Let me tell you a story (4/?) · 3:56am Apr 22nd, 2018
Ok, one of you said you wanted the long version.
This is...
Well, this is the extended short version
Finished undergrad (on the third try), actually published chapter 10 within a couple days of graduation
Had writer's block
Got VERY ANGRY at myself for having writer's block
Felt ULTRA ASHAMED for slipping my own internal goals for when 11 would go up
Got SO ANXIOUS AND DEPRESSED about the whole thing that even trying to re-read my earlier chapters would give me a FULL BLOWN PANIC ATTACK
(This probably had as much to do with being at home, alone, and unemployed as with the writing)
Drifted away from the fandom entirely
Stopped seeing my doctor
Got into grad school
Had a kid
Failed out of grad school
Was hospitalized for my anxiety and eating disorder
Got a good job
(2 years passed)
Reconnected with an old friend
Got caught up on episodes
Wrote a really embarrassing little slice of life story shipping an OC with Cheerilee (never published)
Got bit by the bug
Re-read my first 10 chapters for the first time in almost 6 years
Actually really liked them (god it hurts to type that because it makes me feel like an egomaniac to admit that I ACTUALLY LIKE ANYTHING I WROTE)
Started writing WSY again
Blogged about it to force myself to stay committed
Wrote 2600 words (and counting) on the chapter 11 draft
About to go write more
I'm not sure that there's a moral of the story but if there is, it's that having friends is neat and getting the help you need is nothing to be ashamed of.
Hashtag... something about fighting the stigma and maybe one of these ;
Wow without this post we'd never know the background story behind WSY. Glad you came back in the end, the fandom has changed a lot over the years but classics like WSY never grows old.
You shouldn't feel bad for liking what you have written. It is something that you worked hard on creating. You have the right to feel pride for what you have done.
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I know I shouldn't
The thing is, if I didn't, I wouldn't be this ball of emotions and damage that I then turned around and poured into Spitfire to make a story.
Gotta take the good with the bad, I guess?
UPDATE: 3200
Folks,
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that's almost as long as a chapter
Glad to see you back! Sorry to hear about some rough years