• Member Since 3rd Jan, 2017
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CocoaPone


Formerly North Winds

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  • 13 weeks
    Clinic

    Last week I had ended up in the mental clinic for about 3 days. I was given a lot of medication which seem to help to some extent. Ever since then I've been feeling very odd, very emotionally unstable. There's a lot of people watching over me currently, people from the clinic, people from my university, getting lots of calls and constant check ups on how I'm doing. It all seems like a lot of

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  • 19 weeks
    Another year

    So far this year has started off like any other, massive seasonal depression with me sleeping away the days in my room. I wish I didn't live alone, or at least had some close friends to hang out with in person. A lot of things are messing with my head, it's hard to tell what I really need. I found myself turning to alcohol and weed more frequently despite how much I hate the substances. I just

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  • 28 weeks
    Depression

    it's 5 in the morning, I woke up 3 hours ago after passing out the entire afternoon after classes. I missed an assignment that was due at midnight today, oh well.

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  • 41 weeks
    Another end

    It's been nearly a year since I've last posted on here, and looking back it's surprising that I've been doing this since late 2017. I always come here to post the extreme highs and lows of my life, it helps me release all the things held up in me and also reminds me of these feelings I've experienced and how far I've come.

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  • 93 weeks
    Moving on

    I have once again reached the end of a relationship. He had asked me to simply be friends until we could meet in person to try again, but I can't see that ever happening. It's once again time for me to move forward in life, improving myself and my skills preparing for the next couple years. I do hope one day I can love but for now they all seem to end the same way, but then again I've never dated

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Dec
31st
2017

Updates · 6:03am Dec 31st, 2017

So right now ive been working a bit more on "The White Pony" as of now I am writing chapter 3, it has one interesting event that goes on I guess xD Then afterwards I have more to do, im going to possibly make chapters around 2k - 3k words long, but we'll see. Writing this story and keeping it consistent is somewhat easy as I just have to maintain the same thought process, and I still have plenty of ideas to be used, it should be going on for a while, I am really hoping on finishing it before the end of 2018. But besides all that ive been working a bit more on my self confidence, new years I hope can be a point where I can reset everything and try again new, I figured as long as I can be myself, and not look into any mirrors for a few months, I should be fine. Currently im in bed writing this, pretty stressed about tomorrow, being the first time I stepped foot out of the house in over a week I believe, really not looking forward to meeting people >~< but thats it for now I guess, going to work a bit more on chapter 3 before bed...

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