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SAPR - Scipio Smith



Sunset, Jaune, Pyrrha and Ruby are Team SAPR, and together they fight to defeat the malice of Salem, uncover the truth about Ruby's past and fill the emptiness within their souls.

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Long Unspoken

"I see that you've redecorated," Sunset observed, as her gaze flew around the throne room. A smile pricked at the corners of her l- her mouth; of course she didn't have lips as a pony. "I don't like it."

In truth, the throne room was mostly the same as she remembered it; it was probably not exactly the same red carpet, considering how many hooves walked upon it every day, but whoever was in charge of replacing them had managed to get the exact same shade; the dais rose above the room, just as it always had, and Princess Celestia's throne sat atop the dais, just as it always had, although the princess did not sit upon it at present but had descended to a level with Sunset and Princess Twilight ā€“ or perhaps it should be said that she had declined to ascend, given that they had all entered the room together.

Even the flowers that sat beneath the dais, on either side of the carpet, looked the same, even though they were manifestly not, unless they were the longest-lived flowers that were ever heard of. Nevertheless, they were the same shade, the same breed, the same shape as Sunset remembered.

At least, she thought they were. Her memories were not what they could have been; perhaps she was simply projecting continuity into what was, in fact, new and different.

Nevertheless, the only substantial changes that Sunset noticed in the throne room, amidst the familiar pillars and walls and carpet, were the stained glass windows that dominated the white walls and provided most of the decoration in what was otherwise an almost minimalist place. In Sunset's day, they had been mostly abstract: phases of the moon, a sun falling upon a world, that sort of thing. There were still some of those, but fewer now than there had been before.

In their place had been erected monuments to Twilight Sparkle. In Sunset's time, only a single window had existed depicting some great triumph of the past, and that the victory of Princess Celestia and Princess Luna over Discord ā€“ although there had been also, and remained, a second window displaying the tyranny of Discord from which they had redeemed Equestria. Now, stained glass commemorated the defeat of Nightmare Moon, Discord for the second time, the changelings, Sombra, Tirek, not to mention Twilight's ascension to the crown and rank of princess.

In her latter days here in the palace, Sunset had always told herself that Cadance's accomplishments were not that impressive, her ascension nothing so special, because if it had been, then Princess Celestia would have immortalised it in these windows.

That didn't really hold water anymore.

It was a good thing that Sunset was past caring.

Princess Twilight, on the other hand ā€“ other hoof, rather, while she was here; even if it was only for a brief visit, she should at least try and get back into the local jargon ā€“ seemed to care a little bit, albeit not perhaps in the right way, judging by the way that a flush of embarrassment rose to her cheeks and she started to look away.

"Oh, don't act like that," Sunset snapped good-naturedly. "You're as bad as Pyrrha."

Princess Twilight seemed to avoid looking at Princess Celestia as she murmured, "I didn't ask for any of these."

"It doesn't mean you didn't earn them," Sunset replied. "Let me tell you, if I had saved Equestriaā€¦" ā€“ she began to count the windows ā€“ "one, two, three-"

"That one's not me," Princess Twilight pointed out, when Sunset's hoof reached the window celebrating the defeat of the changeling. "That was Cadance and Shining Armor."

Sunset squinted at the two ponies drawn in outline against the pink background; yes, that was Cadance, wasn't it? Now that she looked more closely, she could see it plainly. "Okay, two-"

"Although," Princess Celestia interjected wryly, "while Princess Cadance and Shining Armor repelled the changeling attack, it was only thanks to Twilight that the changeling threat was uncovered to be repelled."

"Right," Sunset said. "We'll call that two and a half. Three and a half-"

"That's not me, either," Princess Twilight insisted as Sunset began to count King Sombra's downfall. "I told you, that was Spike."

"With your help," Princess Celestia reminded her. "By placing the good of the Crystal Empire above your personal objective, you showed you were one step closer to being ready."

"Princess," Twilight moaned.

Princess Celestia covered her mouth with one hoof as she chuckled. "Forgive me, Twilight; your humility is very charming, but as your teacher, as somepony who has watched you grow up before my eyes, it's only natural that I want to celebrate your accomplishments and let the rest of Equestria know how proud I am of you." The gaze of her royal purple eyes shifted for a moment to fall on Sunset and lingered there for a few seconds.

