ToixStory Update · 6:13am Aug 26th, 2014
Just about an hour ago I logged back onto fimfic to check and see if that donation blogpost I had left had attracted any more attention to it, and when I checked my news feed I read this blogpost. The long and the short of it is that ToixStory, as of 24 sum odd hours ago, might very well in fact have taken her own life. I do not wish to spread rumors, sensationalize, or stirrup any kind of mess that ToixStory will be left to clean up if she does indeed surface again, but I feel that I must say something. Just the other day I made a blog post asking for you all to donate money to her paypal if you could afford it, so at the very least I feel I owe you a warning advising you all to wait and see if she is in fact alive before sending her any more. More importantly, she is a good friend of mine and a true supporter of my work since I posted the first few chapters of Awakening. I've edited her writing on more than one occasion, and I've spent a great deal of time chatting with her one Skype.
I wish I could provide some new information that might shed some light on where she is now, but I can't even speculate. Last week, when I spoke with her last, she seemed fine. Now, she's at least disappeared.
This is the part where I feel it's usually appropriate to say something along the lines of, "keep her in your prayers or thoughts," but I'm not. If she has indeed taken her own life, then she's in the hands of whatever higher power you believe in. For those of you who don't believe, I have no need to remind you that keeping her in your thoughts will do nothing to bring her back. Regardless of where she is now, she's chosen not to speak on her behalf and similarly receive our attempts at contact. If you must pray or keep someone in your thoughts, pray and think of JustAnotherTimelord, who made the blog post on her user page and continues to carry a burden on his shoulders that I can not begin to fathom.
ToixStory has never struck me as a troubled girl, or whatever terms we assign to people who experience on a day to day basis the same hardships she does, simply a sensitive one. It might be too late to do anything for her, but it isn't too late to do something for the people around you. Our community attracts a lot of sensitive people, and for sensitive people ten up votes or one great comment on their story can make their entire day, but just as easily a single red thumbs-down can ruin it.
I'm sorry if I have overstepped the bounds of what I am allowed to say by writing what I have here on this blog, but the one thing I want more than anything is: Be kind to each other. And if you need an excuse to do it, do it because I'm sure ToixStory would appreciate it.
--Solocitizen
oh...man. never heard of toix before but I will hope that she is alright as would anyone else. I do send my thoughts to JustAnotherTimelord. I can't imagine how badly he feels.
I grow the feeling that a group called FimFic: Suicidal Members would attract way more attention than it should. In the years I'm member on this site I learned more about public support for people with suicidal tendencies in the U.S.A. than I ever learned about such things in my own country. Next to psychiatries, that is.
Neither I have ever heard of Toix, but as I know the feeling of uncertainty in this matter, I hope the best for everyone involved. There are those throw-away-mobiles at Walmart, that eventually can't be called from another state than where they were bought (dangerous half-knowledge from an other continent). If they don't block short messages or the money ran out (I believe the called person has to pay as well, but I'm even less sure about Texas). So, from my perspective, there's still a reason not to abandon hope.
I've read a few of her stories. They all deserved a favorite from me. I'm not really religious, and I usually stick to pretty Darwinian principles, but her contributions make me hope that she's still there and will someday come back into contact with the world. We all go through hard spots, some consume more of our lives than others. Don't read too far into that one.
I suck at being sensitive, but I genuinely care