) trip, and today, I return to you... older... 
), I am going abroad in less than 24 hrs Really important for me. · 9:23pm Nov 9th, 2015
okay so... I really need to talk to some ponies about stuff...
I will devide this blog in a few categories, since it's probably gonna be real long. You can just read out what appeals to you.
If you and me rarely talk/never talk/talked once:
I am a shy pon. I am trying my best to chat with every one of my followers, but really-it's an impossible mission. If you want to talk with me, don't be shy-just message me. I am the one who is always scared to message somepony, fearing that they may not like me or I may be bothering them. But there is literally nopony out there yet whom I did not like talking to 
. I adore talking to awesome pons here, so really-do not hesitate, cuz for all you know-I may be the one who is scared to message you because of my insecurities or fear of your rejection (tbh... that happens a lot... from all of the ponies from my followers - I do not fear to message just 2 ponies. 2!!! Yep, not more, not less. 2.) 
If you and I used to talk, but do not anymore/do not for the past few days/weeks/months:
most likely, I am scared to message you, cause I think that you don't like me/don't like talking to me/are too busy to talk with a pon like me. I rarely message first after talking to somepony once or twice. almost all of you ended up being followed by me/following me after one day I out of a blue messaged you with a topic "just a random pony". After that dayy, I rarely message first, as I have that thing that always makes me feel like I was bothering you back then and you would be irritated if I messaged again. That's why I may want to message you reall badly, but I would be scared to do so... 
If you and I talk daily/once a few days:
We may stop. Yeah, we may, as I will still be feeling like I am bothering you, no matter how much we talk. For now, I feel like I am not that big of a bother to only 2 ponies, and really... sometimes I even think that I am a bother to one of them as well with my personality n all...
So if I do not text you for a few days-please do not think that I am trying to cut ties with you. I am just probably worried that I bored you outta your mind, and I am probably giving you some rest from me... I just really do not want to be a bother to anypony... 
For everypony:
If I do not message you, it is because:
a)I am scared that I am a bother for you
b)I am scared that you got bored of me
c)I feel like you see me as a child, who can not be talked to seriously
d)I am really busy/talking to suicidal people/talking to depressed people. And that takes up time and energy, trust me...
e)I am dealing with personal stuff/emotional stuff myself, and I am probably away from FIM, coming online just to check if somepony asked for help/needs to be talked to (suicidal/depression reasons)
That was part 1 of the Blog. here comes part 2.
OK, as some of you know, I am an overly emotional pon. For some ponies, this may be weird to hear, but yes, I am. I take things way too seriously, but I cannot help it. My overemotionality was even described as a sickness 
Therefore do not be surprised if after writing a sad blog/comment, you may receive a message from me asking what's wrong and if you need a company.
Not many of you know, but I never make up any drama blogs, this one is actually my first, and I hope that my last. Yes, I do consider this blog to be attention seeking, and I hate myself for making it, but there is just some stuff that I need to say.
Drama is not for me. Whenever I feel bad/sad, I leave FIM. for hours/days/weeks. And just like I leave-I return quietly, that's why I sometimes am offline for days, or jump in for a few minutes a day (again-I do it to check up if anypony needs any serious help (suicide/depression)).
This is an important part. The part written in spoiler tab is kinda dramatic and attention seeking, as it is really personal. So you may want to skip it. I put it up here only for some people who I will mention in a second, I think they will know that I mean them
I never open up to anypony, therefore the part in spoilertab is considered personal for me. Yet it is kinda attention seeking so you decide yourself if you want to read it.
for the past few weeks things are not easy for me. I always try to look at it positively and not to whine, but fine, it's been a living torture. I've been busy as hell. I have no time to do what I want, even writing this blog is taking away the time that I do not have. what's more, I have had some serious problems. Because of that, I was not able to talk to almost with anypony for the last few weeks, maybe a month or so. PLEASE do not take it personally. just cause I had not messaged you does not mean I'm cutting the ties. If you feel like talking to me-just message me. I am just so damn busy and tired, I am forgetting to message you, and the other days-I just do not have the stable emotions to talk with you or energy at all. If I had offended you, by "ignoring" your messages, I am very sorry, it was not on purpuse... for the past few weeks I've been talking normally with ... 3 ponies or so. So it's not just you... I have no time and no psychological energy for it, I'm sorry...