The smile returned to Sunset's face, more in earnestness this time, as she resumed her counting. "We'll call that half as well: three, four ā€“ if I had saved Equestria four times, including partialsā€“"

"All of my victories have been partials," Twilight insisted. "I couldn't have done any of those things without the help of my friends."

"ā€“and ascended to become an alicorn and a princess in the bargain," Sunset went on, ignoring Twilight's protestation ā€“ just because she'd done everything with help didn't change the fact that she'd done it, "I would want everypony in Equestria to know exactly who I was and what I'd done."

"Would you still?" Twilight asked. There was no judgement in her voice, only curiosity, and yetā€¦ Sunset felt that it was a question which invited judgement.

Her ears ā€“ her only set of ears, for now; it was weird only having two again; Sunset felt ever so slightly deaf ā€“ drooped down into the midst of her fiery mane as she considered the question. "No," she admitted. "Probably not, not anymore. Iā€¦ I just want this to be over. They can forget my name, they can curse my name for all I care, but I want this to be over. I want it done before it kills Pyrrha, before it kills Ruby. I want it done before Cinder dies fighting at my side because I couldn't walk away from it and she wouldn't walk away from me, I wantā€¦ I want all of this to be over, and everything precious, rare, and beautiful that presently lies beneath the threat of Salem's malice to beā€¦ safe." She snorted. "I don't want much, do I?"

"You want nothing, Sunset," Princess Celestia declared. "Nothing but what we ponies take for granted here in Equestria."

"'Take for granted'?" Sunset repeated. "I'm not sure that I'd say that, Princess." Once more, she glanced at the stained glass windows, the records of Twilight's many valiant deeds and accomplishments for Equestria. "I'd say that it is fought for, and bravely so."

"Will you both stop?" Twilight asked. "It's bad enough thatā€¦ do you know what the best part of being a princess is?"

"When I last lived here, I would have said either 'the power' or 'the glory,'" Sunset replied. "So it can't be either of those, soā€¦ more magic to protect your friends?"

Twilight's eyebrows rose.

"What? I'm serious," Sunset said. "The best thing about being an alicorn from my perspective is it increases the number of ways I can fight."

"And for that, I feel sorry for you," Twilight murmured. It was a sentiment that could have easily sounded patronising or pitying, but coming from Twilight, it sounded nothing less than wholly sincere and earnestly meant. "But no, the answer ā€“ my answer, at least ā€“ is that the best thing about being a princess is that very rarely does anypony seem to care that I'm a princess."

"That fact has not always pleased you," Princess Celestia reminded her archly.

"Yes," Sunset agreed. "I seem to remember being told that you were going through something of a crisis of faith at one point, something about not knowing what the point of it all was?"

"That wasn't because I wanted people to praise me or kiss my hooves," Twilight insisted. "That was because I wanted to make myself useful. What I mean is that, after defeating Nightmare Moon, after defeating Discord, even after becoming a princess, I went right back to the library in Ponyville, just like Pinkie went back to the bakery and Rarity went back to her boutique and Applejack went back to her farm. I would have gone back to the library after stopping Tirek too, if it hadn't been destroyed." A sigh of regret escaped from Twilight. "My point is that I never did any of this because I wanted to be worshipped, and Iā€¦ Princess, I know that you're proud of me, and I'm so glad that I've managed to make you proud and repay you for everything that you've done for me, but at the same timeā€¦ that doesn't mean that I likeā€¦ I sometimes worry that I-"

"That you'll be put on a pedestal?" Sunset suggested. "That people will make such a fuss about how great you are that they will start to believe that your very greatness puts you beyond their reach? That they will admire you only from a distance, condemn you to be only what they wish or hope or need you to be? That the princess of friendship will be left without any friends at all?"

Twilight's brow furrowed. "How did you-?"

"Like I said, you're just like Pyrrha," Sunset said, a slight, tight smile fleeting across her features. "Personally, I wouldn't worry too much about it, not whileā€¦ not while you have those girls around you."

Twilight chuckled. "No, I guess it won't be a problem with them around."

