Going Through A "Serious" Deppression

I've been very absent lately, I know. But I'm going trough a hard time now.

I watched Avengers: Infinity War this Monday, and for anyone who hasn't seen it yet GET A DAMN BOX OF TISSUES THERE I SWEAR YOU'LL FUCKING NEED THEM, ALSO SOME WATER FOR AFTER THE MOVIE WHEN YOU HAVE CRIED ENOUGH TO COVER AMERICA WITH TEN FEET OF WATER.

Now, in the title, I put serious in quotes because it may seem like not the big deal, and really, I know, it's a movie, fictional characters, blablabla. But hey, I'm not the first one and I won't be the last one to feel so down for a movie, specially with a movie such as this. It really touched me, and I've spent this two days crying as some scenes replayed in my head.

But I'll come back soon, no need to worry about me

Now, I explain myself, because it may seen I'm not honoring this movie as much as it deserves.

Only those who have seen the movie must keep reading...

I fucking loved it, I swear. It was, by far, the best Marvel movie in the whole MCU and OH GOD how brilliant it all was. The reunions, the backstory, the action. It was all so damn good. I've been a Marvel fan for years, I've follow the whole MCU and most of those movies I've seen directly from the cinema.

Stephen Strange's talk with the fat guy whose name I can't remember at the beginning about sandwiches and money made my day. And then Bruce crashes in the stairs and all it's just

I liked how they all got divided and were fighting different battles at the same time, though it kinda disappointed me that Steve and Tony didn't meet again. I mean, I know, Civil War stuff and all, but at least the bitterness between them... This was the only thing missing for me.

Doctor Strange meeting Tony is just so hilarious. Those two are meant to be besties And then Peter Parker going to help and ending up in the middle of a universal war... He's adorable too, but kid, he told you go home. But heroes never go home. That's what they fucking do.

Loved Thor's interaction with the Guardians of the Galaxy, specially with Peter Quill and Gamora (fuck, he told you right you little piece of stubbornness). And Groot has grown up a lot and he's no longer so adorable as he used to be as baby, but oh well. He's still adorable though.

Skipping some stuff here, just mentioning some 'cause I'm supposed to be doing homework and I'm stealing homework time to write this. Anyway...

Wakanda's battle was so epic, I swear I got attached to this country faster than I did with all the other movies. T'challa easily became one of my favorite heroes, even though he isn't rightfully an Avenger, and I like a lot how he works with his country like he's the King but he considers himself as the protector and first line of defense of his people (we can see this in how he stranded in the front of the lines, no one to protect him specifically whatsoever, and fuck he's fast to get to the enemies). Talking about that battle, the moment Thor appeared with Groot and Rocket? Gave me chills. That's what Thor really is, he's the fucking God of Thunder and he must prove it. He ain't taking any sh*t.

But when everyone started dispapearing into dust I started crying like some widow (pun intended).

My first tears where at the beginning, with Heimdall's death. I got watery-eyed with Loki's too, he was trying to change, yeah... But Heimdall was different. He was a character very dear to me, I can't quite explain why, but I really liked his character and that connection he had with Thor (who calls him his best friend). He was a great man and didn't deserved to die.

Then came Gamora. That scene really killed me in the inside, it was so heartbreaking and tearjerking that I couldn't stand it. I almost didn't blinked. At first she was laughing because she thought Thanos had no way to get the Soul Stone, but once she realized that she was the way to get the Soul Stone, that she was the reason he would have it... It was clear in her face that she couldn't bring herself to do that, she didn't wanted him to win and she couldn't be believe she was he loved the most. She couldn't believe he could love. So when she tried to stab herself and the dagger becomes bubbles... You can see her breaking down and coming back to being a scared, little and lonely girl who doesn't wants to go. You see her fighting. You see her trying no to let him win... But he wins. And she dies knowing that thanks to her death, he's a step closer to ruining everything she loves. And that's why she had to go right.

Then came Vision. OH MY GOD VISION!!! Vision is my official favorite Avenger, though I'm team Cap, but that's besides the point. He not only died after days of being pursued, severely hurt and beaten to a pulp, but also he died by the hands of the woman he loved, the very woman he loved being a machine. And he asked her to do it. After days of begging her to kill him and her refusing, seeking for other option to protect the galaxy, she finally did. With all the pain of her heart and while at the same time fighting all by herself against Thanos (and putting up a fight for him, which was something the other Avengers couldn't do) she had to kill him, the man she loved. And he didn't just died like this, but after she falls defeated and crying after finally destroying the Mind Stone she has to see how Thanos makes time go back and brings Vision and the Stone back only to kill him again. Can you imagine her impotence? If the destiny of the whole galaxy depended on that you killed the very person you loved, how would you feel? Or letting the very person you love kill you? Only to see it being helpless? They are the best couple of the whole MCU, and Vision is way more human than many people I know.

And the everyone else. Bucky... Sam... T'challa... Wanda... Groot... Strange... To mention some... And Peter. Can you see it? Can you see, not SpiderMan the hero, but Peter Parker, the little boy fighting in an adult world, scared of going away? Scared of dying, of letting go? Holding onto Tony like he was everything, the only thing that could keep him in the world and helplessly failing to stay? And apologizing for it? I was crying, sobbing and wailing because of this. Tom Holland is such a good actor, he deserves a fucking Oscar for making this scene happen and flawlessly bringing to tears a whole theater despite it being impprovised.

And this, guys and girls, is why this movie was a real masterpiece.

Comments

[Sunshine dash]

Holy crap that's a lotta words....
The last blog I wrote was five sentences...

[Midday Giggle]

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That's what happens when I like something

[TheMareWhoSaysNi]

I've told you you'll probably be able to see it after all... Guess who was right?

Now, I admit I've started to read because, hey, I know I won't watch the movie... Problems: I don't know who half of the characters are
BUT I'm going to say this. Even though these are only fictional characters, we're often attached to them, whether it's a TV show, a series of movies or multicolor ponies... Which makes us involved in the story, in their stories so much that yeah, when something good or tragic happens to them, it impacts us! Especially, when we like to think about what we saw, and the meaning of what we saw. So, I understand you Really, I do!
(I remember I was so glad Joffrey Baratheon died in GoT that I've poured myself a drink to celebrate this )

Also... I felt relieved when I saw that you weren't "really" on a depression

[Midday Giggle]

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Yeah, yeah, you are always right Truth is I wrote this blog more for you to know I'm still alive, and why I haven't replied in days (sorry for that, I think I do that a lot lately).
I wasn't expecting you to understand But it's sweet you read it anyway
You have no idea how much this means to me

Oh, sorry for scaring you

[TheMareWhoSaysNi]

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Hey, don't worry Our mails are so long and are taking so much time to write that I completely understand that, with school and real life, it's difficult to reply as often as before

(Though it's really nice and I'm happy you did that )

[Midday Giggle]

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I know, girl. But I promise I'll get to it tomorrow, probably will be done with it Sunday or Saturday night.

(Hey, that's what friends are for )