My current problems! · 4:45am Mar 17th, 2020
I have already stated that my health has gotten better but niw everything is falling apart in front of me. I honestly don't know what to do. I honestly didn't want to let anyone close to me because I was scared that my epilepsy would hurt them. I am now seeing the full results of my epilepsy hurting people and it hurts. I have actually started to feel like my actual heart and soul is wounded by every time I look at my body I don't see any blood but I feel like I am wounded. I am watching my life fall down around me and I don't know what to do. I have fought with everything I can but I don't know if I can keep fighting. I am hurting because I am hurting a person I care about and I can't change what's hurting her. I feel like a disgrace and a disappointment to myself. I don't know what to do and I am trying but I have no clue on what to do. I am sorry for dumping all of this on you guys.
I have epilepsy and i felt that way to, but ask yourself would they be better off without you, or would they want to see you happy.
never worry about your dumping things on us. we're a community that cares. I can't say I understand everything your going through. but I do understand the feelings. my depression has me seeing myself in much the same way at times. don't feel like your causing others pain. I know it's hard and kinda cliche' when I say that. but from what I've been reading in your blogs shows that you have people around you that are willing to go through this pain with you. take comfort in that share with them how you feel every day. it's not going to stop the pain. but it can help lessen it.
I hope we can hang out dude and talk
we're here for you mate, thanks for telling what's on your mind(I know that's not easy) I wish I could tell you some thing I could do but don't give up ok. she love you and you love her (I can tell by the way you wright ) and you may already be doing this but I just curious have you told her how you feel about what's going on? (sorry if that question's to personal) it's just I don't have epilepsy but I do have cerebral palsy (I can't remember If I told you that or not. one of the effects of the desese ) anyway the point I trying to make here is if you haven't told her you really want to consider it . because she will notice that somethings bothering you and she will want to help (side effect of loving someone you just what to help them) she might even be blaming herself for how your feeling you know telling herself she needs to do more, that shes not doing enough that sort of thing (I've got family like that)
so talking with her may help her and you at the same time, I always feel better when I make the people I love feel better. getting it out in the open might even help you deal with it. I'm praying for you my friend
(sorry it's so long) hope it helps.
Don’t worry, we are here for you so it’s okay for you to want to tell us these kinds of things. I am so sorry that you are going through a rough time, but I know that you are a strong person and you will make it through.
Oh my. I'm so sorry you have to go through this.
Stay strong. We're all here for you. You'll get through this.