Sunset hesitated for a moment. Was there a polite or diplomatic way to ask this? Was it rude to ask this? Should she simply ask on behalf of herself, but then, she was curious about Twilight as well. Perhaps there was no nice way to ask, only a direct one. "Twilight, do you knowā€¦ has ascension made you immortal?" It was not a guarantee that becoming an alicorn would, in fact, lead to immortality. In fact, more often than not, it did not, else Equestria would have been overrun with alicorns ā€“ for this was not the only generation in which one or two ponies had ascended to a state greater than that which had been born; Twilight and Cadance ā€“ and Sunset, it seemed ā€“ were not the first to tread this path. Yet, alicorn or no, they had succumbed to the passing of the years. And yet it was not always so, as the presence of Princess Celestia gave proof of. Some alicorns rose higher even than the rest of that exalted pack, enduring time as though it were a light rain, as permanent as the mountains upon whose slopes sat Canterlot. Was Twilight in the former or the latter camp? And in which camp was Sunset?

Silence crashed resoundingly into the throne room, and Sunset began to wish that she hadn't spoken. And yet, if she could not speak of it here, then where? If she could not speak of it now, then when? If she could not speak of it to these two, then to whom?

Twilight's face fell, and her ears drooped. "Iā€¦ I try not to think about it," she said softly. "Butā€¦ yes, I am immortal. I asked Princess Celestia about it, not long after I ascended."

Sunset looked at Princess Celestia. "You can tell," she said, not asking a question so much as stating a fact.

Princess Celestia's expression was solemn. "It can be determined, once one knows how," she said, her voice quiet. "Would you like to know, Sunset Shimmer?"

Not really. "I think I probably should," Sunset said. "If I am, and it creeps up on me unawares, then it might seem disingenuous to my friends to suggest I didn't know." She looked back at Twilight. "Do your friends know?"

Princess Twilight nodded.

"How did they take it?" Sunset asked.

"Better than I did, actually," Princess Twilight admitted. "Pinkie said that we'd just have to make the most of the time that we had; Applejack pointed out that it wasn't likely we'd all live to the exact same age in any case; Fluttershy pointed out that I wasn't the only friend she had who was going to outlive her, and she hadn't let it stand between her and Discord; Rarityā€¦ Rarity said she was glad someone would be around to watch her fashion empire continue under her carefully-chosen successors," Twilight said. She smiled. "And Rainbow asked me to keep track of how long it took for anypony to break her Wonderbolt records."

Sunset chuckled. ā€œYouā€™re very lucky.ā€

Twilight smiled. ā€œI know. Trust me, I know. For what itā€™s worth, it sounds as though you havenā€™t done that badly yourself.ā€

ā€œIā€™m aware of that too,ā€ Sunset acknowledged. ā€œBut still-ā€

ā€œIt isnā€™t easy,ā€ Twilight murmured. ā€œAs much as Applejackā€™s right, that still doesnā€™t make it easy to accept that, one day, Iā€™llā€¦ one day, theyā€™llā€¦ one day, Iā€™ll be alone.ā€

ā€œCadance?ā€ Sunset suggested weakly.

ā€œIsnā€™t immortal,ā€ Twilight said, her voice becoming even quieter. ā€œAnd neither is Flurry Heart.ā€

ā€œWho?ā€

ā€œCadanceā€™s daughter,ā€ Twilight explained. ā€œDoesnā€™t Cadance have a daughter in your world?ā€

ā€œNot as far as Iā€™m aware,ā€ Sunset admitted. ā€œBut weā€™re not close, so who knows?ā€ She paused for a moment. ā€œThat isā€¦ thatā€™sā€¦ā€ She glanced at Princess Celestia, who stood before them as still as marble and just as effulgent, her mane of many colours shimmering and wafting gently even in the still, calm air of the throne room.

