The Way Forward (Short Rambling Blog On Things to Come) · 10:02pm Jan 29th, 2018
"Hey, Cracker, how was the teaching job?"
Well, Pinkie...
I'd rather bring to attention something else. Or rather confront it. See, I have this weird habit that y'all don't know about because it concerns me leaving. I don't usually say goodbye to stuff, or people. When I changed schools, nobody in my class got to say goodbye to me. And good riddance, they were jerks. When I left my older fanfics to obscurity or perpetual hiatus, there were no author updates on the matter, I just deleted them.
Right now, my real life friends simply haven't heard from me in a while. A long while. Been meaning to contact them again, but... wouldn't know what to say or do, you know.
Bottom line: I tend to fade away from things. I don't get too attached, I like my freedom like that. And given what I've seen in the fandom at large, that's probably a good thing.
I don't want to fade away from this fandom, though. There are people here who I may be out of touch with in general, but who know me at least in part and whose opinions I respect and whose tastes I like to cater to. That's one side of it.
The other side of it is this: I still haven't seen anything of Season 7, besides the big spoilers of pretty much everything. I've still got this feeling at the back of my mind that I should enjoy it with family, or watch it on TV (which means waiting for said family to leave for long enough). I'm going to have to force myself to watch it as is, though, on the laptop. There's a negative vibe to it I can't quite pinpoint. I don't think I was ever 'part' of the community. I was never that active, I didn't set any trend worth noting, I'm certainly not horse famous. Nothing would be lost if I left, for either side. Yet somehow, this is a good chunk of the social contact I get. It's just strange to consider, is all.
Anyway, productivity-wise. As said earlier, I've been considering what to do in Blender and Inkscape. My current thought process is this: make separate accounts for the professional-grade stuff, and keep all associations with any fandom strictly under wraps. I'm not ashamed for anything I've written, not really, but some of the stories would get a man in trouble if they can be linked to a name and face. I'm talking mainly about art for the accounts, though. On one hand, I'd like to get my audience here to see what else I can do, and show off material from other franchises, or even my own. On the other hand, I want my anonimity, and not have to fight the political zealots that are taking over online spaces on every single website I'm part of. I don't want Corona and Riley to be linked with Rainbow Dash and Tender Taps.
Basically, I don't want real life to learn about the clopfics, as popular as they may be. Heck, the regular fics are hard enough to explain. "What did you write about?" -"Two lesbians adopting a ten-year-old vampire. Surprisingly big hit, turns out."
So I'll probably not be putting original works on my DA account, but making a more anonymous account for any random ideas I get. And I'll try to keep the original and fanfic material more separate, as much as I don't want to. I do, however, want to branch out my fanfic roster, and have thought up a skeleton for a nice little Niko story. It's a smaller fandom, I think they'll appreciate it, you might like it too once it's finished. No due date, though, and I still need to start on that clopfic parody first.
Next chapter of Sisterhooves is pretty much done, just needs tweaking near the final scene. It's a little more talky, though, and dramatic. I'll make it more light-hearted where I can, expect it up by next week, at the latest.
I don't know, I'll probably regret posting this later, issue a withdrawal or something. Things are getting weird, man.
All this is assuming I'll even have time to do artsy stuff at all...
Cracker out.
I understand what you mean about not saying goodbye. It's a sad thought though. I'm glad that you're making an effort to remain connected in some way to the fandom here, even if you do have to make the (entirely sensible) move of segregating that part of your online presence from your public persona.
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Yeah. Part of it is because of the mess with these new personal digital assistants and now the story about a fitness app putting military secrets up for grabs. 1984 happening doesn't require a tyrant or even a government putting enslavement technology into everyone's homes. All you need to do is package it up nicely and put a brand name on it and people invite it themselves. It's worrying, is all.
I guess the other part of it is the identity thing. I'm not sure what my identity is now. It's been school for most of my life, then it was hobbies, then these past three weeks it was work. All of it can be gone in an instant. That should be a good thing, that freedom, but it ends up being hollow and meaningless. I'm not gaining anything from it now that I have it. Maybe more practice, more stuff actually done would help, but who knows?
Anyway, yes, I do intend to stay connected to the fandom in one way or another. I like it, for the most part. Just gotta keep writing and publishing, and see about drawing and maybe animating in the future.