A New User Name / Update · 3:01am Aug 13th, 2017
Oh boy... I've done it now. I've.. gulp Changed! My! Username!
Why the change in Username, you ask? An answer cannot be so easily ascribed, unfortunately. I've been quite on the fence for this for quite a while now for a multitude of reasons.
For the last two months that I've been hanging around the Reviewer Café discord chat, I have taken on the feminine honorifics/pronouns.. (She instead of he, Mrs. instead of Mr.) The reason for that development lies with a certain individual who has recently encouraged me to explore myself more, to learn all that I am so that I may fully live an enriching life. A part of that was in exploring a side of myself that I had locked away for more than a decade.
What 'side' of myself, you may ask? Given the context of this blog, you might have already deduced what I am talking about. Transgenderism.
When these feelings first started to develop, I remember being very confused about it. I didn't understand what they meant. I guess a lot of people who experience this would say the same thing. It can be a naturally confusing thing to suddenly wake up to.
The first thing I tried was telling some friends about it...who proceeded to beg to take me out around town dressed as a girl. I clearly wasn't ready for this, and I had received a traumatic experience for it in the form of strangers who wanted to inflict bodily harm on me. Suffice it to say, I ran a few red lights speeding away to get away from them (I did feel my life was in danger, after all).
It is because of that traumatic experience that I, mostly, locked the feelings away inside of me. I didn't understand them anyways, and they only brought me emotional harm (and potentially physical harm if those mean people ever managed to get their hands on me).
Recently, however, I have felt more comfortable in exploring this side of me, and so I tried it. And it felt nice to be called a girl, to think of myself as a girl, to be a girl. All the tension that has slowly been building up inside me all these years was being finally being released.
I'd like to point out now that this was one of the other reasons that I didn't want to go into detail about in a previous blog. The main reason for this was that I wasn't sure whether or not to implement this change here on Fimfiction. On the one hand, this username feels comes more natural to me than 'Chill Dude' ever did. On the other hand, I didn't want to suddenly spring this on you guys with these name changes, in case I ever decided to go back.
I've been debating this name change for about a month now, and I have finally decided. I will keep this name. I hope you all do not mind the name change.
In other news, the scheduling of my next story has been postponed a little while on the account of this past week's endeavors. I have released a total of five reviews in the Reviewer Café, which took most of my free time away from writing this next story. However, I am jumping right on that as soon as I finish this blog, and I'll fly through the rough draft to send to my proofreaders.
Huh. Welp, what works best for you is what's best. Good luck with it. *tips hat* Good on you for giving it a go though. Better to try and know than be left wondering. Hope it works out for you, whatever you end up deciding on.
I stand by your decision. It's your life. More healthful that you live what you want than to live a lie. Of course, you sound like you have some exploring to do, which is natural.
I cannot for the life of me remember what you previous name was. Can you tell me please?
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It was "Chilled Dude"
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EclipseSight is correct. My previous username was 'The Chill Dude'
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Gah, I knew I wasn't quite correct but it was as close as I remembered. Oh well, it's a better showing for my memory than the norm.
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To be fair, I probably should have inserted it in there somewhere for clarity sake. I quite like this new look though. I feel it suits me better.
Oh? made the change on here finally? Congrats. What's your man think of it?
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Of the whole situation or of my changing my username?
He's known of the situation for a while now, of course, but there isn't much we are actually planning on doing about it right away. We're doing baby steps in that regard.
As for the change in username, he has no idea I did it yet. I don't think he will mind, or even be surprised, when he comes on to see it, though.
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Oh... Well now i know who you are. Here I was thinking 'who the heck are you, and why am I following you?'
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It was either because we had something in common or you liked my responses and I seemed like an interesting person to you.
I remember us talking in TheMajorTechie's blog about evolution or breeding.
"Princess Amore Dudette" I love it! Ooh new profile picture too (I don't know how long you've had it for, I haven't been on FimFiction as frequantly as I used to, but it's the first time I've noticed it, so I presume it's new)... It's still PinkiePie! Pinkie fan? Well, looks awesome!
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I only changed it a few hours ago. Yes, I am Pinkie fan.
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oh, now that i know your name, i know exactly why. you followed me "for my love of video games"
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I thought it was new. Well, it's cool, I like it.
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Aha! Yes. A true gamer.
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This whole thing is still new to me, and I love it!
Good on you, Amore. Be you. And like I said on Discord, those who tried to inflict harm on you need some serious punchening.
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Well if you love it then that's wonderful, and that's also the most important thing, that you do love it.
Glad it's working out for you.
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Thank you all for all your support. I love you all, my friends. I wish there was a more adequate way to express it through this medium, but words simply escape me as to how much I cherish each and every one of you.
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Hehehe, no problem. Like I said, you do you and it'll all be fine. Things tend to work out better if you're being yourself. It might be a rocky, meandering road but your self will end up where it needs to be. Can't change the steps you've taken, can't predict the steps you'll end up taking but you can control the steps you're taking. Good luck! When did I get so preachy? Ugh... Lol. Sorry, got away from myself.
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It's no problem, it's what friends do. I hope it all works out for you, but even if for whatever reason it doesn't work out at least you gave it a go. And I'm sure you'll still have all of us here to support you no matter what. ... Let's just hope it does work out for you though, and love doing what you're doing. Boop.