Princess Celestia closed her eyes for a moment. ā€œIndeed,ā€ she said, and for all that her voice was soft yet, it carried across the room. ā€œit is, in many ways, unspeakable. And yet, as I am sure that your Professor Ozpin could tell you, Sunset, besides the obvious disadvantages come great blessings also.ā€ She smiled. ā€œFor instance, if I were not immortal, then I would not have lived long enough to know such gifted fillies as the two of you.ā€

Sunset felt her cheeks heat up and guessed that Twilightā€™s blush was mirrored on her own face. ā€œYouā€¦ you are too kind, Princess. Far kinder than I deserve.ā€ She glanced down at her hooves, and then glanced up again. ā€œI see that hasnā€™t changed.ā€

ā€œIt is true,ā€ Princess Celestia began, before her voice faltered and trailed off. She walked closer towards them, her steps delicate, graceful and entirely silent. ā€œIt is true that a mother will never cease to love her children, but neverthelessā€¦ā€ ā€“ a smile blossomed on her face like the rising of the sun ā€“ ā€œI think that in your cases, it is very well deserved.ā€

Sunset looked at Twilight and found Twilight looking at her in turn. I guessā€¦ this makes us sisters? Strange, that that was the only reaction that she had. Princess Celestia had just declared herself to be Sunsetā€™s mother ā€“ and Twilightā€™s mother, or one of her mothers, too ā€“ and yet she feltā€¦ well, what was there to feel? It was not surprising enough to produce a great well of emotion out of Sunset Shimmer, comparable to how she had felt simply beholding Princess Celestia again. It was one of those things that they had never said, that had lain unspoken between them, but having lain unspoken, it was something that, once spokenā€¦ well, yes. Of course she was Sunsetā€™s mother, which was not something Sunset thought in entitlement but ratherā€¦ what else did you call the pony who woke you in the morning, tucked you in at night with a bedtime story, nursed you when you were sick, watched you growā€¦ forgave you all your trespasses? A teacher? A princess? No. What else did you call them really but a mother?

And what did you call somepony who didnā€™t realise how much they had taken all of that love, affection, and attention for granted until it was no longer there but a daughter?

Judging by the look on her face, it seemed as though Twilight was thinking much the same thing: it did not provoke any feelings that hadnā€™t been there all along.

None save for gratitude, immense gratitude, that she had said it.

Sunset moved forwards, her hooves clattering ā€“ she did not have Princess Celestiaā€™s silent grace ā€“ upon the floor of the throne room, and she found that Twilight was moving forward as well, the both of them bearing down upon Celestia together, even as she crouched down and wrapped them both within her wingsā€™ embrace.

Sisters, then.

Sunset closed her eyes and relaxed into Princess Celestiaā€™s loving, maternal embrace. ā€œI love you too, Mother.ā€

She heard Celestia chuckled softly, her cheek trembling slightly as it pressed against Sunsetā€™s own.

ā€œI wish that I could keep you with me,ā€ Celestia murmured. ā€œI wish that I could keep the both of you here, and safe, and with me. I would not send Twilight hence to battle any more monstrous threats that might arise against us, and I would not send you through the mirror to confront the horrors that infest the world of Remnant. I wouldā€¦ I would keep you safe.ā€ Celestiaā€™s smile was touched by frost as she rose. ā€œBut you have both grown up too much for that, havenā€™t you?ā€

ā€œI fear so,ā€ Sunset said, ā€œthough for my part, at least, it took me long enough.ā€ She hesitated. ā€œI only hope that I can make you proud with my actions on my return.ā€ She held up one forestalling hoof. ā€œDonā€™t say that Iā€™ve made you proud already. Iā€¦ I have done little enough worth your pride.ā€

ā€œYou have ascended,ā€ Princess Celestia reminded her. ā€œYou have become an alicorn, and a princess-ā€

ā€œAn alicorn, perhaps,ā€ Sunset conceded.

ā€œThereā€™s not really much of a 'perhaps' about it,ā€ Twilight pointed out. ā€œYour wings are right there.ā€

ā€œOkay, smarty-pants, an alicorn then,ā€ Sunset said. ā€œBut a princess?ā€

ā€œThe one goes with the other, at least in this world,ā€ Celestia declared. Her smile was a little sly as she said, ā€œIf only because ā€˜princessā€™ rolls a little easier off the tongue than ā€˜alicornā€™ and is more readily understandable to non-ponies.ā€ She winked. ā€œIt is unfortunate that we cannot have a coronation, but I fear it would raise too many questions about who you are and where you have come from, not to mention the further questions that would be raised once you disappeared again. Nevertheless, when you return to Remnant, you may hold your head up high and call yourself a princess, and anyone who wishes to dispute your claim may take it up with me.ā€

