC! I can relate somewhat to your situation (although I gave up writing due to other medical/mental struggles) and am glad you're trying new things.
3375320 Small world, eh?
3375300 Right on.
3375812 I still have friends in RI so I might be back there some day
3375839 Cool.