Emotions in VR

Tonight was a strange night for me, I spent most of it in VR. There's this guy that I like and we've been spending a lot of time together over the past month or two just hanging out in VR and honestly it's one of those experiences that feels unlike anything else. Many people overlook VR as a gimmick or as something evil to be avoided but what I felt tonight was undeniable. I'm not really sure how it happened, we were just in VRChat hanging out like normal, in an abandoned mall of all places, then suddenly he comes up to me and we start cuddling and that was a very surreal experience. It was just the two of us alone but brought together through VR, and I could feel the warmth and affection and in that moment things just felt right. After a bit we decided to head somewhere else, a log cabin with a fireplace. We laid down next to each other and messed around a bit giggling and booping each other, then suddenly he holds out his hand and I see mine reach for his. We didn't say anything the entire time, we just laid there next to each other, holding each other's hands in virtual reality. At that moment I was overcome with feelings again just like at the abandoned mall, but this time things felt stronger. Perhaps my lack of social interaction throughout my life has caused these moments to mean more than they really do, but "holding" his hand there and just being with him was a beautiful feeling. I don't know how I feel right now, I think I love him but at the same time I'm confused and nervous. Even though the night was amazing, as things went on I had this strange feeling inside of me, a sort of uncertainty but at the same time longing to experience it and be with him again. I'm not sure what I'll do, I just hope I didn't mess things up, I guess future me will know the answer to that.