Another end

It's been nearly a year since I've last posted on here, and looking back it's surprising that I've been doing this since late 2017. I always come here to post the extreme highs and lows of my life, it helps me release all the things held up in me and also reminds me of these feelings I've experienced and how far I've come.

My life has changed a ton in the past year, perhaps more so than any other year in my life. There have been amazing moments such as my first kiss, overcoming my anxiety, and beginning transitioning.. but there have also been some terrible moments: depression, being abandoned by my parents, and another failed relationship. School has been going well, starting my final year of undergrad this fall then it's off to grad school where I'm hoping I can do something big like studying abroad. I've spent all summer working as a research assistant on campus, I've learned a ton and honestly enjoyed the experience despite the terrible pay. Things are looking very promising for me, but in these final weeks of summer I've spent a lot of time reflecting over my current relationship. It's likely coming to an end very soon and it's a shame that it's for the exact same reasons all my past relationships have failed... I'm sure I'll figure out love one day but it hurts so much to constantly go through this cycle repeatedly.