The Perfect Way to Say This · 11:17pm Aug 21st, 2020
So, I’ve been thinking about this for a while, and I just need to get it off my chest. I figured maybe a song would be the easiest way to say it. But I’m done pretending everything’s alright. Now, this is only meant to say I’m taking a break from the site for a while. I’ll pop in to see blog posts or PMs and sooner or later, I’ll be fully active, but I’ve been having an internal conflict about two of my friends. I’ll hint at who they are in this. That’s it for now. Bye.
Original Song: A Lifetime of War - Sabaton
Instrumental
Two ways to view this world
They’re similar at times
The way I see this world
I just pretend it’s fine
Ballads and Melodies; both filled with love and war
Then propaganda spreads; it’s lies I’ve heard before
Two ways to view the world; they tear me to the core
Friends I don’t deserve
Have I gone insane?
Only two remain
Who is to blame
For their best friends’ pain?
Through this conflict
Pain spreads like a plague
I can’t find my peace
Ballads and Melodies
And someone will grieve
And that someone is me
From day to night, this conflict
Keeps raging on
Ballads bounce in my head; Melodies scorch my soul
When my heart feels like it’s burning, what must be done?
The knife blade or the gallows, what’s more to come?
My~ Soul is split
(From Ballads and Melodies)
The conflict goes on
Have I gone insane?
Only two remain
Who is to blame
For their best friends’ pain?
Through this conflict
Pain spreads like a plague
I can’t find my peace
Ballads and Melodies
And someone will grieve
And that someone is me
Instrumental
Without me they're both alike
No right no wrong
Nor rich nor poor
No matter who they‘re loyal to
Good or bad
They're both the same
At each other’s side without me
Have I gone insane?
Only two remain
Who is to blame
For their best friends’ pain?
Through this conflict
Pain spreads like a plague
I can’t find my peace
Ballads and Melodies
And someone will grieve
And that someone is me
Have I gone insane?
Only two remain
Who is to blame
For their best friends’ pain?
Through this conflict
Pain spreads like a plague
I can’t find my peace
Ballads and Melodies
And someone will grieve
And that someone is me
Instrumental
Oh...Hero...I respect your decision to take a break from the site, but please, don't blame yourself for something like this...
5340455
You know who I’m talking about, right?
5340457
Yeah...but you're not to blame for anything...
5340458
I don’t feel that way...
5340460
Well...I'm sorry that you feel that way...
5340462
Okay...
5340463
I just...I don't want to see you upset...
5340465
Whatever...
5340467
Hero...you want a hug?
5340468
I don’t know...
5340469
Oh...well...I just...I don't like seeing you sad...then I'm sad...
5340471
Whatever... I just need a break...
5340472
Alright. I understand
5340474
Thank you...
5340477
Of course. If you feel like you need a break, I'll respect that
5340478
Okay
5340480
Mhm. Just know I'll miss you, and I'll wait for you, however long you want to take a break for
5340483
Sure...
5340485
Alright...
I dont know "exactly" what this is about, but I have been fairly absent untill recently... I hope this helps, here are some ramblings of a madman with a request at the end.
In life, people and events flow with the river of time... some eventually washing away in faster currents. We remember alot of things we want to forget, and forget alot of things we should remember, but all things are important regardless. The events are not luck or coincidence, but cause and effect spiraling through time, sometimes further back than you'd think. Most things that happen are not the cause of a single person or event, but rather many, many events and actions leading to it, alot you do not even know about. That makes some things difficult and sometimes even impossible to control or predict, but that doesnt mean we are not in control of how we deal with them when they do happen.
Will we move with it, try our best to salvage the situation, help all involved learn and grow from it, forgive but not forget to try to make sure it doesn't happen again?
Will we move on and away, give up , forgive AND forget, find something or someone new to focus on?
Or will we stay completely still, bitterly holding on to the past forever, letting it eat away at us untill we have nothing left.
Things and people come and go, and just like you can find a lost toy or tool, you can find new or old friends again.
But live not in sadness or hate, life is too short to be sad all the time and too long to be angry all the time. We all need to take joy and pride in everything we accomplish, and learn from our failures.
I only have 1 friend that I truly know very well, sometimes that is enough, others, i want to get online and talk to new ones. I'm scared tho, scared ill run them away just like the ones i tried to make IRL, so I hide behind carefully crafted comments and blogs, hoping someone likes it and decides to talk to me first instead, while also praying that I dont chase away anyone that did before. Keeping just enough distance that I feel safe.
I hope to see you again soon friend, and may your break be relaxing, relieving, and reignite your passions and interests, whatever they may be!
5340503
Heh, thanks
5340505
As I said, i don't know exactly what this is about, but I hope you, ballad, and melody all have a great day. And I hope if things are tense between you and someone else, I hope you work it out and be at peace with it.
5340503
And try to remember to see the ramblings of this fool in a positive light, im only ever trying to help others and learn and grow myself in the process.
5340643
Okay then