Coming up for air. · 6:09am Jul 19th, 2017
Technically, I wrote this post three days ago... then found out the internet ate it.
First off, It's not July. Therfore I may now deny the fact I am now older and under terms behind yet again in life. I'll ignore it, and continue to be the old age. Everyone good with that?
Alright, I'll admit It's late, I've had a hard day, trippled my step count, packed, unpacked, cleaned... chased a mouse through the feed barn again... Yep, I've got a rain cloud yet again.
Been working on finding next year's ideas for school... work... and everything else. Plus got paperwork in the mail for some of my studies.
Work... My only option for a job is not an option. And after a year of trying to learn something else... My grammer, and spelling is still in the ditch so that's out of the window. But I did study transcribing. Unfortunately I can't get an A at it, so... no job. But maybe with more practice... and a decent class... I might- who am I kidding. I'm dyslexic... I'm as far as I can get.
Writing... I've started trying again. Begun... Just I'm not a kid anymore. I've got real life now... I'll get back into it, but chapters are not ever going to be on a clock. It's not a priority.
Currently I'm working on helping Mom do a mad dash to pack up the kids for two weeks of camp, then rush through writing up five seperate lesson plans. (Probably should do my own while I'm at it.) I'm not going to be in 'real' college. Not that I care. I've managed school this far from home, why should I spend tens of tousands of dollers to look up what I can get from a library, post on my blog, and watch on YT. College is just a really expensive way to find a partner. Seriously. Might eventually go for the higher stuff, but right now, I can study at home, then clep my way through at the local college.
Job... Another HUGE thing on my mind. 100$ a month has given me a very comfortable life to this point. But... I really want a house of my own. It's not going to cut it. I wish I could find a factory job, or something that's janitorial. But I... failed my first job way back at 16. They pushed too hard, I couldnt' handle school, 40 hours there, plus running a full farm. Not while healing from a BAD head injury. (I'm still having memory issues) And besides... I really hate costomers. REALLY hate dealing with costomers. And LONG lines. Too much energy in the air. It's overwhelming. But the only job I can get is Micky D's... And that's only because my Dad's a manager. Really would prefer Janitor or something like that. Just... can I not be noticed?
Just thinking out loud.
I'm beginning to pull myself together. Beginning to talk to people again... but sorting through my mind... I'm an introvert, and if I spend all my energy on keeping everyone happy, I'll only crash and burn again.
Well, I've got work to do.
Night guys.
Good to hear from you again, VK. I wish you luck in your endeavors.
Just persevere. Put one foot in front of the other.
We'll be here.
Keep on keeping on