this part is in more detail. it's attention seeking and all wrong, really personal, so you can skip it if you don't feel the need for the drama
okay so... If you are reading this, you are probably one of those who used to talk a lot to me and got offended on me for me stopping replying to you. I am sorry. But really, I just freaking can't handle it anymore! I have important exams this year. The studies are so hard and there is so much of them, that there were nights when I did not go to bed at all on the workdays, doing the projects and homework. What's more, I am always looking for depressed ponies on this site and trying to help them out. That's just my thing I guess. that takes the life out of a pon too. Especially if 3-4 ponies text you in 1 day saying that they are planing a suicide. that is hard, alright? I cannot message ponies back when I see somepony this depressed and in need of help. There is also a personal life matter. I've been dealing with a lot of emotional stuff myself. one of the closest people I have lives in another country, so I have no ways on getting to them... The person messaged me saying that she got raped. yes. raped. That same day, her boyfriend (she is literally obsessed with the dude) dumped her, saying that it's considered being unloyal. She got shattered. Some more bad luck happened that same day and she lost everything she cared for, so she said she was gonna die. Imagine knowing that one of your closest people is gonna die, and you know that you can't talk him/her outta it, and are too far away to stop him/her, so you just sit there, talking to him/her, making no progress at all. day after day. night after night. Sleeping 2-4 hrs a day cause of the things you gotta do and talking to a person.
then, 3 of my other close friends got depressed. yeah, it's not as hard as talking to a person who is literally telling you every step of his suicide plan, but it is still a torture to see a person like that, talk to them, listen to their depressive thoughts.
On top of that, I had a really important project that I had to go on a trip with to another country for 3 days (just got back today). It took me 4 whole days to make it.
and, as almost non of you know, cuz again – I do not say out loud things that may upset people or make them worry for me-I have health problems. My blood is so poor that it’s orange. The doctors say that I can be walking/sitting/laying around and just faint out of blue-it’s that bad and weak. Because of this I always feel tired, and I need extra sleep. The less I sleep-the worse it gets. And… as I mentioned before-for the past few weeks, I was not getting too much of sleep. Sure, there were those lucky days when I could sleep 5-6 or twice even 7 hours, but what ain’t what you can call “extra hours” … not to mention that I myself have those days when I feel down, when everything seems pointless, and if on a day like this something else comes up-it becomes a torture…
people, I am just worn out… physically and emotionally. This is the first time I admit it publically , and I hope that last. I admit it for a reason.
The reason I said all that, and the reason for me making this blog is this: some of you have messaged me saying that it hurts them that I am cutting ties with them, that I am ignoring them, saying that I’m not their friend anymore, as I am not talking to them for days or weeks. I am not trying to loose anyone! I wub you all and it really hurts to see you thinking this way. Some also said that I hurt them by doing so…
I wanted to be on this site so I could help the people in need with their emotional problems and make some cool friends I could talk to. But if all my friendship does is bring pain, does that have any sense? If by making a friend I make him suffer thinking that I am ignoring him-I do not want that. I’d rather not hurt anyone, even if I have to give up my own pleasure of knowing you all…
It hurt me. It really did. I am admitting, that seeing quite a few people thinking that I’m “hurting them on purpose” is a hit lover the belt. Yes, I was not the best friend you could talk to for a pretty long time and I am sorry, but just cause I wanted to keep all of what I said from all of you, so you would not worry does not mean that I don’t care!