Sunset grinned. ā€œI fear that doing so would make me more a figure of fun than of respect in Remnantā€¦ but then, Iā€™ve made myself a figure of fun in Remnant plenty of times to plenty of people, so why stand on my precarious dignity now, of all times?ā€ She paused. ā€œItā€™s funny howā€¦ā€ She glanced at Twilight. ā€œYou didnā€™t want this, wings or crown or temporal glories; you never sought or strove for any of it, and yet, here you are, Princess of Friendship, possessor of a castle, beloved and celebrated in stained glass and in much else. Youā€¦ you really are like my friend Pyrrha; for all her talk of destiny and duty and the great task that she would accomplish, I think a part of her, the heart of her, would like nothing more than a simple life with Jaune, to be his wife and have his children and enjoy his love while they grow old. But fate would have it otherwise, and though she claims her destiny is in her choosing, destiny, it seems, would have it otherwise as well. And me, Iā€¦ I wanted everything that you have. I wanted all the things you did not seek, I wanted them with a burning eagerness, a flame that burnt out all else within me, and yet nowā€¦ yet now-ā€

ā€œYou have achieved it all,ā€ Celestia said, ā€œin ways that neither you nor I could possibly have imagined.ā€ She sighed. ā€œSave, if you still desired it, immortality.ā€

Sunset stared up at her, face unmoving. ā€œYouā€¦ you did whateverā€¦ while we were hugging?ā€

ā€œIt was not a trick,ā€ Celestia assured her. ā€œI simply didnā€™t want you to feel uncomfortable or self-conscious.ā€

ā€œI see,ā€ Sunset whispered. ā€œThank you for your concern.ā€ She hesitated for a moment, gathering up her thoughts.

It was strange that she had thoughts about what was, after all, a mere continuation of the status quo. She had been mortal before; she was mortal now. She had known that she would die at some point; that truth remained the case.

What, then, was there to think about?

Was she disappointed? No, at leastā€¦ no. No, she was not. She would have been, once upon a time; at about the same that she would have been envious of all of Twilightā€™s stained glass windows. When she had looked into the mirror for the first time and seen in it not a reflection but, as she had taken it then, a premonition of glory to come, she had seen herself not only as an alicorn but an immortal, too.

ā€˜I see somepony who could rule all of Equestria.ā€™ So she had said, proudly and unabashed, and that somepony who could rule all of Equestria would, of necessity, be immortal. No mortal could rule, or at least not for long; they would die, and what would happen then?

But that dream had died a long time ago. The rule of Equestria was no longer her desire. And as for immortalityā€¦ perhaps there would have been some good that she could do with it, perhaps she could have taken Professor Ozpinā€™s place in watching over the world ā€“ after all, she had originally scorned and derided his ability or lack thereof to do so precisely because he was not immortal.

So perhaps, if an immortal was necessary to watch over the world, to keep Salem in check, to guard and guide the people of Remnant as Professor Ozpin had sought to do, thenā€¦

Then what? Then I should have been immortal to take on the burden? Well, that isnā€™t going to happen, is it?

Or at least, it hasnā€™t happened yet, and if it didnā€™t happen during my ascension, I donā€™t see when else it would be likely to take place.

Was that a pity, though? Was that something she ought to regret, that she would one day die, that she would be unable to defend Remnant and ensure that any progress she and her friends made would endure?

Should she regret that she would have to watch her friends succumb to old age and the decay of years? Should she regret that she would not have to watch, unchanged, as they laid Pyrrha to rest in her family crypt? Should she regret that she wouldnā€™t have to hold Cinderā€™s withered, aged hand and endure the pain in Cinderā€™s eyes as she looked up into a face that was as young and strong as it had been on the night they met?

No. No, she did not regret that. She would not, could not regret that.

She would live a mortal life and die when her allotted time was done.

Everything ends, and itā€™s always sad, but if something didnā€™t end, that might be even worse.

ā€œThank you,ā€ she repeated. ā€œThank you, Princess; that isā€¦ā€ She glanced at Princess Twilight, not wanting to say anything insensitive.

Princess Twilight smiled. ā€œYou can admit itā€™s a relief, if you want to.ā€

ā€œIt is,ā€ Sunset admitted. ā€œI didnā€™t really want to-ā€

ā€œBe alone?ā€ Twilight asked.

