EThe Man in Black
MLP: FiM
Dark
Slice of Life
Johnny Cash introduces Equestria to Country.
Human
Applejack
Main 6
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Apologies (The Man in Black) · 9:44pm Apr 8th, 2014

I'm writing these three for my top three stories, at least the ones that aren't one-shots, of course. And for what, well mainly the long update periods. It's been over a month since I've tried to write anything period, and far longer since I tried to continue these. I feel somewhat ashamed about it, and things can't fully seem to keep up.

One of the reasons for this is my hectic schedule, although, looking over my own work, it's not an entire excuse itself; I'll admit I was lazy at times, and I'll apologize for that as well. After that (and one could probably guess this already), I've come up with several new ideas of various design and in varying stages of completion; and since my mind never stops thinking, I've got around 100 odd story ideas (counting those I have, as I've never fully completed anything) and I keep wanting to try new things. I also deal heavily with Paranoia and Depression, which can delay things quite a bit.

But beyond all of that is the most horrid, damning thing. I just can't get the good feeling from writing anymore, and indeed my spirited, prided, kind of pure happiness feeling I found when I first joined the fandom is lost. I love almost everything about it, and I love you all especially as family. Yet now I don't feel that giddy feeling I long for, the feeling of uniqueness is missing, and I'm trying to find it. It started festering a while back, and just exploded when the group thread notifs were turned off and interaction just vanished. When I did my first story I did it on something I loved and I'll admit it was nowhere near great, but I enjoyed doing it through all the work. Now writing doesn't feel... rewarding.... it feels like a chore. Whenever I open a doc to write something, I actually find myself sighing, like I'm doing homework or something.

But I've resolved to get past this now. I'm going to write what I feel like writing. I'm going to write in the style I feel comfortable with. And with my first anniversary of joining the fandom just around the corner, I will do something. From now on, my writing isn't going to be a business. This is going to be about the same thing the fandom is about, fun. It's as simple as that.

The Johnny Cash story comes from the group of ideas that randomly popped in my head when I was trying to fall asleep at night. I knew I had something going, not as popular as this, but something in general. Before it came out I actually made a list of musicians that I wanted to send over. The first original ones on the list were Elvis, Frank Sinatra, The Beatles, Billy Joel, and Johnny Cash; the winner just happened to be the one I felt like doing first. I sort of just got bored with it; sorry but it tends to happen. I've only got about 7 regular sized chapters left, but pretty much everything begins to 'happen' so to say, in those last chapters story wise; it'll probably have something important happening in each one. And assuming I don't get sued (yes, a legit fear. Paranoia, remember?) I can probably come up with stories for a good deal of other musicians after this story.

Good Lord, I'm basically a future soldier (preferably the fighter type) writing musical fanfiction. I've blown my own mind to wild proportions...