Update · 3:51am Sep 12th, 2021
School has started back up again but my motivation has yet to return. It has been about a year since the semester that killed my motivation and ability to do well in school. I suppose a year and a half of online school does that to a person, I don't know though, even if I went back in person I feel I'd struggle with the same issue. I remember talking to a friend about it and he gave me a bit of insight, it was a process that brought me to this point, so it would take another process to bring me out of it. I don't really know how to go about improving myself in life, I spend so much time doing nothing now, it makes me sad knowing that I'm now just a fraction of what I once was. I'm considering starting to stream and get more into art and youtube, perhaps I'll have some luck there building an audience. I think that's what would help me out of this hole, having something to work towards, a long term project I can devote lots of time to. I guess that's it for now, good luck future me, I hope you can make it!