Fimfiction, it's always been messy between us · 1:05pm Aug 25th, 2015

Maybe I was a fool?

Thinking I was the gal who could tame you? Hold you longer in my arms before my body goes cold.

I had no true ambition. I just wanted to be on top, just once. And even when I was, it never felt like it. Nothing solid. Nothing true. Nothing to do with you, baby. I don't know my directions. I don't know me from you.

We danced.

But you had no feet and I had no eyes.

You made every smile hurt. You chewed me straight up. And I loved the way it felt. Couldn't even take you home to my mother but I loved you. Loved you like a madwoman. Loved you like words hitting the cutting floor and hours lost and tomorrows muffled. It was always about today, today, today. Did you love that about me, baby?

Even now, the old scars makes me want to push you into a wall and make you remember my name.

And you won't.

And that's how I like you. How I love you.

There's not even a ring on my finger and yet I have thirty-five kids to be toddling around.

Do I love them?

Do I hate them?

They all look like you but they all wish to come with me.

Do you love them?

Do you hate them?

You don't even remember all their names, baby. I love that about you, baby.

Let's dance some more. I'm not leaving. I'm right here. Opening the door and packing my bags. No, keep dancing. You don't need me there. I won't pretend that I will ever resist coming back.

You know me.

I know you.

I'm sightless. You're soundless.

We don't need each other. We love each other and I'm afraid this is as close as we will get to-