. Right now, I am simply just reading or looking at blogs on here. I don't have the energy to write or create a story, but, what I could do is write poetry forI let everyone down · 7:50pm Mar 20th, 2020
Yes, the title should say it all. I don't know why I kept fighting. I guess it was hoping that I would make everyone else happy for once, but I couldn't even do that. Writing poetry wasn't good enough. They expected me to do elearning after elearning after elearning because of this virus. They wanted to shove all the education down my throat before the deadline. They didn't care about my mental state. All they care about are the grades. I've failed them. My family, my teachers, and myself. I wanted so badly to graduate because then I could follow my dreams. I could become a writer. I could get a job so I could transition because my mom wouldn't allow it until after graduation. I'm tired of feeling stuck, of feeling like everything I do or feel isn't worth a damn thing. I feel like I only do these things for my family and never for myself. Isn't that a selfless thing to do? Then why am I so miserable? WHY????!!!!!
Today was the last day to turn stuff in and 3:15 was the deadline. You guys wished me the best of luck, and I couldn't even make any of you proud. I failed you guys, too. I'm sorry, i'm so so sorry. You guys deserve a better friend, someone who can inspire rather than sound miserable. Goodbye.
With love, Lunar_Glow
Don't be so hard on yourself. Your a cewl person.
It sounds like the school is the one who needs to apologize. Not you.
Sounds like the school’s trying to milk the money for what it’s worth, as the saying goes. They’re trying to fit everything in so they get paid as much as possible, is what I assume.
I sincerely hope somebody can address those problems, and as for disappointing us... Well, I’m just a face in the crowd, but I’d say that there’s nothing to be disappointed by. You’re still an awesome person, no? Keep being that same person.
Nonsense. You didn't fail me. You tried your hardest! The school is the one that needs to be apologizing. What a bunch of milk-drinkers.
hey! Don't be so hard on yourself.
Wish I had something more helpful to say, but.........
*hugs*
Hope things work out. I'm so sorry.
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I'm trying to keep my head up. I just kind of needed to break down and cry those tears instead of holding it in. Most of you are blaming the school. Whether that's the case or not, there are some good teachers in the school. And, sometimes teachers say they don't care about the money when they really do, but these teachers actually care about me. And, you may not know this, but teachers don't exactly get paid a whole lot. Would you waste your time teaching everyone and spending about 6 hours out of every weekday to teach a bunch of children? Who knows, maybe some teachers don't feel obligated to care that much about their students based on the fact that they don't get paid enough. There are many reasons that I don't really care to go into detail. But, sometimes, it's not the school's fault. It's the system. Don't think that all teachers are bad and just wanna torture you. I've shown my teachers my poetry and what I'm good at and they actually care about it. There are good teachers in the world. Either way, I'm glad to have friends that care. I'm doing a little better now, but I feel like laying down and getting some rest and isolating myself for the day. I hope you guys are doing okay. I know I'm not the only one struggling. If you guys wanna talk, I'm all ears. It might even take my mind off of my situation. Anyway, I'mma hop off here for a bit. Feel free to pm me. I always love to see the notifications on my mailbox and the bell. With love, Lunar_Glow
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*hugs tighter*
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*hugs back twice as hard*
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*wheeze* my ribs!
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as long as I keep my head up high. And, as long as I have you guys by my side.
Don't worry, I'm in a better mood. There's always next year. Besides, when have I ever backed down from a fight? This badass can handle anything thrown their way
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Yeah! I'm glad your feeling ok!