I haven’t left Fimfiction, but… · 6:08am January 7th
Hi everyone, Player 4 here. If you didn’t expect to hear from me again here on Fimfiction, well, I don’t blame you. In my blog about retiring from writing stories (which is still my most recent blog post before this one, ugh), I did say that I would continue to be an active member through forum discussions and whatnot.
Yeah, that didn’t really turn out like I had hoped. From what I can see and remember, I only started one new forum throughout 2023, and replied to only two that were made by others. I also don’t think I commented on any stories in 2023; I barely even read any. It turns out that losing my motivation to read was part of the packaged deal.
But my account has been shown as online pretty much every day? Well, it’s technically correct, because I still keep Fimfiction up in my browser tabs. I do not consider myself to have fully quit the site, so you could say that I stay logged in because it’s symbolic.
If you can’t tell already, it’s not like I just “let this go” in any sense. I’ve always been on a mission to analyze what could have caused this to happen. I’ve really missed all of you here. I mentally visit the graveyard my writing career lies in and mourn it.
As we first entered the new year, I was pretty firmly pessimistic about my chances at returning to writing, and this is reflected in my DeviantArt update from a few days ago.
What I realized is that I clearly still can write. Fanfics have not been the medium, but in addition to this blog and my DeviantArt blog, I recently posted a long essay on Reddit about a video game experiment that I did. I was like “Wait a minute, I just drafted, edited, proofread, and all these things I used to do. It is still in me, after all.”
There does continue to be a question mark on the idea that I can resume the Fimfic stories that have gone unfinished, as struggles with them in particular were probably a critical reason I stopped writing fanfics in the first place, but at least I feel better about the chances, which is something.
I’m not quite ready to jump back into my Fimfic stories, as winter break at college is ending and I am uploading to YouTube now. But one day, hopefully I can balance everything out and achieve the dream of my YouTube and Fimfiction careers co-existing, and maybe you’ll see more of me in forums, etc. this year, as I see if I can regain what I once had and held dearly. Only time will tell, I suppose.
P.S. If I don’t respond to one of your comments, that’s just because I sometimes struggle to write a good response. I read every comment I receive and always have!
Just don’t force it, you will be ready to do fimfics again when you’re ready. Take your time and just relax.
Take as much time as you need.
if you cannot write it's best not to push it as that can make you not want to return (if you wanted) even more hard.