Ship Limbo

I've been noticing lately that I have a lot of similar themes in my fics. And no, I don't just mean depression and anxiety. But I have a lot of things happen that aren't typical for just friendshipping. People have expressed distaste for it. Very physical but not explicitly romantic as per word of God, the writer. Which is interesting to me, upon self-analysis. There's no reason at all why Rainbow and Pinkie aren't dating despite being wlw and having been casual sex partners in the past except I want Rainbow to end up with Spitfire and Pinkie to end up with (spoiler).
EDIT- fixed the formatting error.
There's no reason why Twilight and Pinkie aren't dating except I don't want them to so I made Pinkie's attraction to her be purely physical and nonromantic and explicitly stated by her. And Twilight and Rainbow Dash breaking up isn't for any reason other than forced manufactured drama despite their mutual romantic interest in each other so I can put them with the ships I want to have in the chronology. All three characters (and Applejack with Rainbow but only in certain circumstances, and Rarity and Sunset with each other) are very physically close to the point that an outside observer would assume they were in relationships with each other. They eventually become comfortable with mutual nudity in nonsexual environments, and cuddling: a factor a couple of commenters have questioned the realism of. But I myself personally have experienced these interactions: this is purely culture shock, projection on my part as an outlier in terms of sexual and romantic orientation conflicting with the majority of people on this site who are not lesbians or bisexual women. This isn't exactly a bad thing: I've seen more respect and allyship on this site than anywhere else, and part of it is because all the bronies who are still bronies are not the 4chan plotholes that have made life on the internet hell for us since 2011 but are in fact the ones who genuinely enjoy a cartoon that little girls also watch. Since the characters are 90% women, 80% of the ships are f/f so the culture here slowly morphed to that of being very gay-friendly. That's why I was so drawn to this fandom, and came back after briefly departing. The only thing is... a lot of writers are straight men, and as a former member of that demographic, I can say that straight men don't really know how girls (especially gay girls (or gay people in general)) interact with each other in real life. A lot of men do write amazing romance fics between two girls, so it isn't explicitly a gender related issue, but that is a factor. I've read a lot of fics that don't really make any sense and/or take part in a lot of really gross toxic heteronormative tropes (and also a lot are poorly edited or nonsensical in terms of plot but that's to be expected since we're all just amateurs here). And if my fics are going to be called out for being unrealistic to the audience, that makes no sense to me in an ocean of fics that make less sense. I'm not saying people have to like what I write, as everyone is entitled to their opinion, but the merits of realism I feel are unfair points to make. There's a lot of heavily queerplatonic interaction, yes, which isn't a term easily understood by people off of the aromantic spectrum, but as an arospec myself it makes sense to me. I'm writing these stories for myself, because it's fun and therapeutic, and if other people enjoy them, that's cool too. So if you're here and reading this and have questions about why it makes sense to me that the things that happen in my fics happen, just drop me a PM and ask. I know it can be a bit confusing to someone who isn't the least bit queer, and I understand that, and I don't want confusion to get in the way of enjoyment of what I publish (if anything I want the flaws in writing and literary theory and characterization and plot to get in the way so that people tell me what I'm messing up and how to make it better). But Twilight, Rainbow, and Pinkie all have zero romantic interaction with each other by the current point in the equestria girls chronology (whichi know is confusing because i'm writing at 5 different points in that chronology, but I mean at the furthest written point) despite their comfort with nudity and affection and saying platonic "I love you"s around and to each other, and even though that's not normal to some people, it is very normal to others. Especially since we're talking about colorful-skinned human counterparts in a magic mirror dimension parallel to one full of magical talking horses. Since we're in a culture that's entirely different from our own, and I'm bringing things from my own subculture into the fics, I think unrealism isn't a fair criticism to make. Being overly dry or undersaturated with details or using stale terms because I don't know how to use a thesaurus or using weird terms because I am a walking thesaurus [WHAT ARE YOU, A DICTIONARY?] or suggesting that a group of young teenagers had access to hundreds of dollars worth of alcohol and snacks (although even that is explainable because of economics-based hand-waving because I enforce anarchosocialist ideology through my fics) or not understanding how software engineering on blogs works or using tired tropes or not updating often enough, now THOSE are VERY FAIR CRITICISMS that I appreciate and can use to improve myself. Please roast me on the tenets of my writing ability itself, rather than the realism of the events (especially when they're one third projection one third idealism and one third maladaptive daydreaming), unless I dip into Mary Sue isms or something. I mean you can do it anyway but it won't do much because I'll still write about the situations. And any comment is better than no comment because no comments and no thumbs-ups are a huge motivation killer that drive me to play starcraft instead of write more for anything... but still. It's just a little something that's irked me for a while. Instead of getting mad though, I'm explaining it's mild culture shock, no big deal.

As for the fics, I've hit a solid wall for stupid girl, tfw nudes, milkshake, all of my equestria girls fics actually, and everything else hasn't gotten any attention. The only thing I have any motivation for keeping on is the tower of harmony, which is coming along VERY NICELY if I do say so myself. Once I finish the palate cleanse I should get back to my more-paid-attention to fics soon enough.