ā€œI might have been about to say something less selfish,ā€ Sunset murmured.

ā€œItā€™s okay,ā€ Princess Twilight assured her. ā€œItā€™sā€¦ there was one more thing that I didnā€™t tell you, about how my friends reacted when I told themā€¦ about what I had become.ā€ Twilight closed her eyes as her smile widened. ā€œThey were all worried about whether I was going to be okay without them, and they made me promise that I wouldnā€™tā€¦ that I wouldnā€™t let myself become lonely once they were gone.ā€ Tears pricked at the corners of her eyes. ā€œHowā€¦ how does any mare get so lucky as to have five friends like that?ā€

ā€œBy having it in her heart to become Princess of Friendship?ā€ Sunset suggested. ā€œStill, I hope that you donā€™t take it too hard when I say thatā€¦ I do not envy you. I do not envyā€¦ either of you; there may be consolations in it, as you say, Princess, there may be general advantage to, but the costā€¦ no, I do not envy either of you, and I do not envy Professor Ozpin.ā€ She licked her lips. ā€œSo, if I have still only a relatively brief time remaining, then I will have to make that spur me to ingenuity in the time that remains.ā€

ā€œHow do you mean?ā€ Twilight asked.

Sunset looked at her. ā€œI meanā€¦ that I donā€™t intend to pass this war onto Pyrrhaā€™s children,ā€ she declared. ā€œI mean to make an end of it, and of Salem too.ā€ She smiled. ā€œI would see Pyrrhaā€™s destiny fulfilled.ā€ That smile turned into a rueful chuckle. ā€œOf course, I havenā€™t actually figured out how Iā€™m going to do that yet, but such is my ambition, at least.ā€

ā€œAnd a worthy one too,ā€ Princess Celestia pronounced. ā€œAny help that we may offer, any assistance that you may requireā€¦ you have but to ask.ā€

ā€œThank you, Princess,ā€ Sunset said. ā€œI willā€¦ give it some thought before I go.ā€ She paused for a moment. ā€œCan I ask a question?ā€

Princess Celestiaā€™s smile was inviting as she said, ā€œAnything you wish.ā€

ā€œThank you,ā€ Sunset said. ā€œI donā€™t suppose that either of you can tell me what Iā€™m a princess of, if I am a princess?ā€

ā€œYou are a princess,ā€ Twilight said. ā€œYou might not think youā€™re worthy ā€“ I didnā€™t think I was worthy either ā€“ but someone or something does.ā€

ā€œOkay, fine,ā€ Sunset said quickly. ā€œBut a princess of what?ā€

ā€œI think the answer to your question depends, in part, upon a question,ā€ Twilight replied. ā€œHow did you ascend, and where?ā€

Sunset unfurled her wings out on either side of her in a sort of shrug. ā€œIā€¦ Iā€™m not quite sure. As you can imagine, itā€™s not as obvious as it is here.ā€

ā€œYou must have noticed when you acquired new powers,ā€ Twilight said.

ā€œNot at first,ā€ Sunset admitted. ā€œI noticed that my magic was getting stronger after I saved Amber, but I didnā€™t notice that I possessed earth pony strength or the pegasi ability to manipulate the weather until after I saved Cinder, soā€¦ it could be either of those, but my preference would be that I did not ascend until after I rescued Cinder from Salemā€™s darkness. At least that was actually a success.ā€

One of the reasons she was finding it a little hard to accept the idea of herself as a princess was that she had failed at far more than she had succeeded at in Remnant. Amber had betrayed their cause and died; Professor Ozpin had died; the Relic of Choice had been taken by Salemā€™s forces; about the only two things that Sunset had indisputably done right were keeping her team alive, sometimes in the teeth of their own best instincts, and saving Cinder. If her ascension had come about as a result of what she had done to Amberā€¦ that would be bittersweet, to say the least.

