Codependency

As I had expected my feelings have caught up to me and began eating away at mind. The pain has not gotten to an incontrollable amount just yet and I hope it continues to stay that way. I wish I knew what to do to battle this, all I have are my previous mistakes to guide me through but that can only get me so far. One of the big things I believe to overcome codependency is to make sure I never lose myself, it's so easy to make him my everything and to forget everything that makes me who I am. It is only then that I believe I have truly lost. It has just been a month but I'd have to say things are definitely going better this time compared to my first two attempts. My endurance is up to two days now before I begin to fall apart, it's almost as though he knows my issues and limits and provides these weekly absences to make me stronger. Regardless they've been helping me greatly, I just need to continue building myself up while also giving him the love needed for a relationship to continue and grow, the second half being the easy part. If only I could love as easily as everyone else, I really hope this is the time I finally overcome this so I can truly love him and have a normal relationship.