Considering Leaving the Site · 4:27am Feb 9th, 2017

Yeah. It's this again.

I'll be completely honest in this one. But please bear with me this time.

I don't like ponies that much anymore.

Neither any fanfiction related to them.

Authors that I've absolutely loved reading from have left the site, no longer post, or have cancelled every story they have written. Only thing that's keeping me locked into this fandom is its artworks (regardless of the type) which astonish me every single time.

My want of writing new fics is at zero already, same goes with drawing. There's no inspiration left anymore, I don't find motivation in anything related to this site or ponies. I'm two years in college now and I barely have time to write/draw or even appreciate a lengthy story. I'm halfway my career and I'm bombarded with a huge assortment of things to do, which that'll up with getting a job in the future. I'm very sure the main reason I'm still lurking around here is for the shitposts dumb people provide from time to time. It's always hilarious to watch how some people lie about their lives, create a new persona on this site, and have their followers constantly fed up to the brim with how their life is oh so different and unique compared to what they are in real life.(*) It's also infuriating and disgusting how low a site like this has become.

(*) - Creating a character to play as and pretend to be someone else is entirely fine when your followers know the true you. This shit passes the line when it's people who outright lie about who they are and actively try their best at garnering attention to continue their 'whoring' crusade as I call it.

I joined this site on August 5, 2012. It's going to be nearly five whole years already. I only have one question lingering in my head right now: What the fuck has happened to this place? All I see now is stupid and nonsensical one-shots getting featured to and fro, badly written porn (See this blog) getting featured as well, a fuck ton of circlejerks aimed to give attention to a single individual, people repeatedly complaining about how bad their lives are (this coming from people who have a home, family, education. You get the idea, right?), people arguing about religion and politics, groups dedicated to promote fanservice in the fandom, and you know I can go with this the entire night.

This is not the same site as it was several years ago. I do understand that every day more and more people join this place, therefore creating more variety in the entire userbase. But this shit has gotten ridiculous up to the point that this site can be safely considered as a tumor conceived by Tumblr and BuzzFeed. It's like everyone and their goddamn white basic bitch girl friends started to join this place just to cause turmoil and create a huge 'blackhole' to divert all attention to them. Yes, I know it sounds like I'm some kind of loser who never had attention when they were smaller, but you can't deny what has been going on recently in this place.

The people I talk to the most right now are the people that I've been friends with for over a year by now -- so leaving this place wouldn't cause me to lose friendships, seeing as the people whom I care for deeply are added in my social media accounts, so that counts as a plus I suppose. This site was a love/hate relationship for me, I'll explain why.

This site fixed my life. I used to be an incredible whiny motherfucker when it came to everything. I used to be a quiet and reserved person, very rarely posting about what underwent in my life. There was a night four years ago though, when I posted a thread in an anti-depression forum and the replies I got overwhelmed me. It changed the way I saw things and actually convinced me to stop whining, suck it up, and actually try to fix my life. Four years later, I'm now graduated from a bilingual school, enrolled in a private university (two years in already), and have met oh so wonderful people in my life. That's the most credit I can give this place.

It's also become the place where I've seen so many people come and go. So many great authors abruptly leaving the site for no reason, so many mates leaving and shutting down contact with everyone, so many friends distancing away. So many moments left buried and so many memories that were once shared together -- all now forgotten in the loop we call time. This is a disgrace upon me, not keeping up with people I looked up to and were once inspirations to me.. I guess it's too late for that, huh?

Right now I'm stuck in thought. I want to leave this thing called Fimfiction behind, I don't want to partake anymore in it. It's become sickening to see how this site has been changing for all this time.

And for the worst.

If I stop posting or appear as banned after this blog, then consider me done with this place. If not well, that's unfortunate. I've got my Steam handle in my user bio in case you feel you want to shoot me up, it's the social platform I use the most these days.

You'll see you're all you needed.