State of Me and CnG · 3:09pm Jun 16th, 2020
Whelp, here I am again with some updates. Just wanna let you guys in on what's happening and my plans for Coffee and Gunpowder.
So I'll start with something you guys will likely care more bout; the story. Some of you may like this, some of you won't, but as it stands I'm not satisfied with Coffee and Gunpowder. Well, more on the early parts of it anyways. That's why I'm currently working on rewriting it. I promise, this will be the only rewrite this story will ever see in it's lifetime. My editor and I agreed that the start of the story will likely drive away a lot of readers because of... well, it's shit; an absolute pile of garbage that can be smelled all the way from the other side of the Pacific.
Some plots will be cut out, some improved upon, and I'll try to straighten out the pacing. Basically I'm gonna try and make the story have more focus on the narrative. The rewrite will affect every chapter of the story, and some will be entirely cut out. Details will also be altered, so I suggest reading from the start when I'm done with it. The rewrite will happen in one go, meaning that I'll only be updating the story when everything is said and done. Which also translates to this project taking some time.
Second part of the blog; depression. yay! I've been going through some stuff recently and it's... meh. That's the best word I can use to describe it: Meh. Everything is just bland or tastes bitter. A little bit of colour drained out of everything I do. Whenever I'm finally happy, the memory of what had happened came back to haunt me. I can't help but feel betrayed. I wanna bawl my eyes out, shout absolute murder to whoever did this to me, and cut them out of my life entirely when I'm finally fucking over this thing. I just want it to be done so I can continue with my life, but... well, a lot of time has passed, and I can only hope my anger and disappointment dies down eventually.
I'm not going to outright point fingers, but the person that made me feel this way no longer has my respect or trust. They used to be someone I could lean my head on whenever trouble comes, but it seems that even years of bonding still didn't make them trust me enough to not stab me in the back. I couldn't write. I couldn't do anything productive without the results being shit. I've only recently gotten back to writing, and I hope I can finally keep moving to reach my goal: Entertain while improving my skills as a writer. It's not a lover who had cheated on me, if you were wondering. That's the only clue I'm giving out on who this person is.
That's all the words I can say at this time. Hope you guys have a good one. Talk to you again soon.
Okay good to know it's not abandonend