ā€œIs there any way to find out?ā€ she asked. ā€œHow did you work out that you were the Princess of Friendship?ā€

ā€œJust as you said: I worked it out,ā€ Twilight said. ā€œNopony told me; I didnā€™t wake up realising it. Itā€¦ it showed itself to me, and it will show itself to you too. Just give it time.ā€

ā€œThe way that my cutie mark showed itself to me?ā€ Sunset asked. ā€œThe cutie mark that I still donā€™t actually understand?ā€

ā€œThere, I can help you,ā€ Twilight assured her. ā€œOr at least, I know three very special fillies in Ponyville who can help you.ā€

ā€œOn which note,ā€ Princess Celestia said, ā€œperhaps we should rejoin the others?ā€

ā€œActually,ā€ Sunset replied, ā€œcould I speak to you alone for just one moment?ā€

Twilight smiled encouragingly at her. ā€œIā€™ll be right outside.ā€

Her horn glowed a bright lavender as she opened the door with her magic. It opened nearly silently ā€“ Twilightā€™s hoof-falls as she trotted out made more noise ā€“ and closed every bit as quietly.

The hinges, Sunset recalled, had always been kept well-oiled.

Nevertheless, the door had closed, and Sunset was alone with Celestia.

Just as she had wished.

ā€œYou neverā€¦ you never called yourself my mother before,ā€ Sunset murmured.

ā€œNo,ā€ Celestia replied, in a voice that was just as soft. ā€œPerhaps, if I had-ā€

ā€œNo,ā€ Sunset said quickly. ā€œNo, itā€¦ none of what happened to me was your fault. You gave me more love than I deserved, and it was not enough. A word, a word that was no less true for being unspoken, would not have changed that.ā€

A sadness appeared in Celestiaā€™s eyes. ā€œBut the love that you received in Remnant, that is enough?ā€

ā€œThat is not the difference,ā€ Sunset whispered. ā€œThat isnā€™tā€¦ thatā€™s not why I changed.ā€

ā€œThen why?ā€ Celestia asked.

Sunset blinked rapidly. ā€œIā€¦ honestly, itā€™s hard to say. Iā€¦ maybe I just got older, and a little wiser along with it? Maybe itā€™s the fact that I was forced to mingle with other people until I realised that it wasnā€™t so bad. Maybe I needed to go to a world where there were other people as obnoxious as me, so that, by seeing myself reflected in their imperfections, I could revile myself as others reviled me and as I reviled others.ā€ She chuckled darkly. ā€œI cannot point to one single thing, but there was nothing else you could have done but did not do. You cannot blame yourself. I will not allow it. All blame for what befell, for what broke between usā€¦ it is on me.ā€ She bowed her head. ā€œIā€™m sorry, Princess. For everything.ā€

ā€œYou have apologised already,ā€ Celestia reminded her.

ā€œNot in pony,ā€ Sunset pointed out.

ā€œNevertheless, you have apologised and been forgiven,ā€ Celestia declared. ā€œNo more of that. Whatā€™s past is past.ā€

ā€œSays the pony who was about to apologise to me?ā€

Celestia chuckled. ā€œVery well. No more of that from either of us. Let the past truly be the past and let our eyes be fixed only on the future.ā€ She smiled, as warmly and as brightly as the sun which she controlled. ā€œIā€™ve missed you, little sunbeam.ā€

Sunset covered her mouth with one hoof as she giggled at that fillyhood nickname. ā€œIā€™ve missed you too. Iā€™ve missedā€¦ Iā€™ve missed this place. Iā€™ve missed these halls, Iā€™ve missed the gilded spires, Iā€™ve missed the city. And Iā€™ve missed you. Iā€™ve missed you most of all.ā€

ā€œAnd yet you cannot stay,ā€ Celestia murmured.

Sunset shook her head. ā€œA piece of my heart desires it,ā€ she whispered. ā€œTo remain here, to never pass beyond the mirror again, to leave it all behind and live in the peace that you have wroughtā€¦ but duty and destiny compel me otherwise. Iā€¦ perhaps it is indulgent to say that I have earned a little respite, but nevertheless, I may only take a brief rest before the storm bears me on its wings again.ā€ She paused. ā€œAnd I think, if I felt otherwise, you would have far less reason to be proud of me.ā€

Celestia was silent for a moment. ā€œI think you may be right. I suppose that I will simply have to make the most of the time that we have together.ā€ She smiled. ā€œNow, shall we rejoin your friends?ā€

ā€œYes,ā€ Sunset agreed. ā€œYes, letā€™s not keep them waiting any longer.ā€

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