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I'm bored, so, a vague, rambling update, featuring mental health(tm), and horsewords!

First off, I hope y'all are doing well. Like, for real. Compassion is one of those things I overthink as being sarcastic or overdue -- especially in a blog post -- but yeah. claptrap voicePooOoooooOooosiTivitY!

I've taken a break off of Discord for a couple days. Mainly because my anxiety is at a worrying high (hah), and everyone talks about this "social media break" thing. Alongside the calmness of not spam-checking servers, I feel surprisingly disconnected. Almost all of my friends are active on Discord, and it's really given me some perspective on what my Actual Real Day to Day life is about -- not just lurking in 20+ servers and hoping someone will message me or something. Reads sad, doesn't it? Feels alright, to be honest! -- I can like, spend 10 minutes making coffee, or take a walk!! For FUN!! Groundbreaking concepts?!?!?!?!!!!!

(For the uninitiated, imagine that feeling of "I need a reason to go for a walk outside otherwise people will judge me" times 10, and hello, welcome to brain. But I am initiated >:) )

It kinda reminds me of that feeling of ending a therapy session, or a long call with a friend. I feel a little better despite the fact that usually nothing's changed in those few hours (well, aside from my bank account, bAziNgA). I remember a time when that "reset" feeling was more common, like after sleeping or something, but it just feels a bit more dull. Exercise has been a bit colorful in that regard.

Oh right! Shit, I write on this site. Uhh. Yeah.

Writing has always been a hobby I dive into for a week, then abandon for like 2 years. I wish I could enjoy it more rather than worrying about X career aspect I could be working on instead, or Y portfolio for grad school.

So, do I have a detailed, motivation-driven plan to kickstart old stories, write a Spike shitfic, collab with PengiunMan(tm)?

Nope! Instead, I might try blogging here more, maybe that'll motivate me to write a horseword or two. I have a few stories sitting in a Google Drive, it's just about finding the energy at this point. Or making my own!

If y'all have any ideas for things feel free to post 'em below. If it makes me laugh hard enough at 3am, who knows, maybe I'll churn out 1k words on it.
Or 2k if you're lucky :)

Catch y'all later!