Chasing After the Buck · 9:16pm May 8th, 2023
Another day... another dollar!
I recently skipped work to attend my Grandfather's 90th (seeesh!) birthday. I'd been more involved when I was younger, but as work increased and my time waned, I found less and less willpower to travel north to visit my old folks.
I treasure my grandparents dearly, but it feels as though I'm never in the state to be fully immersed with them.
I'm too consumed by the grind.
But it was great to catch up with them and the others of my family.
My grandfather and I used to sit outside and not speak a word to each other. Just hours of looking at trees and grass with the odd conversation or two. My grandfather means a lot to me.
More than he knows.
But as we were talking at the party, I caught him up on my life, and he said something that struck me.
"Chasing after the buck, are ya?"
That never used to be the kind of person I was. Time came before money, which is funny, because you need the former to gain the latter. My grandfather had said that without being accusing. It simply was the truth.
It sits with me now as I grind away the hours and the wordcounts before me.
I wonder, at the end of my life, will I have balanced it as well as I could of?
Or did I sacrifice the wrong things?
huh, things to think about
I would treasure it. My father was and always has chased the buck. Lotto bucks that is. He would send money to his parents but never visited. He visited them 5 times in the last 23 years.
He didnt get to say good bye to his father 3 years ago, and didnt see the grave until a year later. His mom passed month ago and didnt say good bye to her trying to chase the buck in a lazy way. I hate him because he was my only source to them.
Dont chase the buck unless its to visit and spend time with them.
Fix that. Srsly. Don't wait.
Spending time with others is a love language as elegant as all the rest. Don't worry buddy, he dug it.
As someone who has indeed spent a lot of time working towards, I, too worry whether I have balanced things up to this point. Can't say I know the answer to that yet. Oh well.
Those we love, even if we have hard times showing it. Or busy , or struggling to find ways to see them. They know how much we love them, time is something that just seems to pass through our fingers, here one moment and gone the next.
When the end comes, and we see how our dues were paid, I feel as long as your heart was in the right place, things are understood. Enjoy any small moment, they mean the most on those quiet nights.