One sentence from a friend today made me break down. I am so freaking hurt to see that I am hurting people with my “ignorance”. I am sorry alright? I am… I am also really hurt that some would actually think that I’m doing this on purpose and enjoying it…
If I end up hurting my friends on FIM, and if me not talking to them makes them feel so low and sad, I do not think that I should do it anymore… maybe it would be best if I stopped making new friends, or better yet-left? I can make a new account, meant only to talk with sad people, not making any friends. This way I would at least be useful. I do not have the time to write stories anyways, so my being here is not entirely needed.
I seriously have to rethink if I want to stay on FIM… seems like I’m doing more damage than good… I don’t need those “no, don’t leave”, as I’m not saying that I will. If I decide that I will leave-I will tell you, and I will leave. I am not the one to create useless drama. If I decide-I will tell you. For now, the purpose of this blog was to explain myself before a few people, and apologize to them.
I may be offline again, or jump in for a few minutes everyday for the next few days, as I have to seriously rethink all of this and get myself back together. if any of you feel like they are in need of a shoulder to cry on or a pon to talk to-message me saying it in the topic of the message and I will respond as soon as I see it.
Stay happy my hoofians.
Lime, don't ever be scared to talk to me. You're not a burden, or problem even in the slightest.
I love you and everything about you. You're an awesome dude and I'm very happy we met. I want to talk to you more often, but you're not on frequently when I am. Seeing this makes me think I haven't been a good enough friend, I haven't made you feel loved enough. I'm not going anywhere buddy, you can always count on me.
Omg lime. You have business that u need to attend to. Its fine you left. Some people leave for a year without warning. You warned us! Don't be afraid. Oh COURSE I still like You!
3532047 You and me both
Come on, don't be like that! My PM box is always opened, you know. Besides, I'm sure everyone understands!
Your awesome too.
Also, if you want to chat that's fine, I wouldn't think your a burden.
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dude, tbh, I thought about leaving FIM twice.
once-a few weeks after joining the FIM, and second now. You may not know this but you were the reason I stayed the 1st time. You made me believe in FIM, so trust me, you are amazing
I know I'm not on frequently, that's the thing... I am so sorry I just can't be... and
that's the problem... I see now that I am making too many ponies feel this way, and this is horrible. I'm sorry, I really do appreciate your friendship, I do, I just have no ways of being here too often now...
3532060 Listen bro, I'm here for you. We all want you to stay. Did I really keep you around? That's the best news I've ever heard on here. I talk to people who are depressed all the time, and it feels like talking to a wall. But hearing I actually made a difference to someone feels amazing. Please stay, talk to me lime. I'm here for you whenever you need me.
You are a really good person, Lime
Seriously, you help so many, there shouldn't be anything more people can expect of you.
Also, a PM never bothered me before, plus you're super fun to talk to! But we all understand you have to focus on real life problems. Though you don't have to worry, we wub you too and we'll wait until you return
I understand how you feel, I'm always shy about messaging people as well or I feel like they may get annoyed with me but if you ever want to chat I'm here for you or if you would like me to message you every once in a while just say
... I think that it's not us that need a shoulder to cry on... It's you. We're your friends, and we care for you... Let us! *hugs tight*
Never be afraid to msg me, Lime. I've liked you from the very first time I met you, am impressed by your creative talents and think you're cool. And, no, you have never, ever ever bugged me. Never. I always like hearing from you, even though I haven't in a while.
Also, remember that there's a lot of pons on here who are also very shy and are also a bit afraid to msg others so you're not alone there. Just remember that you're a very well liked member of FIMfiction and that this site just wouldn't be the same without you.
Hey, Lime, I'm sorry we stopped talking. You really are an awesome pony and an awesome friend. I, like you, am just very shy and don't want to feel like a bother. So if you do leave, I'll respect that, but let's find a way to stay in touch. Because I enjoy chatting with you, and it's crazy how many things we have in common. I know we can become better friends as time goes on.
