Bringing it all back home! · 5:55am Aug 26th, 2019
I am going to have to bite the bullet and actually park my arse down tomorrow and do some writing.
It's been a very confusing few weeks. My mental health is at a stage where it is an issue, but it is controlled and I am not in danger of harming myself. Whilst I am still finding it very hard to locate employment, and I am still not able to sleep properly, I do know that I can at least get back to writing something. I have a feeling that doing so will help me feel better about the world in general.
I am still so hurt and so angry at myself for deleting my original FIM account. I had been enjoying working on the stories I had there so much, until that breakdown where I deleted my account altogether. That has made getting back into the saddle with any new story a very difficult thing to do! But, as a tool and as a source of enjoyment? I think it is well worth giving it another try.
I need to thank Hudson Hawk again, as always, for being such a wonderful friend and a great listener. So many of my FIM and my Discord friends have been far more empathetic to my mental health issues than any of my actual family have been. Certainly, far more so than any of my in-laws have been. I must get this story finished ... one way or another. It's not much of a story, and it doesn't amount to a great deal in the overall scheme of things? But I need this. It is not my opus ... but it is my therapy.
I'm glad that you're on your way towards healing your wounds. They sure are deep but I'm sure that if you give them enough time, they most certainly will heal!
Hope I can talk to you when you're feeling a little bit better!
How did that go?