• Member Since 15th Aug, 2018
  • offline last seen February 15th

Saintkartano


I have an intense dislike of drive-thru ANYTHING.

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  • 8 weeks
    Despair.

    Despair, noun

    The overwhelming desire to vomit, after you spend thirty minutes trying to write a meaningful blog post to help free your mind and get your thoughts down ... only to accidentally close the FIM Fiction tab and lose the whole lot before you post it.

    See also: Control-eff-four syndrome.

    2 comments · 15 views
  • 17 weeks
    Compassion exhaustion.

    The title is self-explanatory.

    I have reached that point.

    https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Compassion_fatigue

    3 comments · 38 views
  • 25 weeks
    Bringing it all back home!

    I am going to have to bite the bullet and actually park my arse down tomorrow and do some writing.

    Read More

    2 comments · 68 views
  • 32 weeks
    Almost ready to return to writing.

    I have an appointment with a neurologist tomorrow. I have everything crossed that they can help me with my thus far treatment resistant depression, or perhaps find a closer diagnosis.

    To this end, I want to start writing again. I think I will need to wait until the kids are back in school for me to have the time to.

    But we shall see.
    .

    2 comments · 29 views
  • 33 weeks
    Slowly recovering.

    Thanks to friends (Hudson I am looking at you!) and with therapy and such ongoing, I am slowly working up my appetite to write once more.

    Read More

    12 comments · 64 views
Aug
26th
2019

Bringing it all back home! · 5:55am Aug 26th, 2019

I am going to have to bite the bullet and actually park my arse down tomorrow and do some writing.

It's been a very confusing few weeks. My mental health is at a stage where it is an issue, but it is controlled and I am not in danger of harming myself. Whilst I am still finding it very hard to locate employment, and I am still not able to sleep properly, I do know that I can at least get back to writing something. I have a feeling that doing so will help me feel better about the world in general.

I am still so hurt and so angry at myself for deleting my original FIM account. I had been enjoying working on the stories I had there so much, until that breakdown where I deleted my account altogether. That has made getting back into the saddle with any new story a very difficult thing to do! But, as a tool and as a source of enjoyment? I think it is well worth giving it another try.

I need to thank Hudson Hawk again, as always, for being such a wonderful friend and a great listener. So many of my FIM and my Discord friends have been far more empathetic to my mental health issues than any of my actual family have been. Certainly, far more so than any of my in-laws have been. I must get this story finished ... one way or another. It's not much of a story, and it doesn't amount to a great deal in the overall scheme of things? But I need this. It is not my opus ... but it is my therapy.

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Comments ( 2 )

I'm glad that you're on your way towards healing your wounds. They sure are deep but I'm sure that if you give them enough time, they most certainly will heal!

Hope I can talk to you when you're feeling a little bit better!

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