Pissed off · 5:12pm Nov 13th, 2012
I had just recently found out that my Medical Certification, which drained two grand that I don't nor didn't have, as well as over a year of training, only to be told that it doesn't mean jack sh*t
It wasn't that the school wasn't credited (Because it's fully credited), it wasn't that the certification isn't in the feild that I was going into (Because it is one of the major 60 (that I know of) fɒr this one job (180,000 total people with this job in the USA in 2010))... but because I didn't give my money directly to the organization I thought I was joining to improve my chances of getting a job... I can't get a job until I pay them more out of my mile-deep hole.
I had made a promise that after I publish "The Changeling's Dragon", that I would not write any more until I had a proper job and some money coming in... but it seems like that isn't going to happen ANY TIME SOON...
Now, I'm not trying to bring anyone down here, but I have been in a deep depression since I could remember, and other then the people who I know enjoy the things that I have done, I see no point continuing to live in this world...
But again, I'm probably not going to kill myself... but I... I... I just don't know anymore
sice you deleted your former comment, i haven't got it
Suicide is for cowards who cannot take the problems they face. You need to suffer, endure, and succeed in order to feel better. If that means to stop writing stories all together, do so. Your live is the most valuable thing a human can have. Do not tarnish it by moping around. Take your problems head on, find a solution, and power through. Do this and you will be happy. Hope this helps.
500827 sorry, there was a problem with the other blog (that and I forgot to add the stories I wrote) and I just said, "It was just my guess"
500831
okay, never the less though i'm going to ask a question i've wanted to ask for a looong time.
When will spike continue his harem?
500828 I never said I would, I just said that I didn't see a point to life... I've never seen a point to life... and these bad things just tends to make me forget my smile and bring back every sad and bad memory that I have lock up inside my head
PS why can't it be that 1 certification covers all that it includeσ? Why the f*ck di I have to get a second certification in the same year for the exact same thing I have already gotten (just with a different name and a different person with my money)
Whatever stories you have wrote are not as important as you, yourself. I'm sure nobody will be mad given the circumstances and sugar coating it wont help, but don't give up, if 'It's A Wonderful Life' has taught me anything its that its not always the end.
500841 ....Did you seriously just ask that?
500841 I've got an idea for the Rainbow one, a plan to join the other two CMCs and a way to "finish" the story (happy ending) ... but as I said, I made a promise that I would get a job (but after getting rejected by everyone from McDonalds and 7-11 to walmart, it's hard to think it's possible anymore)
500849 it's not the stories, it's the thought that I touched people's lives in a positive way... and thanks, I really do need a reason to re-watch the movie (and all the episodes of MLPFIM again, but that should be a given)
500852
yes, yes i did ''got a problem''
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500854
oh.... sorry to hear that, my bad
500845
If that is your way of thinking, then there is no point in life after all. If you would just stay optimistic, at least once, those ideas would leave.
501044 that's what I said... well, let me rephrase:
If at any point in my life, you would ask me, "where do you want to be in five years?" I would always have a single thought whenever I first comprehend the question's meaning: "In the ground, five years rotting." But that has never stopped a smile from warming my heart and bring joy to anyone that would share laughter with me... Now that might sound contradicting, but the thing is that I don't look towards the future, or the past, I look at the here and now, and I try to understand it means and try to enjoy each and every second that we have. Our lives MIGHT be pointless, but that doesn't mean that we don't have an effect on other people. Whatever we do, affects everyone in the world, and I want to bring smiles to each and every one of their faces, not ones of laughter, but of genuine happiness...
But I guess it's hard to get the message I was intending from the anger that I have to spend more money and time for something I already have and spend a year and thousands of dollars getting...
Dafuq dude!! Life's meaning is only what you give it!! To even say suicide is an option even to allusion to that! What the hell! If you think your life is so terrible that tomorrow you won't be able to smile, or that nothing is worth living for then go ahead and kill yourself. But if you can find even one reason to keep living then guess what it's a reason to live. I've been down that road, it not an easy choice to make hell I'm only 17 and I've considered suicied at least a dozen times and I always found a reason to keep going. Money problems, no one likes you, your families falling apart, family death, I pushed through it all by myself. hell everyone on this site could probably relate, try to find one reason to live its hard but life is always worth living.
501204
Sweet Jesus no wonder I consider you a friend. That's how I always think and that's always been my reason for not following through. I think that someone out there would feel sad that I died maybe someone in my family(doubt it), a friend(maybe), but it's enough of a reason for me I hate to know that I am the cause of someone's suffering.
501501 I've been suicidal since I was 8 (at least that's the earliest I can remember anything since... nvmd that) but read the comment I made before yours (a mere 2 hours ago from this post) I treasure life because it is pointless, I smile and try to both understand everything that happens, and affect other people in a positive way...
anyway, I forgot where I was going with this... I'm off to watch the new episode of Bones from last night
501509 we don't live in a vacuum, everything we do affects everyone else, no matter how insignificantly... whenever someone dies, everyone is sad, no matter who that person was, someone will be sad... I will be sad, because I too think of you as a good friend, even if I do not know you personally
501533
thanks for that. Anyways take sometime for yourself and never forget I'm hear to listen. I feel like ending in a quote.
Glad it's not just me on both accounts. You just made me feel a little less wierd.
"I think therfore I am." René Descartes don't know why just put it up.
501568 and if I may say another quote... well better if I like him tell it himself
501657
that was an enlightening video was that the whole thing or an excerpt?
You just blew my mind.
501700 it was a video made from an interview of Neil deGrasse Tyson called "10 Questions for Neil deGrasse Tyson" by Time Magazine and this question is at 2:14 on the video link (let me know if the link is broken or whatever)
501826 it works perfectly even in my beat up no wifi phone.
Don't kill yourself think of how your family would feel.
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follow the conversation trail of me and "Bennet001" that includes the video entitled "the most astounding fact" because I think I explained this quite clearly... if not, I will try again