Compulsive lies

I tend to lie through admission rather often. It's a bad habit of mine that happens either on accident or on purpose, and my most recent lie through admission would be in regards to my work. I quit my job. Had a two, more like three, week notice too. This important news has not been conveyed to literally anyone of my friends or family. This is not the first time I've done this, albeit the first time when it happened I felt quite liberated for a couple of reasons I shall shortly explain and similarly explain why this time I feel completely lost.

The whole process of quitting was a bit chaotic, as when I first put in my notice nobody else in the department even knew I was quitting. Shockingly enough after giving my boss the notice shortly after I got Covid so I just disappeared for two weeks, so I delayed my notice a bit because of that. When I came back no one asked me why I disappeared, either because despite working there for more than a year I had no friends there, or maybe they were notified which I highly doubt. Just the pessimist in me speaking, part of the reason I quit really.

Strangely enough my boss actually wanted to keep in touch with me and gave me his Discord, which is odd. Throughout my year working there I very rarely exchanged words with anyone. It was a very lonely job in the warehouse. Now that I have quit nothing has really changed, and I haven't learned how to talk to people at all.

I both know and don't know what I wish to do now. I think I want to go to college for Cyber Defense because it pays well and its what my dad does, but I also don't like coding at all and I'm not even living in the same place as him so expecting help would be a fools errand. Sometimes I think I want to be a writer but I don't believe I can publish my own stories to any success. I want something stable, but my interests lack stability. Maybe I'll be a mortician

Edit: I have noticed that I never explained why I felt liberated from quitting my first job, but not my second. When I worked in fast food as my first job I had no car, and had not finished my online schooling. I initially started working in order to pay for my online schooling and it was very much so progress at your own pace kind of school as there were no deadlines or schedules for anything. It took me two and a half years to finish what should've taken six months of classes, due to this. I often just forgot about my schooling sometimes due to just how much I worked. I worked six days a week with ten hour closing shifts. I was at my job more than I was at home and due to that I never spent my money on anything because I simply didn't have the time to bother with it. I didn't need to buy food since I'd just eat at my workplace and I didn't need to pay for gas because I just walked there, nor did I have to pay rent luckily enough as my mother wanted to at least keep me in the house until I graduated.

I had managed to save up a LOT of money, and after realizing that I had enough to just pay for two full years of a local community college upfront it kind of hit me full force how much I really need to finish my schooling, yet my job held me back, and its not like I even disliked working fast food. In the end I had made the decision to quit so that I can graduate. Within one month of quitting I had graduated high school and gotten a driver's license.

I felt absolutely amazing.

Sadly I'm not making such strides after quitting my latest job, much to my shame. I didn't even overwork myself to the bone so its not like I gained a ton of new free time either...