Mostly Confused · 5:23am Jan 6th, 2022
So back after another hiatus and thought I'd do a little writing again in the ol online diary. Both a lot has happened and nothing at all which I found is a common trend in life where progress is almost stagnant for reasons outside of our control, but for a week I was able to rein that in. Did the modeling thing again and I learned how to do humans now. Blender has never been something I took too seriously since I always went with half measures. I'm glad for once I managed to get far enough to animate my own human models. On another note, had to learn how to jump start a car recently when I parked at a gas station and I didn't have anything to actually jump start the car so it took me 3 hours of walking, effectively abandoning my car, to find a place that sold what I needed. That was an experience for this time of year.
In other news, writing. I've started to do that again, although I also do it in half measures just opening a word doc and writing with no clear motive or intent. I think of things I went through, people I know, and most especially places I've seen and I just write. I think that's what has blocked me in a lot of writing attempts and why I fully committing to writing way back as I wasn't just writing to write, I wanted to make something specific. That focus on trying to force an idea into fruition when I didn't even fully understand my own idea left me with writers block more often than not. It's always easier to look at something from the outside in for me when it comes to writing. Analyzing different works and finding trends to turn writing less into a creative practice and more into a science purely because that's how I thought I was supposed to improve. Reading, listening, or watching all kinds of writing guides from world building to narrative, but at the end of the day sometimes I think it is better to ignore all of that and just...write
