but I realized that I may as well share it here just for those interested. Whether I'll start writing here again remains to be seen (I'm not going to force myself to write something I'm not currently interested in), but I've finally started taking a hammer to that wall that keeps me from working on creative pursuits in my life.
I'm questioning whether I'm cut out for writing anymore.... · 3:03am Aug 26th, 2015
WARNING: The creator of this blog may be under the influence of Bipolar Disorder while writing this. As such, do not take these words too seriously.
It's a-week-to-three-months since I updated Unnatural Existence.
THAT'S ALMOST A QUARTER OF A YEAR.
And it doesn't help I have this other story posted with only one chapter on it, not updated ever since it was posted....
I struggle and stress out about it everyday. I know what to write about; I have it all planned. The next chapter of Unnatural Existence is planned out, and I have over 900 words written for it.
Depths of Despair is planned out, but the next chapter has 0 words written....
It should be easy. It should be fast. It shouldn't be a struggle to simply write a couple thousand words every few days. I have FAR more than enough spare time to do it.
And I have tons of other fanfiction ideas. Even other stories I started on a while ago.
But I can't get myself to write! I just can't!
And what does that say for my ability to pursue writing as a career? What does that say for how much I actually enjoy what I'm doing here on fimfiction?
I've even lost the ability to read stories often. I have many friends who have stories written that I intend to read and never get around to it. My Read it Later bookshelves are in total backed up to about 5 million words.
I can't write unless it'll be good. Those there on the night of July 1st will remember what happened when I tried to write without motivation other than 'I have to get this done!'. It was garbage.
So now I'm stuck.
All this has been on my mind for weeks, maybe over a month. I had to get it out there to everyone.
And for all of you awaiting a new chapter, I apologize.....
Dude...for the last three years, I have updated exactly one chapter per year, on only one of my three stories.
Speed is not important. Quality and tenacity is. Don't give up. Do the work at the pace you need to do the work at. You'll get it done when you get it done and not one second before, and as long as you like what your writing, it'll turn out great.
1201 chapters, 6,100,000 words. Ridiculously stuffed Read It Later lists are hardly something you're alone with. I've also seen stories bounce back after longer periods than that and end up even better for it. Probably won't matter to you right now, but hey, I thought I'd at least say it.
3348034 I honestly think how long you're going without writing is too long. But viewpoints make all the difference, I guess....
I'm aware of all the things you said. I learned it on July 1st, as I said in this blog post. It's why I haven't simply written to write and produced garbage.
I don't want this weighing on me for years. And if it takes years, then I'll probably never finish it.
Oh great, now I realized that I'll probably never finish this.....
3348052 I appreciate what you said, thank you....even if I already know all that, I guess sometimes hearing it from other people helps....
(hugs gently)
3348067 Nah. You'll get it done, and you'll do it at your own pace. You just need to believe in your self, and find a little inspiration. Almost every artist and writer I know struggles with what you're going through, myself included. Just don't give up, and try to stay positive. and don't be afraid to Take a break if you need to.
for what it's worth, I once spent half of a year without updating anything. If I came back from that, you are overqualified to do so, just give it time.
You don't have to be so hard on yourself, if you take time to write, it's better than quitting it and never finish it.
If you feel those day are a bad period to write, don't try.
Know that, whatever you do, I'll be ok with that and I'm probably not the only one thinking this.
Dont be so hard on yourself, there are ways to work on being stuck. What I think you should do is make a collab project. Something that could influence positive emotions which are often the case for inspiration. I myself get inspiration during negative emotions, so I may be wrong with your case.
Just because at the moment you aren't feeling inspired. Doesn't mean you cant pursue it as a career. Many writers feel that same problem. Why don't you look up what helps them? I know that many have told what exactly remedies them.
3348477 Thank you....
I've never done a collab, at least not for fanfiction....I don't see how it'd work or how it'd help, though.....
3348361 But I want to write! I actually FEEL LIKE WRITING but I don't write for some reason!
3348217 It's too long. If I was a busy person it'd be excused. But I have very little to do each day, and I actually WANT to write and FEEL LIKE IT but I for some reason don't!!!
3348131 I took a month's break...it made it harder.
If I consistently write, then I'm used to it, and it's easier to write. The longer I go without writing, the harder it is.
Maybe my readers can wait...maybe everyone can wait, but I can't wait. It's the fact that I could so easily write the last bit of that chapter in like less than half an hour's time worth right now yet I don't that pains me so much.
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Well it would help in that it could push the stuck clogs and kick start your inspiration. And it would help make friends. Which would also add to your motivation. I'm sure you have ideas but no motivation. (I know the feeling) this way you can at least write something even if it is small and collabed.
Sometimes that's all you need. And I'm sure the many friends you have on here would love to do a collab with you. Just try it~!
3349024 okay....thank you
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You just need that inspiration. Be patient, it can't be forced. Try to distract yourself a little.