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CocoaPone


Formerly North Winds

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  • 10 weeks
    Clinic

    Last week I had ended up in the mental clinic for about 3 days. I was given a lot of medication which seem to help to some extent. Ever since then I've been feeling very odd, very emotionally unstable. There's a lot of people watching over me currently, people from the clinic, people from my university, getting lots of calls and constant check ups on how I'm doing. It all seems like a lot of

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  • 16 weeks
    Another year

    So far this year has started off like any other, massive seasonal depression with me sleeping away the days in my room. I wish I didn't live alone, or at least had some close friends to hang out with in person. A lot of things are messing with my head, it's hard to tell what I really need. I found myself turning to alcohol and weed more frequently despite how much I hate the substances. I just

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  • 25 weeks
    Depression

    it's 5 in the morning, I woke up 3 hours ago after passing out the entire afternoon after classes. I missed an assignment that was due at midnight today, oh well.

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  • 39 weeks
    Another end

    It's been nearly a year since I've last posted on here, and looking back it's surprising that I've been doing this since late 2017. I always come here to post the extreme highs and lows of my life, it helps me release all the things held up in me and also reminds me of these feelings I've experienced and how far I've come.

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  • 90 weeks
    Moving on

    I have once again reached the end of a relationship. He had asked me to simply be friends until we could meet in person to try again, but I can't see that ever happening. It's once again time for me to move forward in life, improving myself and my skills preparing for the next couple years. I do hope one day I can love but for now they all seem to end the same way, but then again I've never dated

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Aug
11th
2022

Moving on · 7:23am Aug 11th, 2022

I have once again reached the end of a relationship. He had asked me to simply be friends until we could meet in person to try again, but I can't see that ever happening. It's once again time for me to move forward in life, improving myself and my skills preparing for the next couple years. I do hope one day I can love but for now they all seem to end the same way, but then again I've never dated in person so perhaps I'll give it one more try.

The new semester is about to begin in 11 days I believe, I am much more prepared than I was 8 months ago. After spending some time here I've come to find that I really do love this school and I'm looking forward to this next semester. Classes are exciting, schedule is nice, and I've even found a new place to live next year. I believe the end is finally in sight, I've just applied for the computer science program and graduation looks like it can fall next December at the soonest if I really push myself. More than likely however it'll be May of 2024 which I don't mind either. Life is good at the moment, just struggling with depression from relationship issues. I should see things start to improve soon once I recover.

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Comments ( 1 )

So sorry to hear that, I feel ya on that in some ways.

~Hugs~

I'm always here if you need to talk. Glad to know you're ready for what lies ahead 😌

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