More Depression Issues, I think... · 7:30am Jan 17th, 2014
Given that in the past few days, my interest to write, play games, and pretty much do anything has died out altogether, I can only conclude that it's another episode of something that I've had to self-diagnose, because family of lazy fucks who don't know what 'professional help' means.
I got up to the sex for Sunset Shimmer: The Alicorn, The Clopping and The Pregnancy. I was tempted to skip over that to be an even bigger jerk, until I gave up altogether and left it as is. I don't know when it's going to land, and quite frankly at this point I don't even care. I've lost three weeks of time on a project I was looking forward to because Microsoft are assholes. People can wait.
If it's not obvious enough that I need to take a break from the internet, I'll say this. I am getting tired of everything pony related as of late. A majority of the episodes have left me with a 'meh' feeling. Every day, I see more and more bitching about Derpy, and art, and fiction, and the whole lot.
I've had enough.
I consider my pony writing a practise run for the real deal. I want to make it a good read, because that means I'm doing it properly, and I can do it properly with original fiction.
If that's not good enough, the door is right there. I'll just get back to continuing whatever story strikes my fancy when the time comes...
If you feel you need a break, take that break. You're fans will be here for you when you return.
I agree with 1726739 You don't need to feel compelled to revolve your life around others, and if watching MLP is starting to feel "meh" you probably should be doing something more for yourself.
I had to self-diagnose myself with depression and get myself to a doctor because like with you, my family couldn't seem to take the hint that that was what I needed after a lifetime of "mum, I feel pretty depressed and-useless-and-uninterested-and-constantly-tired-and-kind-of-want-to-kill-myself. My father couldn't deal with the idea that people should have emotions being a bit emotionally defective himself (get out of the doctor's office; "dad, I'm clinically depressed", says "oh, good, let's get some sushi!" True story.) and my mother is so emotionally needy. feeding of the emotions of others like an over-emotional vampire that she couldn't deal with the fact that her daughter hadn't developed into a producer of happiness for her to feast on but was instead "incredibly rude and ungrateful" for saying I was depressed, also true story. SO yeah, I know how it's pretty frustrating to not take the problem seriously.
Depression issues aren't something that easily go away. I've had it most of my life. Ignoring it won't do anything. Medication has never worked for me. There was a short period where I didn't have it and that was because I was around friends constantly. However, that couldn't last.
I ran into the brony fandom at the time and it was amazing. Still, even that I feel it is starting to gutter out. Maybe it's the lackluster episodes this season so far(Loved Pinkie Apple Pie). Maybe it's the backlog of incredible stories that either have been put on hiatus or only update once a month. This fandom may have reached its peak at the end of season 3(I truly don't know).
Take a break. Come back and if it still isn't something to motivate you, see about handing on your various, unfinished projects to other writers. Like RariJack, this work can always find additions by various authors. I have no other examples to give as that is mostly what I keep up with.
I won't ramble on due to rushing this morning, but I can assure you we can wait as long as you need.
Maybe getting together and working out some more of the kinks in that joint project we talked about could rekindle the desire to write?
Yeah, I've been kinda feeling the same way about the fandom lately, myself.
I'd be willing to look at any original stories that you wrote, and I even know of a few sites you can submit stuff to make a little extra money.
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Honestly, I could probably whip out some small-to-medium size stories if I was super desperate for money. But this... It's a huge project, and I'm pretty obsessed with making sure it gets the right type of treatment, especially after what will probably two years of writing it.