"Chapter 5: A storm of deceit, an ocean of poison" 's delay · 4:05am Sep 1st, 2020
Cause for delays
I know for someone of you its been a long weight, and for that I apologize. Now before I begin I know I'm going to sound haughty and pretentious for my explanation, but I 100% genuinely mean what I say. As for the matter of this chapters shorter length, delays and different take compared to the others. This one, as I've stated, was a stressful undertaking only made worse by my own lull in passion and creativity. Having said that, rest assured I plan to finish this no matter what, It may take a while but I will finish this. In any event, this was my third compete redraft of the chapter, which is actually less than my normal complete redrafts of a chapter oddly enough, but this one was "different" from other chapters. I came to a place where I was, and still am, largely unsatisfied with the rest of What you Need's artistic merits. For me writing is an art in the most pure sense. Stories are more than just tales we tell one another. Even when we aren't trying too, a story of just a thousand words can tell you so much more if your willing to let it and or examine it. After all writing is a beautiful medium with interesting, and sometimes frustrating, nuances and mechanics that writers can use to not only make a reader think but also feel. This doubling down on the artistic necessity of my work is why I could not get this chapter out sooner. I either felt the chapter did not express what I wanted it too or strayed too far from other chapters "feel", for a lack of a better word(also own laziness admittedly 
). Eventually however I bit the bullet and decided to let this one be of raw expression, as such the chapter is not only the expression of ones emotions, but also a lot more abstract than any prior chapter. Where previous ones were quite literal and told my themes through letteral events, this one is wholly a metaphorical expression of Phoenix's state of being.
Why What you need exist
What you need came into existence for two reasons. 1) My desire to express three themes (to hopefully touch another human being): being lost and out of your depth, apathy, and the ability to rise up from/past these set backs/struggles. These were the three foundations I wished and still do wish to build W.y.N on. Now this isn't to say that these three themes are the only you can take away, like any peace of art, I hope that you dear readers do find your own meaning in my work and can reflect on it in your own challenges and learn to move beyond them. Put simply, I hope that this story may touch someone, anyone really, in a meaningful way. If that happens regardless of how I feel, or anyone feels, about W.y.N's quality, it will have been a success. 2) Boopy Doopy 's Mind Over Matter . This story encapsulated quite well many of my feelings going through life(albeit for different reasons than the character's actual circumstance). As such I wished to tackle my own take on it and hopefully do for someone else as this story did for me.
Misc.
If there are any more questions, criticism or general things you want to ask or say fill free to leave it in the comments and I'll get back to you a.s.a.p. Now, as per usual Have a good one all, and thank you for reading!
