My most sincere, humble, guilty apologies · 2:34am Dec 18th, 2012
This is regarding my absence and my future towards everything pony-related, not just this website. Rest assured that this won't be a sappy, "I hate my life" kind of post!
Brazil is... chaotic to say the least. I already told Specs about it. A Tl;DR is as follows: drug dealers and organized crime (don't think about mobsters; organized crime down here is more akin to the African child-soldiers) are, literally, killing about 30 cops per week. In some cities (such as mine) that is the daily death count. Numbers are about 20 crooks:1 police officer. Even though the police are retaliating (with much more violence than necessary, I should add), innocent lives are taken. Buses are being set on fire with people inside. Stray bullets killing left and right on the slums and even in the most noble parts of the city. Some cities are now under curfew (again, mine being one) which means:
- You get caught after 8PM on the street by a crook: He'll assume you're with the police and shoot you down cold-blooded.
- You get caught after 8PM on the street by a police officer: He'll assume you're a drug dealer/criminal and take you somewhere and execute you.
No, I'm not joking. I've never before feared for my life like I do today.
But not only that! My two better-off-dead brothers are, surprise surprise surprise, tearing my family apart. And guess just who feels compelled into trying to glue the pieces back together? Exactly! The sucker whom now speaks. And, apart from med school and being the director of my college's Psychiatry league, I'll have to start working... somewhere... somehow. My time will find it a compliment if you call it 'extremely fucking limited'.
Thus, my future with ponies (and pretty much anything except college/work) is done. Nope, I won't even watch the episodes anymore. I simply won't have time to. Let alone collaborate on stories/etcs. This means that the planned revision of Forever Yours will never happen. Such a shame, since it is the fic I'm most proud of. Borderline kind of tied up with Morning... for second spot. That happened after Owlor's version of it, M0RN1NGR3M1X3D and the subsequent blog post made me stop and think about my own creation.
Enough said already: I'd like to extend my apologies to the following:
Mist: A thousand apologies aren't enough to make for my broken promises. I really wanted to continue my work on Mist Subs. I was going to start making the subs when the shitstorm started, draining my will to do anything completely. And then I procrastinated, hoping that I would find the 'UNF' to continue... but then things escalated. It must've been a bummer, having no less than three people quitting the project. And now it must be even worse to have a fourth do it. I'm really sorry.
Owlor: I really enjoyed out strange chats when we were supposed to be writing Sky Matron. You were probably the first one to directly notice my distress with the situation. My overall lack of will towards everything. And then my strange absence. I remember that, when we talked about quitting fandoms, you told me that you found it silly that people made goodbye posts instead of... just vanishing. Well, that kind of doesn't work for me, Owlor. I felt really bad for just disappearing without leaving a trace behind. Especially when there were things left to be explained. This is why I forced myself to write this. This is why I apologize.
DoctorDash (A.K.A. RedSpectum): Out of the three, you were the one with I had the most debt with. So many promises broken... I'd promised to help you with Unthinkable and then with Twilight's Island, but it seems that it won't be possible... I'm also sorry to say, Doctor, that Aublar/Skyburn won't be happening. You cannot imagine how bad I feel when I type in these words. I hope that everything good crosses your way, man. I really, really do! And, as always, do not feel compelled to write Sand just for my sake. I'd hate to force you into anything...
Since my time is still not that short, I will grant you three a final gift. With the only thing that helps me be distracted in these dark days being vectors, that shall be my final gift. Send me your requests on lucefudu@hotmail.com and I'll get to them after Christmas or something. I won't be checking that e-mail that often, so you should just send me the request and I'll reply with my personal e-mail so we can keep contact as I wander this wasteland.
Note: These three up there are the only ones that I trust enough to make sequels/prequels/re-imaginings/"remixes"/rewrites/improvings of my stories as they see fit (kind of like what brilliant Garnot did with Nicknack's Two Beats). This doesn't mean that you have to, however. I'm just granting you the permission should you want to. If a mod/admin bothers you about said stories, direct them to this post.
I'll use this opportunity to, once more, link you guys to my unfinished story, Tabula Rasa (no password). I had previously discussed it with Mist, but after a while I gave up on the idea completely. I really don't know why I didn't delete it. Speaking of deleting things: I won't be deleting my stories. So they will survive for... as long as FiMFiction.net (or this account) does.
And I'd also like this opportunity to humbly offer my third finger to the sky. Fuck you, imaginary beard man! You haven't seen the last of me yet!
I shall now reply to my way-overdue PMs.
E, como de praxe, uma música. A viajem foi interessante, agradeço muito a todos/todas que gostaram e aos que não gostaram também.
Luce, signing off for the very last time.
Definitely should not be worrying about ponies at a time like this.
EDIT: if it's my last chance to say it, you do look good
Sorry to hear. Best of luck with with everything. Sounds like you'll need every ounce/gram.
... Bene Fortuna en tuum vitam.
Tu vitam meliorem cepis volo.
Again, Latin is needed for any ending ceremony. :D
Good luck in your life! (Because I don't know enough to say it any other way)
I want your life to improve. (See above comment)
Whoa, dear Lucefudu. That really sucks!
Wish you the best!
(Hoping you will be able to see and read this)
Edit:
A quotation:
I...Just...I don't know what to say now. I guess that was a rediculous dumbass moving, NOT READING THE POST BEFORE I COMMENT!!!!!
