With Extra Frosting on Top

by Grey Faerie

The Cravings

Pinkie had read in one of her books about keeping a food journal to track what she eats. She decided it'll be fun to try it and had gotten a bright pink glittery journal just for the task. She even had a pink glitter pen to go along with it! Pinkie had been surprised Plots and Flanks had something like that in stock.

Day Two of My Diet

Note to Self: Come up with super awesome secret name for diet. Something like The Canterlot Project or Pantry Area 51. Ohhh, those are good. Or maybe how to become the prettiest mare around and get all the stallions! It was a lot harder today to resist than yesterday. I had two pears with my cereal just so I wouldn't have any muffins. They are soo good. The Cakes sure do make the best muffins around.

And then today at work, I was baking some pies, and I kept thinking, I want it I want it i want it. But I didn't, I was good. Ok journal time!

Breakfast:
Two pears, a cup of milk, (we don't have anything but whole), and half a bowl of cereal. the whole graniy grainy one
Lunch:
Fresh green salad, with salsa instead of dressing even though dressing is soo good :)
Ok I snacked:
One cookie, just one! I swear. And it was oatmeal. So I think I did good.
Dinner was good:
Mashed Potatoes and vegatable soup. Vegetable. Not gravy, ohh but I love gravy. So does Grey Faerie. Probably more than me even.

Goodnight journal!
Pinkie Pie

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Day Three

It was harder today only because I was helping Fluttershy again. I'm still a little jealous of her. Don't tell her. We were walking around the market for more supplies, and we saw Applejack. She was selling these really good looking apple fritters. She was surprised and maybe a little worried when I declined but I had to be good. It's only the three third day! I remember Grey had told me she would drink coffee when she was hungry but mostly tea. I don't really want tea. It's the same as filling up your stomach with water and I've done that plenty enough times. I like the idea of coffee though. The milk or cream is what will fill me and the coffee will help with suppressing my hunger. Only thing is, I've got to drink plenty of water. And brush my teeth a lot. Don't want smelly coffee breath. And I could chew gum. No, that just makes my stomach hurt.

Breakfast: Cereal (I'm getting tired of it already, I'm going to need to get something different real soon) a grapefruit, but I didn't eat it, I forgot how bad it tastes without sugar, and a cup of juice, I forget what kind
Lunch:Vegaetable wrap from Field Fresh, it was really good and healthy especially since the books say not to eat out too much
Snack: A banana, haha that's fun to write when does the nana's stop anananana
Dinner: I realized I shouldn't have had the potatoes yesterday, butter is not my friend, Ohh just realized Buttershy-Fluttershy and she's yellow! Haha but probably doesn't taste as good. I don't think I should really be saying that. Eating ponies, ewww.
Leftover stew from last night and biscuits but I didn't eat them. Mrs. Cakes asked why and I had to lie to her that I ate a lot with Fluttershy or simply that we had ordered food, and I ate most of it. I feel really bad about it but I don't want them to know. I don't know why. Maybe I'm embarrassed.

I hate to admit it but I couldn't help but think bad things about my friends again. Things like 'Why does she get all the attention? Hey! I'm right here!' I don't want to think that way. But it's so hard not to. I'm used to being the center of attention but not in that way. I hate it.

Goodnight Glitter Journal, Pinkie Pie :)
P.S. My diet's code name is Pink Balloon Away.

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Day Four

I hate you, I loath you, there is no way to express my unlike of you. I'm so sorry Glitter for starting off so badly. I'm just SOO TIRED right now. And sore. I haven't been writing it down but I've been exercising, which makes me hungry. And I can't eat as much anymore. I had some apples but it wasn't the same! I need sugar! Refined, processed sugar! Or sweets of some kind. Like candy or a doughnut. And as if trying to break my eating habits wasn't hard enough, I go to work where I have to deal with looking at cakes and pastries all day!

There was a birthday party today. I was able to distract myself by making sure the guests had the best party ever! It was sooo much fun! Thinking about it makes me feel better. I think it helps when there's a really good reason (like it's not mine) not to eat cake, candy or drink soda.

But then the party ended and I had to clean up. Luckily they took the leftovers but, the cake left on the plates made me feel bad. How could they so easily leave so much food untouched?

Breakfast: Just fruit today, forgot to get new cereal
Lunch: A daisy sandwich I made myself
Snack: Coffee, I was tired
Dinner: Pasta, I had to have some. I couldn't just say no. I tried not to have too much though. I feel sick.

Your very cranky author, Pinkie Pie

Pinkie looked up from her journal and sighed. She frowned at the thought of what a couple of stallions had said about her. She turned back to her journal and put pen to paper.

I came across a new word today. Not a fun one either. Apparently, there's an word called DUFF. During the party, one of guests had said it about me. They said 'Hey, isn't that Rarity's friend?' 'Yea. Not really the kind of pony you would think she would hang around.' 'Well you know what the say, there's always one DUFF in a group of friends.' then they laughed. I didn't know what that could mean. I didn't even know if I had heard it right. So I called up Grey Faerie. She said it means the Designated Ugly Fat Friend. It's used to describe that one ugly or overweight girl in a group of friends. It's also used to mean that one ugly friend a pretty girl hangs around to make herself look even better in comparison. She had asked me how I came across it, I lied, saying it was on a book cover.

I'm used to ponies making comments about my weight but that stung. It made me worry too. Was that the reason some of my friends hung around me? They obviously don't need me, and they all had something to compare to me. Looks or work ethic. There was at least one thing to make themselves look better in comparison.