Oh, and by the way, don't be ashamed to admit all that you did in the blog. I know how it feels to be so physically and emotionally drained, to have to talk your friends down from suicide. You're so willing to help others, so let me help you. Give me a nudge on the shoulder if you ever want or need somepony to talk to. This bard's got your back.
Lime, you don't have to be afraid to talk to me. We haven't spoken in weeks as far as I know, and I really miss talking to you. You don't annoy me, in probably the one annoying you because das how I roll motherfucka B)
I really wish I could give you a big hug irl right now but I can't
So have online hugs! *hugs you tight* 
I suppose that I should talk to people more on this website but I never really know what to say and I admit that I'm not the most sociable of peeps on here... I'm terrible that I don't respond to blogs or PM's more, especially when peeps need someone to talk to. I suppose I just use this website to read, and that is all, instead of trying to speak to you lot.
I feel crap for not speaking to any of you on a more regular basis then I'm sorry...
-Frost
3532054 thank you...
3532058 not everypony so it seems :/
but I got your point, thank you c:
p.s. thanks again for that Lime pic (yep, I ain't letting that go just yet xD it is SO LIMETASTIC *w *)
3532059 thank you. and right back at you c:
3532098 I'm not too good of a pon, but I am trying to fix that... Thank you o/// o
p.s. I wub talking to you too :3 Thanks for making me feel welcome >w <
3532183 I would wub that, you're awesome ^w ^
3532314 *slips away from your hug* no touchies ponies :c
thank you catman *pats your tail*
3532607 I'm sorry... I was really busy even before the incident (when I made this blog). Ant this whole month I was away just cooling down, and gluing myself back together into one piece.
I have no idea why you are so nice to me, I know that I ain't too good at what I draw, but thank you really much for supporting me and boosting my confidence. You're an awesome pon, and I'm glad that I stumbled upon your wife and you ^- ^ (P.S. say "hi" to her from me >w < )
3532885 thanks Bard :3
and I know, it's creepy how much we're alike O- O
I really like you bro, you're bardastic! ^- ^
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*squeeks from your hug* LIME NO HUGSIES! :C
tbh, you are actually a pon who I was sure that I made sick, and I was sure that you're just so done with me o/// o
thought you hate me or shiz :c
I missed talking to you to ya hammereye
3533653 dude it's not your fault... I'm not too sociable as well, but please don't blame yourself. You're a hell of a pony, I really like you Frost :3
go easy on yourself, you deserve your own admiration
Thank y'all for ... well... being here for me, and understanding, for taking your time to read this. I have been really shattered for the past month, but I think that I'm comming back to FIM already c: . Maybe I will be less on for the next couple of days, maybe weeks, but it's cause I have no time, not that I'm sitting in a corner crying or anything
Thank you all awesome amazing terrific pons, this Lime wubs and respects you 
3605637 Your wish is my command
3605637 Nu I no hate chu
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I really like you too limey, you're an awesome user too and (not to be a sappy peep) but I think of you as a friend and dont be afraid to PM me at all please!
-Frost
P.S that means all of you lot as well, if you need to speak about anything, I'm all ears!
3605637 Geesus. You were really gone for a month?
Also, I'm glad you still like it. 
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First, welcome back! Next, thanks! Now, as I've told you time and again, you underestimate yourself and your talent, which is awesome. Really there aren't that many artists in the fandom who can draw with the level of truly professional skill that you do. I'm actually a little envious, really, but in a good way. If I could draw half that well when I was in my teens/early twenties I would have happily gone on to developing a career in cartooning and graphic novels. As it was it took me much longer to develop my own skills to a level even close to yours.
As for you as a person, son, you are a pleasure and a delight and you never fail to make me smile both by what you create and by what you say. My wife and I are honored to know you as you are one of the few who makes her smile as well.
I can understand how having real-life things to deal with would cause your absence but I'm glad it's behind you now and I'm certainly happy to have you back among us.
3605637 ...... *pat*
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WOOHOOHOO
WOOHOOHOOHOOHOO
*RANZ*
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And thank you, Lime! You're awesome!