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kudzuhaiku


She's looking at you. Yes you. And she is judging you with her eyes. There is no escape.

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  • 53 weeks
    It's late

    But my brain isn't quiet. I'm stoned out of my goddamn gourd. Don't worry, it is just my usual regimen of drugs. That's how I spent a lot of my time now. Wasted. Doesn't really help with the pain much, but makes it a bit more tolerable. All of my drugs cost over 5 grand a month. That's what it takes to keep me going. I'm in somewhat better shape because of all of it, and there's a few bright

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  • 64 weeks
    Cyborgification is potentially a-go

    Finally found a doctor that didn't run screaming upon seeing my spine images and xrays. The team is coming together. Met with the neurosurgeon the other day, and he thinks I am an ideal candidate for augmentation. The transition is happening, I think. I still have to pass a psych evaluation and other steps, but I am closer now than ever. First I'll have the trial run; they'll sink electrodes into

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  • 93 weeks
    Today, life changes forever.


    It's been a long, long road to get to this point. A big thank you to everyone who has been with me during this journey.

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  • 94 weeks
    Big changes are happening


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  • 117 weeks
    I suppose it is time for an update

    Been meaning to this, and I've become the King of Pro-Crasty Nation. I kept wanting to report, but there was nothing to report, no good news at all, so I just... didn't. Sorry. Went a bit silent on my end. It just sorta happened.

    I finally got a lawyer willing to take up my case. After that, things started happening.

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May
17th
2014

Friendship is magic · 5:12am May 17th, 2014

Stolen from my Tumblr

Click the link so see higher res images of these pics. She's worth it! My Tumblr might break your brain though. So be careful.

My best friend.

My best friend. The girl I love more than anything.

Funny story, in the last picture, she FARTED just before I snapped the photo. She is covering her nose because she doesn't like her own brand.

My miniature old English pocket beagle.

And yeah, this is me, in bed. I was hurting pretty bad, and my beagle was trying to make me feel better.

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Friends are like a trampoline.

I always wanted a trampoline

Cute dog, but I prefer small, small rodents.

2119143

Funny, so does she!

:heart:

This may be edging on the too peronal, but I am curious as to your condition. You mention being in pain now and then (physical pain, I gather), and have once mentioned 'phantom pain', which seems to imply a limb or appendage having been amputated.

Whether or not you wish to tell me, I leave that up to you. But know that I am thinking of you and hoping that things get better, kay? :scootangel:

2119784

I had my left leg internally severed. Only the skin was left holding it on. It had to be attached, and it was done so badly. I still have my food, but I can feel pain outside and under my food, in a place I cannot reach. I am paralysed from the knee down. It feels like my foot is being held over a fire sometimes. Everything was rebuilt with metal. Bad metal too. It creaks and pops and the cold makes it hurt like crazy.

In that same accident, I had the C5 and C6 discs in my neck ruptured, and they ruptured inwards into my spine. Did damage. Right arm is partially paralysed, I lost more than 50% function. Also hampers my breathing and other functions.

I have extensive neurological damage and neuroplegia in my left leg. I have a prosthetic that I have to wear if I want to walk. I also lost a few inches of leg length.

And that was from one accident. I've had many. Too many compound fractures to count.

And I don't take pain killers. Most of the time. I just sort of deal with it.

2119828 Dude...that's even worse than I was expecting! Seeing as your injuries no doubt keep you from doing much physically, that largely explains the multitudinous output of writing you post here. Must be a bugger for you to type, too, with limited functioning of one arm. Do you offset some of the strain with dictation software?

2119902

No.

I work for it.

Which is why I suppose I get a bit touchy when people make bad criticisms of what I do.

I write on a Chromebook. I like it. Perfect typewriter.

2119925 Well good on ya, working hard for your writing.

I understand getting upset about having something you literally slaved over get bashed. I know the feeling, and it wounds you. That being said, people have the right to either agree or disagree with what you have written, as I'm sure you are well aware...but those expressing their dissatisfaction would do well to use tact and couch their words in a gentle manner, so as to lessen the blow.

Awww, she's so sweet!

I'm adopting a cat today. Yay for pets :D

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