Hopefully last blog post for a bit? · 12:11am Dec 4th, 2012
I legitimately think I've lost my mojo for NSFW stories.
The many attempts I've made to clamber back up to the place I reached after All of Your Love succeeded beyond all possible hopes I had for it.. they've all failed.
If I continue to do those types of stories, I will never reach the same level I reached with AOYL.
With the immediate failure of My Little Chimera, the lackluster ratings of my newest addition, and how low all of my other ratings are compared to my original story.. that tells me that I'm failing as a writer.
My quality isn't maintaining itself.
So I'm going to get my shit together not by forcing myself to write shitty NSFW stories, but by writing what I want to write at any given time.
As of now I give absolutely no fucks how many stories I have to submit and how many unfinished pieces of shit there will likely be unless a couple ideas stick to me.
As of now I will also not write any NSFW stories unless it comes back to me.
I started as an NSFW author, and I'm not surprised if a lot of you are disappointed no more AOYL-level risque stories are likely to come out in the next long while.
I'll be writing romance still, and perhaps small bits of clop if I feel interested in doing so, but I will by no means restrict myself anymore. I don't like thinking about needing to finish things so the readers will be happy, so I've just decided to say 'fuck that'. Putting pressure on myself that way is no good either, and only prevents me from actually getting it done. Fuck deadlines. I won't say anymore, 'oh this chapter should be done within the week' or 'it's almost done, expect it soon'. None of that shit, and if I do accidentally say something like that, don't hold me to it. Chances are I'll be a lazy piece of shit and not finish it in that time setting.
So I'm writing something else now. Something safe for reading at work. I'm done trying to act like a better author than I am, so I'll continue to write my shitty stories and stop worrying about them. It's fucking stupid for me because it's only ruining my reputation to do nothing and cry about my failures, so let me attempt to resurrect myself. I may eventually come back into the clop genre, but I think that's where I'm really falling short for now. I'll study AOYL if and when I get back into the swing of it, to see what makes it appeal to the audience, and then I'll write some actual quality clop fiction again.
well if you never come back I just want to say it was an honor reading what you wrote you are one writers on here to make me want to try to write fanfics so thank you for everything you did
570678
I am staying, just that my works will no longer be 'Not Safe for Work' for a long time.
570682
alright, if you ever need anything I might not be much but I'm here for you and I will back you up on anything you do.
Now that is what i want to hear!
Good job, man!
570719
Yep. Just that I likely won't be able to write anything on our story unless it's just the casual stuff.
570735
At laest it's something and you go your way.
Dragon