These feelings · 2:40am Mar 10th, 2017
Well then...this song struck hard at me more so then I expected. I kind of realized after listening to this that I seem to lack something valuable. Motivation and determination to finish a job no matter the challenge. Recently I've become content with my life despite it all going down hill, I feel like everything is normal and nothing is wrong despite that my chances for any college have been destroyed as of now. I don't feel anything from this which may seem odd, really I can't seem to muster up the energy to care at all. Throughout this entire week I've been forced to run to school which is 3 miles away from my house every single day because I couldn't find the motivation to get out of bed in time. I don't exactly have a car, so don't ask why I ran instead of drove. I'm not really confident as a driver anyways and feel it'll only end terribly anyways. I wonder sometimes why I don't feel anything from failing and losing things constantly. My mother has remarried as well behind my fathers back after they were divorced recently and now have 5 sisters, so that's something...yet for some reason I'm not angry at all or distraught. It confuses me and that scares me
