Visiting the parents... · 8:33pm Oct 5th, 2017
And trust me, that's not a good thing. I do these visits out of obligation, and sometimes we do fun things together, but man - there are things they can say that make the stays pretty unpleasant.
Want an example? I know how (allegedly) they support greater social awareness of the physically, mentally and emotionally impaired. So I figured that something I could use as a conversational opener for mom to pick up on was Hellblade: Senua's Sacrifice. Remember that game? The one that tried to accurately depict what was (possibly, most likely) paranoid schizophrenia in a respectful manner and which incorporates it into the game's narrative as a core element, rather than just a one-off appeal tactic?
This game.
So I start to go into how they talked with psychologists and patients about the subject matter, and she interrupts me with:
"So this game's gonna make kids hear voices in their head, then? It's gonna make them think they're crazy and start making shit up about how they're supposed to be insane and hearing voices in their head?"
I'm not joking. I assumed she was, of course, so i try to brush it aside like she was saying something goofy and continue. Then she interrupts me again:
"Isn't that what video games do these days? They're supposed to make people feel some way, day after day, until they start wanting to be violent shooters or axe murderers or beat-'em-uppers or now crazy people?"
Imagine this is the face that i made while I took the opportunity to look away from her and wait for her to finish ranting. Because, of course, I obviously can't tell a family member how much of an absolutely hypocritical and judgmental asshole they are/were being, and the only thing I can do in situations like these is shut up and wait for them to finish.
That's not even the worst thing she's said in under 24 hours of my being around. But I'm not going to repeat her comments about the Las Vegas situation in a blog, because jesus fuck my mother is a terrible human being and you guys don't want to hear about it.
Anyways, the pertinent point i want to get at is that my writing output will be a little delayed. I should be back home by around friday evening, at which point i should resume a fairly normal writing schedule. I really do want to get on a regimented schedule for publishing chapters of Steel., but I have less control over my ability to do that for the next couple of days.
Sorry about that, and hope you guys have a pretty good night.
-Petrichord
......."Jason Derulo"?
~Skeeter The Lurker
the blog felt incomplete without a tag referencing a random music artist. It's sort of emotional catharsis, i guess: "okay, i got this thing out of my system, here's a little signifier that i'm gonna be a lil' more chill." And what better way to represent being temporarily drained of negative feelings then with a random tag?
The fact that Derulo's name is silly and that his music tends to be silly/awful/both doesn't hurt.
I’m sorry your parents stink.
I wish you luck living long enough to be able to cut them out of your life permanently. I also applaud for being so useless that you managed to turn into a good human being.