One-Trick Pony (Or How I Know That I'm A Writer, But Not A Good One) · 11:59am Sep 7th, 2015
When I look into the similar section of the recommendation list, I often see my own stories. Either I am an awesome cad filling in stories in a sorely deprived niche of pony fics or, more likely, that my fics have gotten samey.
And is that a bad thing?
Well fuck, I don't know. This world's too short to revel in doing things that you don't want. My thoughts on my stories tend to fluctuate with my mood. I am extremely fond of the term goodly crap when I describe them to people in real-life. When I think of my earlier fics, they were just me fumbling around, trying to find something that sticks. And I'm still doing the same thing.
I guess, I'm just waiting for that one person to pop out of the woodwork on some story, give me a list of things relating to my writing and the story at hand, and I'd stare at it for weeks before growing a level. Taking the advice and applying it. Transforming into some masterclass writer.
But in reality, that's not going to happen.
Or if it does, I've would have moved on to the next story where advice doesn't apply anymore because I've already solved the problem by throwing everything on the wall. In frustration. In this sickening awareness that I've done something wrong but I'm not good enough to fix it. Not yet.
And I honestly want to have fun while becoming good, while writing forward.
Sometimes, it doesn't feel like I'm going anywhere but the numbers keep on climbing. I write another story and I grow just a little.
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