Sep
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Don't Know Why, But Not Feeling Good Right Now. · 6:49pm Sep 26th, 2017
I'm not exactly sure why, but I've been depressed for the last 5 days. I don't know how or why it started, but I've just been feeling like shit for a while. It also doesn't help that some of my close friends aren't online as much, but I know it's not their faults, and I'm in no way trying to pin the blame on them at all. My internet's been on a really weird spot right now, so I'm using my phone to write this.
I normally don't post blogs like this, but I felt it was something I needed to get off my chest. And for those who are waiting for new chapters on Eclipsing Ponyville, I'm sorry but I don't know when I'll be able to update it, but I promise I will eventually. Hope everyone's having a better day than me right now. See you guys later.
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SolarEclipse912 · 386 views
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You know, I have a friend going through the same thing. His friends we're leaving him because he was "too depressed" and when he opened up, he was pushed aside.
It all came to a head one dendrology class after we learned about higy toxic berries. He, in front of the class and teacher, was crying and tried to eat them to kill himself.
Our teacher, thank God, managed to get them out and we called 911 and I watched as he went to the hospital....
He is getting g better, but he's not quite the same
4679339
Damn, that’s rough.
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The worst part....the very worst part....was him doing any generous act for his friends so they would remain his friends after he was constantly reliving horrible memories of systematic emotional and physical abuse at middle school....
And they disposed of him like garbage....they did more damage to him than Discord at his worst could ever do...
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That’s not how true friends behave to others. Hell, if I had that happen to me, I’d probably be just as distraught as him.
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Yeah. He still has days and periods like you're going through where he is..,"down"
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I bet. I go through this sometimes. It’s not really that big of a deal, but I feel especially down this time. Not quite to suicidal levels, but more like “I just want to stay home and be left alone while listening to sad music” kind of thing.
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He...now has self confidence problems along with severe insecurities...he....he doesn't go outside a lot anymore
I am sorry that you are having a hard time. I am always here if you need someone to talk to. Feel free to send me a message any time. I hope that things will go better for you soon. Many hugs and snuggles to you.
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Thanks. I feel like I might need it.
4679493 I will give you all of the hugs and snuggles you need. Feel better soon, my friend.
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Thanks. I’m sure I will. I go through little moments of depression sometimes, but this one is especially bad.
4679510 I have depression so I know how that is. Hang in there. You will get through it soon.
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Yeah, it sucks. I usually am, but some of my friends aren’t around as much as they used to. Some of them moved away, one joined the army, and some of them are in college right now.
4679514 It is always tough when your friends aren't around as much as they used to be. But on the bright side, it does open up the door to make new friends. :) Because of my social anxiety and agoraphobia (along with some other emotional, physical, and mental disorders that I have) I can't really be around people for a long time without hyperventilating, feeling anxious, or passing out or something. So I really don't have any friends who are not online. I am grateful for all of the people I have met on here, since I'm not really able to interact with people or have close friends in real life.
Try to focus on the people in your life who care about you, whether they are people who you know online or in real life. And don't be scared to go out there and meet new people as well. :) Don't let a situation limit you. Take control of that situation and make the best of it, That's definitely what I have done with my emotional, physical, and mental disorders. :)
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Sorry you've been feeling down. Hope things turn around and you start to feel better again.
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My friend hasn't. I'm close to him, so it hurts me seeing him like that
Oh, sorry, that was supposed to be two part comment and somehow I got it backwards and completely didn't post the second part at all.
The first part was supposed to be me hoping Solar would feel better soon.
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I'm hoping your friend feels better too, but I had meant to comment on how I was glad they were able to keep your friend safe and was hoping that he's able to get the help he needs. I know that that kind of depression does not have a quick turnaround and I'm just glad he wasn't perma hurt by it.
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But... apparently they weren't real friends
I get you. I have had some helth issues for overworking and yet i can't stop because here's a huge amount of work and sadly i havent been able to update my story.