2013: it was certainly a year · 1:04pm Dec 31st, 2013
Good afternoon one and all!
Unless you're living in the US, in which case it's early morning right now, I guess? Eh, you get the point.
It's the last day of the year. A year in which a lot happened. I finished MLC, I wrote Louder than Words, I started working on Traveler's Exile, and I even went to Bronycon. I met a lot of cool people, finally went back to studying, and have even started being a dungeon master for a D&D group. We even finished our first campaign yesterday!
All in all, though... I'd have to say this year wasn't all that good. There were a lot of positive points, don't get me wrong, but right now, I feel sick and tired of everything and I'm just glad there's that boundary to cross into a new year. This year was a lonely one, mostly spent working, or alone. I'm a bit terrible at making friends, and I'm especially awful when it comes to trusting people enough to actually call them a friend. Complicating matters is that I'm on anxiety meds and light therapy, and even then I tend to feel awful at random. I've been using these things for long enough that such side effects should be gone, but they're not.
It really serves to put things into perspective. Not a very good perspective, at that. The perspective that, despite my preferences for rationality and neutrality, I'm far, far away from keeping myself under control. Luckily, it doesn't mean that I hurt others, but I tend to damage myself a lot. It's why I there's all these delays in my stories, because I hamper myself so much that I can't write. In the end, I'm just as flawed as any other person, but I can just keep it hidden a bit better. I can even hide it from myself at times. Trying to deal with this is hard. I feel exhausted, a kind of mental strain having spread through my whole body. It really doesn't help that it makes my nights very uneasy.
This past year might be the very first where I'll honestly say that I didn't enjoy it, in the long run. Sure, there were amazingly cool events, like getting so many followers on this site! Somehow, I became one of the top fifty most popular people on this site, all the while managing to stay out of the spotlight myself. Not a bad thing, since it means that the attention is aimed at my stories, which is how it should be. Truly a lot better than other examples, where the vocality and hatred is so widespread. Often, when I make a little stroll over the internet, and see people fight verbal wars over what they like and don't like, it makes me happy I've never been involved in one of those, whether it's as participant or as subject. For that, I'm really grateful.
It comes with a weariness, though. Weariness of the actions of others. It's a silly thing. But all together, I just feel terrible. I hope I can change that around in the coming year. While I most likely can't participate in EQD's first Writer's Training Grounds, I hope I can do so next week. I want to upload more one-shots and shorter stories to this site, so I can keep up a steady stream of enjoyable fiction. At least, I hope it's enjoyable. That's certainly been the reception so far. Of course, I'll still keep making longer stories as well. And when I get to running my own custom-made D&D campaigns, I might even chronicle some stories here. That might be fun as well.
Ah well, I shouldn't keep on jabbering about how I felt the year was bad. Every year has its good and bad moments, and this one is no exception. And when you've just had a few good years, it only makes sense that there'll be one that's not as good. Let's hope it's only a one-time deal, though. I do have faith that 2014 will be a better year. One where I can get my disorders under control, write a lot of fun stories, do well in school, and maybe even get involved in some larger projects.
So here's to a good new year!
Well, 2014 is just 2 hours and 40 minutes away here in Singapore...
I'll miss 2013. It was a rather fine year.
Here's to the New Year!
Here have new year changeling
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You know when you have a good DnD squad, when one of the standard ops is for the Dwarf to say, Toss Me, and mean it
If a year is neutral, then its a bad year if you only consider the bad times, which can be food or light medically induced accidentally, or a good year if you consider the good times, ditto. (Wait, isnt that pokemon?)
Take it easy, dont forget your towel, and keep your pinkie ready.
Hear, hear.
I'm afraid this years wasn't necessarily bad for me... not any worse than any other years, anyway... it just wasn't that memorable.
Well, except I did start a pretty cool RP and met some amazing new friends. Nearly 4,000 posts of grade-A roleplay about ponies. (and aliens...)
So I guess you're right. It had it's ups and downs, like any year.
Here's to 2014. (the year of my graduation!)
I'LL BE YOUR FRIEND!
Love your stories bro. Keep it up.
I hear ya man