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CocoaPone


Formerly North Winds

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  • 12 weeks
    Clinic

    Last week I had ended up in the mental clinic for about 3 days. I was given a lot of medication which seem to help to some extent. Ever since then I've been feeling very odd, very emotionally unstable. There's a lot of people watching over me currently, people from the clinic, people from my university, getting lots of calls and constant check ups on how I'm doing. It all seems like a lot of

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  • 18 weeks
    Another year

    So far this year has started off like any other, massive seasonal depression with me sleeping away the days in my room. I wish I didn't live alone, or at least had some close friends to hang out with in person. A lot of things are messing with my head, it's hard to tell what I really need. I found myself turning to alcohol and weed more frequently despite how much I hate the substances. I just

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  • 27 weeks
    Depression

    it's 5 in the morning, I woke up 3 hours ago after passing out the entire afternoon after classes. I missed an assignment that was due at midnight today, oh well.

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  • 40 weeks
    Another end

    It's been nearly a year since I've last posted on here, and looking back it's surprising that I've been doing this since late 2017. I always come here to post the extreme highs and lows of my life, it helps me release all the things held up in me and also reminds me of these feelings I've experienced and how far I've come.

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  • 92 weeks
    Moving on

    I have once again reached the end of a relationship. He had asked me to simply be friends until we could meet in person to try again, but I can't see that ever happening. It's once again time for me to move forward in life, improving myself and my skills preparing for the next couple years. I do hope one day I can love but for now they all seem to end the same way, but then again I've never dated

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Feb
5th
2020

Second Semester · 10:53pm Feb 5th, 2020

It's the third week of my second semester of college, I feel like it's been a bit rough at first but things have slowly been improving. Today classes were canceled because of the Chief's super bowl victory and so far I've done nothing all day. I had planned to study calculus for a few hours to be prepared for my quiz tomorrow but I'm not really feeling it. I've always been struggling to keep up with my composition II class because I just feel like calculus is a much higher priority than reading books and writing papers. I guess today I should definitely get some work done on my paper but I'm just not feeling it at all. Life has been pretty exhausting and these classes just won't give me a break. I suppose that's part of growing up though.. heh. I do wonder what everything will be like in a few years from now, I'll be looking back at this all either with a degree remembering all the pain, or I would have dropped out of college and found something better. Whatever the case, I sure hope future me is enjoying life a lot more than I am currently.

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