Possible Hiatus. · 11:27pm Sep 12th, 2015
For the few of you who may remember... I have a stepfather who wasn't very nice to my mom. He frequently drank until he couldn't see straight, hit her, yelled at her and overall was a douche. But recently, he'd been trying to change all that. He got clean- didn't touch any beer or anything. He didn't hit my mother. He wasn't mean to her anymore.
A few weeks ago, he fucked all that up.
he disappeared, and wasted all of my mother's money on alcohol and drugs.
So, they were preparing a divorce. My mother was to stay with my aunt for the time being.
However, I just received some... conflicting news.
My stepfather died today. He drank until his liver couldn't take it anymore, and he died.
I was starting to warm up to him again, you know? I went fishing with him, played video games with him, Hell, I thought of him as a second father again. And then he fucks everything up, and now he went and got himself killed. Did I love him as a father? I don't know, and I don't think I ever will.
Do I grieve his loss? For my mother, yes. For me? I'll have to get back to you on that one.
I'm putting everything on possible hiatus. I just don't know if I can write right now.
First of all i would say condolences for the passing of your love one.
Second you need to be strong because you never know what lies ahead.
Stay strong .
I... Sorry. I don't honestly know what else I can put here other than sorry. It doesn't mean anything at all, but it's all I can give. And I hope you can forgive me for that later, though now isn't exactly the best time. It seems the best people in life are the ones that have to overcome the worst hardships... You don't deserve anything like this.
Okay.
My deepest condolences to you, and your mother.
Reality is, and will always be more important than this website.
I hope you're okay.
If you ever need anyone to talk to, just let me know, I'm available.
3388515 Don't worry about me, I'm strong. My mom, however...
3388643 Nobody deserves anything like this. But your sorry's are enough- Right now all I need is just some kind words.
3388929 Weird, usually I'm the one saying that. "I'm available".
Just a few months ago I lost my aunt on my dad's side. I didn't expect to go through this again so soon.
3388939 Good to see your sense of humor is still there.
But, seriously, if you need anyone to talk to, I'm here.
3388945 Thanks, man.
I haven't even cried. Does that make me a bad person? I saw him as family, and he tried his best to be a good stepfather (Most of the time.), and I saw him as another father... But I'm not crying. I'm sad, yeah... But I thought it would be more. I... seem to have gotten over the shock pretty quickly.
When my grandfather died, I was in a funk for a good few months. When my aunt died, I couldn't do anything for a few weeks. But now... I'm barely showing anything. I'm still siting here, typing away, or even playing video games. I just... don't know.
3388954 Hm...
I doubt you have gotten over it, that never just happens.
It's likely it's a subconscious thing that will bubble to the surface in time.
3389386 Like I said, I am strong. My mother isn't.
Thanks, Rammington. It means a lot to me.
im sorry for your loss it was his own fault though and be strong and
well done for soul saviour that was a cool chapter=)