Something Happened Today... · 7:27pm Oct 16th, 2016
So I slept in this morning, waking up at 10:54 AM and checked Facebook, one of my best internet friends messaged me to talk. He always gives me uplifting feelings, so I was eager to let him talk to me. Why in the world does life do this to people?
I had no idea that the "wanting to talk" would be ending a friendship. It really took me off guard. I liked this person so much that we had planned for me to share a house with him and his significant other for at least a short time. Now that he doesn't want to be friends with me, it all just seems so pointless.
I'm getting some suicidal thoughts right now. Don't get me wrong, I'm not going to do it, but it scares me that they're back. Though I'm more afraid of all the negativity in my life. It's possible to actually die of depression. It happened to an actor named Heath Ledger due to his role in Batman: The Dark Knight.
It might seem ridiculous, but that's honestly scaring me. I'm really bothered by that possibility. And at the moment I just really need help. I have a possibility for living arrangements where I'll be accepted, it seems, and I love the person providing them like a sister. But I still need help with keeping going on.
I might take longer to write, but I'll still get things published. Often times, the stories I write take a toll, especially when I'm depressed. And I would write more cheerful stories, but mine like that to me tend to seem way less inspired. I'm sorry if I've bummed any of you out, but things are really rough right now.