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    Site! Why You Keep Changing?

    Wow, fimfiction has changed quite a bit since my humble beginning where I first drunkenly stepped through the door and picked up a keyboard. It's been a crazy time reading the writing here and it still captivates me to find such outstanding writers that join together to write about ponies. I can only wish to be half as good a writer as many people here. A mastery of spelling and forming sentences

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  • 594 weeks
    Potential new project preview

    Stupid idiot, what were you thinking taking in this crying, pooping, miserable little mess he thought bitterly to himself. It’s been two days since he found the little mongrel and she wouldn’t stop making noise. Always flailing her hooves around like a fool, either laughing or wailing at the top of her longs. He hadn’t managed to sleep in all that time. I’m hungry she’d cry out in

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  • 599 weeks
    To Followers, favorites, and everything in between

    Hello everyone, I guess it's been awhile since last I said anything. My abrupt return was pretty much just a sudden appearance before a disappearance. I put out a chapter, perhaps half-cocked, and went back to lurking in the shadows with the light of the computer monitor illuminating me. Rather melodramatic but hey I'm in one of those moods, and what a mood it is.

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  • 605 weeks
    The Great return

    Dressed in the rags, your wonderful neighborhood tramp Ex Nihilos welcomes you into his humble abode. What was once a wondrous apartment with furniture and wondrous cultural icons like an 'I can haz cheezburgr' posts and an Beatles poster with a coffee stain on the corner now lays barren. A homeless man sleeps in a corner and a condemned sign sits in the meager trashcan.

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  • 612 weeks
    Back from Star Wars Celebration VI

    Got to meet Anthony Daniels, Seth Green, Timothy Zahn, and attended a bunch of writer's seminars.

    Oh also spend my entire life savings on Star Wars stuff but totally worth it!

    And now back to College and writing.

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To Followers, favorites, and everything in between · 2:07pm Nov 28th, 2012

Hello everyone, I guess it's been awhile since last I said anything. My abrupt return was pretty much just a sudden appearance before a disappearance. I put out a chapter, perhaps half-cocked, and went back to lurking in the shadows with the light of the computer monitor illuminating me. Rather melodramatic but hey I'm in one of those moods, and what a mood it is.

Depression is not a word I use often. I'm the type of guy who bottles it all up and sucks up the hardships of the world as just life. Mellow, going in stride. When I'm bothered or sad I put on a smile and pretend to be happy. Even before I knew of Pinkie Pie and her wondrous ways I was always the one to cheer up my friends or even people I didn't know just for the sake of them being happy. I guess I rather never cared if the stress got to me or contemplated what happens when I'm finally broke down. I just kept on smile and keeping it a secret that I was drowning on the inside, too prideful to admit I need to help. But hey, I always survive and get through so no worries. They always say if you mimic the actions of a happy person you'll be happy, right? Well they forgot to mention it sometimes hurts to smile.

As some of you might have known. Well, things aren't exactly going very good for me. They still aren't, and I don't know when they'll improve so I'll come out and say it. I don't when I'll finish Rorschach in Equestria. It won't be one of those stories that is forgotten and forever left unfinished. So don't go unfavoriting it or anything if you want to see the eventual completion of it. But for now I don't see myself being able to write as I once did.

I'll be around, I think I won't ever leave this site or the community. I'll be giving praise to my favorite authors, helping others start out or proofreading for them. Talking to fans that still want to chat. And just all around try to be a part of the brony community. But for now I'm ashamed to say that as a writer... I wouldn't exactly call myself one at the moment. So in the meantime I'll just be some guy. Just another brony.

I don't do Q&As but as always questions in the comments will be answered.

Oh, and Happy Holidays.


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>Bottling up emotions

That's always a terrible idea.

I admit I'm just saying this, but talk to someone you know on a personal level about this, not just to faceless people on the internet. Then again I'm no psychologist so...

Well, I suggest getting your life on track before focusing on something insignificant like pony fan fiction.:ajbemused:
Your life is more important..

I agree, it is just a story after all. Real life does take priority :pinkiehappy: Although I do look forward to the, eventual end, of the story whenever it is you happen to get back into writing again. Hope things get better too.