Lord...Luce, I've tampered with psychology myself to aminor extent, and to say the least, I bid you good luck. Psychology is one of the most complicated things I've come across, and the human language already does not have enough words, or the right words, for that matter, to help one put forth psychology into words. Alas, it must be terrible with what's going on. If I could do something, why I'd damn well help you man. Even as who I am, I could help even if you didn't know, and you don't. I don't say this because I want to try. I've always been successful in the manners, and stubborn as I am, having a friend like me would be promising. but, again, you don't know me...
Lucifer, I salute you. I do not know if you are 100% american, 100% US American, but I salute you with the utmost respect.
This is about as close as I'll get to saluting you, sir.
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I bid the farewell, and remember, keep your friends close, your enemies close, and your family always within reach.
Live to tell the tale my friend.
Goodbye you magnificent stallion of a man, I'm going to miss you one way or another.
It's depressing to see you leave, really. I've come to think of you as an immutable fact of the site. I'm beginning to lose track of the good authors and users dying off. The Diaries of a Deadman will still continue regardless, and will be waiting for you if you return.
Will you, on the off chance, be available at all ever on Skype? I'm talking about a 10-20 min kind of space around a computer. Something of a writing aid for some of the more graphically displeasing scenes I'm planning would be fantastic. Simple facts would suffice well enough. If you cannot, I understand.
Seems the only good thing to happen this holiday season is me managing to get a hold of meletonin pills.
Yes, and I've been worried sick too. I'm at least glad to hear from you and know what the deal is. Do take care, it's definently a good idea to focus on getting your life in order as much as possible in a chaotic world
rather than on brightly coloured cartoon ponies. I WILL miss you and our chats, though.
Lucefudu, though I am never sure if you'll receive this comment let alone read it, I wish you the best of luck. Maybe when that hell-on-earth situation simmers to a boil your time will return but by then you may be mentally exhausted. Keep pressing onward. In the words of Winston Churchill, "If you're going through hell... keep going."
As an Admin, I'm sorry to see you go completely.
As a writer, I'm sorrowed at the end of great stories.
As a friend, it'll be hard to forget someone like you.
Final Cheers
~Cosmic Afro
This was really sad to read
... But, I'm relieved to know that you're not dead. It's still very scary to know what you and your local area are going through, though. 
I wish you the best in all of your endeavors. Should you decide not to come back to ponies assuming these life-threatening situations never cool down, I won't think any less of you at all. In fact, I'm not sure if there's anything you could do to make me think less of you
-- you're just an awesome guy, and it's depressing to know that you're in such a dire predicament. 
I still intend to write the stories that you either helped me with or entrusted to me, and I will dedicate them to your honor and give you full credit for your participation.
It's heartbreaking to think we probably won't really get to talk any more due to your real life events, but your personal safety and that of your loved ones is WAAAY more important.
Still, you should have something nice to remember FiM by, so...
Here, have some Pinkies.
Sincerely,
DoctorDash
624759 Your name is familiar... Not from this blog post. But Lucefudu told me about you once I messaged him about how lovingly, medically-accurate Borderline was. Through praises and praises-something I don't understand since you don't have any published stories-there was one thing that caught my attention, dear author, you-like me-are a die-hard fan of the Batman universe. Especially the darkest interpretations of Batman.
With that in mind, I'd like to present you with these stories:
Eyes Without a Face. Read this before the others.
Pagliacci. Can be read before or after the next one.
SCOOTS. Can be read before or after the previous one.
I had told Lucefudu about this worldbuilding in a message, but he never replied. And when he did, he only directed me here.
However, it would be interesting to know what another fan of the darker Batman would think.
Might I ask, what is this "Sand" you both speak of?
Holy hell, you’re going through a time and three quarters. I can only wish you the best of luck with whatever you’ll be doing in the future.
Keep being excellent, dude.
Hang in there, be careful, and good luck. I hate to hear of the tough situation you are in but I'm confident you will get through it.
This... Makes me a little bit sad.
Stay safe man.
Holy crap.... Dude. words can't express how sad this is... STAY STRONG MAN!
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Good luck with everything, dude!
Have a hug!
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Wow, I remember reading your story Borderline long before I made an account. I always wondered if you would make a sequel, but thats just what makes an author, his legacy. Farewell Lucefudu - Dylan
While I might be late to read this, I will say this.
You have inspired many authors out here today, and the time that has passed. You will live on in our memories as one of the greatest authors of our time. Good bye and good luck.
Hello sir or madame,
I am Obsidian Raindrop the creator of a group known as The Great and Not Obsessive Trixie I am here to ask if you would like your story to be added to my group.
The only requirements are:
1. You have a story about Trixie and she is not completely obsessing over her lose at the hands of Twilight. (She can hate that she lost to twilight and even try and beat again but she just can't be be so obsessive like she is in most stories. )
2. She may be a supporting character or a main character it does not matter.
3. i can`t think of a third thing
It's me Osidian again asking you guys to do stuff you don't want to.
1. tell me the name of your story and the one folder you want it in
2. join the group it is really cool and we'll soon get a banner up
3. fallow because it will boost my confidence
Sorry to all those who either received this email twice or who don`t have trixie as a main or supporting character. Also just PM me if you want your story added.
Yours truly, Obsidian Raindrop
800781 Did you even read the blog post and what it is about?!
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maybe but i am the retard who managed to get around 200 people to join my group so yeah
800781 This is SPAM and you should be banned for it.