Grey asked if I was free this coming Saturday to go to The Cantering Stallion. I said yes. I think I need to get away from everything and just have fun. This diet thing is starting to stress me out. And when I get stressed or upset, I eat. I had found myself reaching for some leftover cake after the phone conversation. I had to force myself not to eat any. Instead, I gorged myself on carrots. It was horrible.

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Day Five, Friday

There's just so much! It's like it's closing in on me. Trying to tempt me. I had to get out of the shop. Away from the market. It's too much! Food everywhere and I just want to eat it. Every time I look around, I think back to those nights when I would lay awake from hunger. The thin turnip soup wouldn't be enough to drive away the pangs. Now, there's too much. Just soo much

How would they feel if they new knew that I was refusing food when it's there? Not clearing my plate when before I would lick the bowl hoping for more. I couldn't sleep last night. The wind feels nice on my skin but inside I feel all torn up. I just want to be blown away.

I had the day off and normally I would spend it with my friends but I couldn't. It just makes me feel depressed. I don't feel like I can look at them right now.

I don't want to look at food. It makes me feel like working out, a lot. To make up for all the bad things that I've eaten up until now. But I know how stupid that is. And I'm sore from just what exercises I've been doing. I could feel muscles I've never knew before getting sore. It was all very different from my normal work out or when I entertained the twins.

Oh, forgot to mention earlier, I got the weights today. Just a set of five and ten pounders. I hate them already. But muscle burns more calories and strength training helps with keeping the weight off. I'm starting to feel proud of myself. Just as long as I can resist these stupid sugar cravings.

Pinkie Pie
PS I didn't feel like writing down my food though I know I should.

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Day Six Saturday

I hadn't realize how bad alcohol was! Well, I knew it was bad but not that it had so many calories in it. Grey was right about it. I looked it up and beer is like fat in a can. Some of our other drinks were just as bad. I can't believe I would chug that down like no tomorrow. I'm going to be good anyway because I don't want to get too drunk. I don't want to feel sleepy when Chester gets on stage. Grey likes him best because he lets her watch him make-out with his boyfriend. Gosh, she's so rotten.

I had some really good cereal today. I had remembered to ask Mrs. Cake to pick some up. That makes it a lot easier on me. I didn't have to go to the store, and I don't have to eat some icky diet food. For lunch, I filled up on a veggie burger. They're really good. I've got to be going. I'm leaving soon to hang out with Grey until show time. It's always fun to dress up in the sexy clothes she has. Makes me feel good. ;) Talk to you later GJ. :D

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Pinkie was breathing hard. She had to calm down but it tore her up. How could she be so weak? How can she have done what she did after the first horrible deed? She swayed and put a hoof to her head to steady herself. She had drunk too much and wasn't feeling good.

Pinkie had been hungry after getting home. She didn't realize until it was too late that she was eating her second cake. The sudden thoughts about her diet stressed out her already strained stomach and had her racing to the bathroom. She had eaten those cakes like second nature. It was too much.

Her mind started to wonder as she stared out from against the cold bathroom wall. Isn't this easier? You could have everything you want. You can literally make you cake and eat it! Pinkie recoiled from her own thoughts. No, that's wrong. What I doing?

That's it, I need help support. I need the support of my friends and family. If Grey Faerie knew, she would be soo mad. No beyond, she would be pissed. She was is always so right about things. She likes doing things the right way. The healthy way. She would have supported me in the way I've been doing the diet so far but this? I should tell her as well about my diet but I know how she will be. I don't want her to worry about the worst possible out come but mostly I don't want her to check up on me. I just know she will see right through me.

Pinkie Pie

Pinkie closed the book. She looked at it unsteadily. She hated the words she puts down. No one should know these things. She turned and stared at her bed. The morning was going to be rough. Pinkie rubbed her face before crawling over and into bed.

Why? Why did she have too much? Why does she always have too much or too much? She knew the answer to the why but she wouldn't tell. Pinkie shivered, in the end, she couldn't help but feel that some part of her was unraveling.

Author's Note:

*I actually did get DUFF from a book cover. I never got the chance to read it but it looks good. It's called The DUFF.
*This refers to how girls that like yaoi or boy/boy shipping are called Fujoshi or "rotten girl". Fujoshi (腐女子?, lit. "rotten girl") is a self-mockingly pejorative Japanese term for female fans of manga and novels that feature romantic relationships between men.

Comments

[Zeyon The Green]

I like the story but PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE NO MORE PINK FONT ANYTHING BUT THAT PLEASE. Had to highlight to read it because it hurt to look at it. (I am exaggerating a little for comedic effect.)

"Duff," Really somepony was that mean? Pinkie has feelings too.

[Melancholy]

Why do I have my suspicions about this Grey Faery not really being all....there.....

[spetsnaz pinkie pie]

Ah pinkie your not a duff your a sap. Especially day flank. What I like a bubble butt like Celestia's. DAAAAMMMMMNNNNNNN!!!! Dat flank.

[Seether00]

Pinkie needs help. She has good friends. A few weeks on AJ's farm will slim her down real fast.

[Grey Faerie]

So sorry about the Pink font forgot to add note about changing the background if you needed to.

[Grey Faerie]

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Yeah, Grey Faerie can be rather strange at times. It's not that she isn't all there; it's more of where her values lie. But with the way she talks, it's a combination of age, injuries, and an accent.

[Zeyon The Green]

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No problem just being silly.

[Clemerl]

I know I shouldn't, but the Banana thing got me thinking of it.

[Evil-Lovieness]

Okay... I had no idea about that DUFF insult... But either way still... I feel the INCREDABLE NEED to bring this up....

"DUFFMAN!!! DOES NOT APPRECIATE YOU USING THE COMPANY NAME TO HURT PINKIE PIE!!!! OH YEAH!!!"