Just look at life square in the eyes, and laugh. Laugh at how ridiculous it is, laugh at how it doesn't make sense, and even laugh at when it does. If that doesn't work, just tell life to fuck off. Not good advice, but it's how I do it. Good luck, my fellow man.

pony fiction is fun and entertaining to those who read it, but if its not fun for the writer for any reason, then its not worth the time. life takes precedence. cheer up and come back in a stronger, happier mood. We can wait. We may not know you personally, but as broines we all love you and hope you cheer up soon and things get better.

Although i don't write, i'm going through something similar right now, and this always puts a smile on my face if only for a moment.


I get it. I often keep a lot in as well, not because I want to but because letting it out tends to upset others.

Your writing and participation in this community has brought many of us (myself very much included) much joy. Joy and strange, strange, Rorschach-and-pony-filled dreams...

Here's hoping things turn around for you. You make a positive difference in our lives!

That's okay man, we'll still be here. I hope you feel better, regardless.

Looks like I'll need to get back on your ass if you're ever gonna finish this story. I'm back on fimfiction too, couldn't hack it over at AiE so I'll have more time to kick your ass. But in the meantime I'll dedicate one of these Guinnesses that I'm drinking to you. Feel better, bro, I'll be here if you need anything.

I know those feels, and I know how hard it can be to deal with this.
You have dedicated fans and followers, and I would bet anything that even the ones who don't post here would want you to get back on your feet, regardless of how long that takes or what that does to updating.

If you can't believe in yourself, believe in us who believe in you. (Apologies for the bastardized quote, but the point stands.)

Alright then my friend. I hope your life gets better and that you can write again. If you ever need someone to talk to let me know. Hope you have a good day

How did you find your proofreaders and how did you ask?

I'm making my debut on my own crossover but don't know if my style is appropriate or not, though that's not the main issue.

Hope you still managed to have a good Thanksgiving and that Christmas wouldn't be a let down but better instead.

*hugs* it's good to see you, Ex! I'm glad you're still around! :pinkiehappy:


Go ahead and take as much time as you need, we'll still be here when you come back.

As for your problems, I do not know what they are so I cannot give specific advice, but I went through some bad shit about a year and a half ago which I got through by talking with my best friends. Remember, the ones that really matter will always take the time to sit down and talk when you need it, so don't feel like you need to avoid dumping your problems on them. If for some reason you cannot do this you may want to go find a psychologist to talk with, however your friends and family (assuming they are not the problem) are always your best bet. You could also vent on the internet, but that is never as therapeutic as having someone to talk to in person so I would only do that if you need suggestions for ways to change your life to eliminate specific problems.

I would also advise finding something that makes you happy to help get your mood up because I found that watching MLP episodes was a great way for me to turn a bad day around. I actually held off on watching a few new episodes specifically so I could use them later in the week to get through rough times that I knew would be coming, but everyone is different and you need to find what works for you.

I'm like that annoying neighbor, always here for you even when you don't want me here with you :pinkiehappy:

And you know I'll always be here for you Ex :pinkiecrazy:

I hope you're able to get right soon, and please know that whether or not you finish this fic it will always remain one of the most personally challenging things I have ever read. If you ever feel the need to bounce anything off a fellow damaged individual (and a guy you don't know), I'm around.

548562 Thanks mate, get hammered in my honor!

549314 I highly suggest visiting a group called Proofreaders and People Willing to Proof-read It's filled with great people willing to help folks out on proof-reading. Just look over the list of people they have and find someone who is available or go on their thread and ask there for help. I'd say this would be the easiest way to get a proof-reader. Good luck on your story mate, look forward to reading it!

549647 I admit I'm not one to really talk it out with others but I might try. But in the meantime, Ponies definitely ease all the stress of the world.

550190 Thanks Haku! ...I think...

And thank you everyone for your comments and support, it really brightens my day!


550370 Ponies: cheaper than therapy.:rainbowlaugh:

Huh, you are exactly like me, dont worry bug, we understand, i hope you can fix your problems.

I wanna talk sometime. You seem like a cool guy...

Best of luck to your own problems mate.

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